A/N: If you saw the Season Finale of PD, you will know what this is about. There will definitely be a part 2 to this. I don't own any of the characters.

Gone but Not Forgotten

With Denny Woods now in custody, Hank would have thought he'd be happy. Normally he and Al would go out drinking to celebrate but Al was gone. His best friend and partner in crime was dead. Stabbed to death in prison. Hank felt like it was his fault since Al took the blame for something he did. Hank sat on the roof of a building and drank his sorrows away. He punched the door, he threw the empty bottle off the roof and watched it shatter onto the asphalt below, he cried and he screamed. He stood at the edge of the roof and actually thought about ending his own life. Would anyone really miss him? Was life really worth living when he had pretty much lost everyone he had ever cared about? He had Olivia, Noah and Erin in his life but they lived 800 miles away. Would they even care? He sat against the wall lost in his own thoughts but the more he thought about things, the more upset he became. He put his head down and cried again. He decided just to head home but left his car there as he was in no condition to drive. He called a cab and then it took him home. When he got home, all he wanted was to be left alone but Erin and Olivia were there at Trudy's request. She knew her friend was having a hard time. Erin still had her key, so she just went in once they arrived. They looked through the house but didn't see Hank. They sat in the living room and waited for him. When he arrived at home, he paid the cab driver and went into the house. He really wasn't surprised to see Olivia. Even though he wanted to be by himself, he was glad she was there. Olivia wrapped her arms around Hank and held him as he cried again. She rubbed his back as she comforted him.

"Let it out."

"My best friend is dead. Now I'm left with no one."

"You still have us, remember? We're not going anywhere. At least not right now."

By the time Hank calmed down, he hugged Erin and he and Olivia sat down and kissed. There was a knock at the door, so Erin went to answer it. It was Meredith.

"Hey, Erin."

"Hey. I'm so sorry to hear about Al. He was a great guy and he'll be missed."

"Thanks. Is Hank here?"

"Yeah. Come on in."

Meredith came in as Erin shut the door.

"Hey, Olivia."

"Hey, Meredith. I am so sorry for your loss."

"Thank you. Hank, can we talk?"

"Are you going to blame me for Al's death? Because if you are, I don't really want to hear about it. I've done nothing but blame myself ever since they told me he didn't make it."

"I owe you an apology for what I said to you at the jail. I know there was nothing Al wouldn't have done for you. You were his best friend, Hank. Through thick and thin. You were there the day Lexi was born and you were there with us when she died. I don't know what I'm going to do. My daughter is dead and now my husband is too. He was having such a hard time after Lexi's death."

"Yeah, I know. I lost Justin only two years ago and losing Al just opened old wounds for me with being able to deal with Justin's death."

Hank got up, went over to Meredith and wrapped his arms around her. She then broke down.

"If you need anything, just call."

"I will. Thanks. Thanks for being such a good friend to him."

"I loved him. You know that."

"Yeah, I know. He loved you too. Oh, would you say something about him at the funeral?"

"I would."

"He wouldn't want it any other way. Thanks."

"Sure."

"I better go. I have to make all the arrangements in the morning."

"If you need someone to go with you, let me know."

"I will."

Meredith hugged Hank, Olivia and Erin and then she left.

"Are you sure you can handle speaking about him?"

"Yeah. Are you going to stay for the funeral?"

"I hope to."

"Me too."

"Fin, Rollins and Carisi all said they'd come for the funeral."

"That's great."

"What happened anyway? Platt didn't get into details."

They all sat down again and Hank told Olivia and Erin everything.

"Wow! I never expected Al to take the blame for this."

"Well, he did."

"I'm sorry, Hank. I really am."

Erin broke down and Hank wrapped his arms around her. Everyone went up to bed. Normally Hank and Olivia would make love before they went to sleep but Hank just wanted Olivia to be there for him. He just wanted to feel her arms around him like he had done for her so many times before. The next morning, Hank was the first one up. He had slept better than he thought he would but being close to Olivia made him feel a lot better and it didn't feel like he had any affects from the alcohol he had consumed the night before. He headed downstairs and headed to the kitchen to start breakfast when the doorbell rang. Hank answered it. It was the squad and Trudy.

"Hey."

"Hey. How'd you sleep last night?"

"Better than I thought. Olivia and Erin were here when I got home. Meredith stopped over last night. She's going to go make the arrangements this morning. She wants me to speak about him at the funeral."

"As you should. We heard Woods was arrested last night."

"Yeah, he was."

"Good."

Hank finally decided to come clean with the squad and Trudy as well.

"I am really blaming myself for Al's death."

"I think it's safe to say that most of us have wanted to get revenge on someone at some point. I know I wanted to kill Pulpo after he took Diego."

"I wanted to go after the guy that killed my dad."

"Al wanted to go after the guy that killed Lexi. I know I do a lot of questionable things but there's nothing I wouldn't do for any of you."

"We know."

"Antonio, if you told the Board the truth about what you really saw with that Carlos guy, I don't care."

"I told him he did have a gun but I couldn't say for sure that he was reaching for it because I got there after you had shot him. Honestly, I think I would have done exactly what you did. That son of a bitch had one of our family members killed. This is about Al and not about what you did or didn't do. This unit is a family and families stick together."

Antonio hugged Hank and everyone had tears in their eyes. Olivia and Erin had come downstairs. Olivia held Hank again and Erin hugged everyone. The last person she hugged was Jay the same way she had when they had found Nadia in a shallow grave only 3 years ago and she broke down again. He held her as tightly as he could and let her cry.

"I miss you."

"I miss you too."

"We brought coffee and doughnuts."

"Is there enough for everyone?"

"Yeah. I'm the one that got those two out here."

"Thanks for that."

"You're welcome."

Hank and Olivia went to get some chairs from the kitchen and everyone sat in the living room and they all talked about their favorite memories of Al as they drank coffee and ate doughnuts. Because the entire unit was in mourning, they all ended up taking some time off as did Trudy. Meredith called to have everyone go to the Funeral Home with her, so they all met her there and then everyone left. Erin spent some time with Jay and they ended up having dinner together. That gave Hank and Olivia some time alone. Olivia had called Fin to let him know when Al's funeral was. No one in the Intelligence Unit was looking forward to saying goodbye to Al. Hank wasn't sure he's be able to get through speaking about Al without getting choked up or breaking down. He did know one thing, he was glad Olivia was there for him because he would never be able to get through any of this without her.

To be continued…

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