A/N: This is the second part to the last chapter titled "The Truth." I don't own any of the characters.

Guilt

Hank returned to Chicago and he was pretty upset. He never expect the woman he loved more than life itself to tell him that she had a drunken one night stand with someone else and didn't remember anything about it. How could she do that to him? How could she betray him like that? He knew one thing, it was going to take a very long time for him to be able to trust her again. He walked from the gate and headed to Baggage Claim. He got his luggage, headed to the parking garage to get his SUV and headed home. He only got a few hours of sleep before he had to get up to head to the District. When he arrived, Trudy was already there and in her usual spot.

"I thought you were heading to New York."

"Well, you thought wrong."

Hank went upstairs not paying attention to who was there. He went into his office and slammed the door. Al was already there, so he knocked on the door to see if Hank was ok.

"Hey, Man. You ok?"

"Nope and I don't want to talk about it."

"Ok. I'm here if you need to talk about it."

"Thanks for the offer, Olinsky but no one can fix this."

Al left and then everyone else, including Rollins and Carisi came in.

"I thought you two would be on your way back to New York by now."

"We wanted to see if there was anything else you needed us for before we leave."

"You'll have to ask Voight but he's in a mood this morning."

"I thought Voight was heading to New York."

"I thought so too."

"I'll go talk to him."

"Good luck, kid."

Carisi went to Hank's office and knocked on the door.

"Come on in."

Carisi opened the door.

"Do you need me and Rollins for anything else?"

"I don't think so."

"You ok?"

"Not really."

"You didn't go to New York?"

"Obviously not. Listen, kid, I'm really not in the mood to talk about this."

"Ok."

Carisi was about to shut the door.

"You sure you don't want to talk about it?"

"I'm sure."

"Ok."

Carisi left Hank's office and then he and Amanda left. Right after they headed to the airport, Olivia arrived. She left on the first flight out of New York, leaving Fin by himself. Fin knew the reason she was going and what had happened with Hank. Olivia walked into the District and saw Trudy.

"Hey, Lieutenant."

"Hey, Sergeant Platt."

"Does Hank know you're here?"

"Uh, no. I'm probably the last person he wants to see."

"Rollins and Carisi just left."

"Good."

"Good luck with him. He's in a foul mood."

"I don't doubt it."

Olivia headed up the stairs and Trudy buzzed her in. She headed up the rest of the way. Everyone but Hank was up there.

"Hey, Lieutenant."

"Hey. Where's Hank?"

"Washroom."

"Ok. Don't tell him I'm here."

"Yes, Ma'am."

Olivia went into Hank's office and sat down on the sofa. Hank came back and as promised, no one said anything. He walked into his office and shut the door.

"What the hell do you want?"

"I want to talk."

"I think you've said enough."

"No, actually, I haven't. I want you to hear me out."

"Fine. Say what you came here to say and then get the hell out of my office and my life."

Hank sat down behind his desk and pretended to listen.

"You're not listening."

"That's because I don't care."

"I need to explain this to you."

"Like I said, I don't give a damn about you and your new boyfriend."

"He's not my boyfriend. He's not anything. It happened."

"Do you really expect me to believe you after you cheated on me? You cheated on me, Benson. I can't forgive you for that, especially since trust is one of the most important things to me in a relationship. You broke that trust and it will take me a long time before I will ever trust you again. Did you think about my feelings when you were screwing that guy?"

"I don't remember what happened."

"That's a bunch of crap. Was this with some random guy that you met in a bar?"

"No. It was with someone I know."

"Well, then I guess that makes it ok."

"Quit being such an ass."

"I thought I meant something to you."

"You do. It never should have happened but it did. I swear on my mother's grave that it meant nothing to me and I have been a mess since it happened. I haven't slept since."

"Why should I believe you?"

"When I woke up the next morning, I realized what had happened and all I could think about was how I was going to tell you. I have been living with the guilt I have been feeling ever since it happened. I knew you'd react this way and I deserve to have you hate me. I just want you to know that I love you and I always will even if you never forgive me for what happened."

"What exactly happened?"

"I had had a bad day and a tough case. Barba and I have been bickering a lot more about cases. I went to the bar and I started drinking. Trevor Langan, who's my lawyer but also a friend, came in and we had a few drinks together. By the time we left the bar, we were both kind of tipsy. He left his car at the bar and we took a cab to my apartment. Noah was at a sleepover. Trevor sent the cab on its way and walked me up. We had another glass of wine. The next thing I knew was that it was the next morning and Trevor and I were both naked in my bed. I don't even remember how we got there and neither does he. I don't sleep naked unless I've had sex and he said he didn't either, so I know something happened. I swear to you. That's all I remember."

Olivia had tears running down her face.

"I am so sorry. I will do anything to regain your trust and go back the way things were between us. Just please tell me what I have to do to make that happen. I don't want to be with anyone but you. You should know that."

"Benson, I need time to process all this."

"I understand. I'm staying at the hotel I've stayed at before."

Olivia got her stuff and left before she headed to the hotel. Hank had a lot of thinking to do.

To be continued…