A/N: This relates to last week's crossover after Jay and Will lose their dad. Olinsky is still alive in this one. I don't own any of the characters.
Proud
Hank arrived home after a long day. Olivia was watching the news and Noah was sleeping over at a friend's house.
"Everything ok?"
"Not really."
"Sit and tell me what happened?"
Hank sat on the sofa next to Olivia and she put her arm around him.
"Jay and Will lost their dad in that fire."
"What?"
"Yeah. I ended up taking Jay off the case because it was too personal for him. I told him to give Hailey his keys and his 2-way. That didn't stop him though. He killed the suspect but almost got himself killed as well. I yelled at him for not listening to me."
"You had to do what you had to do."
"Yeah, I guess. Maybe I should call Erin to let her know."
Hank got out his phone and dialed Erin's number but got her voice mail.
"Hey, Erin, it's me. Call me when you have a minute. Bye."
Hank hung up the phone.
"Where's Noah?"
"He's sleeping over at a friend's house."
"Ok. Do you want to go to Molly's?"
"Sure."
Hank and Olivia left and headed to Molly's. When they arrived, mostly everyone was there, including the group from 51 and the people from Med.
"Hey, Sarge. Lieutenant."
"Hey. Two Manhattans, Herrmann."
"You got it."
Hank and Olivia joined Trudy, Mouch, Al and Meredith.
"Trudy or Al, have either of you seen Halstead?"
"I haven't."
"Me neither. Did you think to call Erin?"
"I left her a message to have her call me."
"Good. Where's Noah?"
"He's sleeping over at a friend's house."
Herrmann brought the Manhattans over.
"Thanks."
"No problem."
Then Natalie came over.
"Hank, did you think to call Erin?"
"I left her a message to call me. Do you know where Jay is?"
"They went to start going through things at their dad's apartment. Will said they'd meet me here."
"Good."
"How's Owen?"
"He's doing great. He's with his grandma. She and Will have been getting along better and she's been great ever since we told her we're getting married. Owen seems to be getting long better with Will too. Helen said that Will probably needed me tonight, so she'd take Owen. How's Noah?"
"He's great. He's sleeping over at a friend's tonight."
"That's great."
Hank's phone rang, so Hank stepped outside to answer it. It was Erin, so he told her what was going on and she said she'd get a flight to Chicago as soon as she could. By the time he hung up, Jay and Will had arrived.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"You guys, ok?"
"We're trying to let is sink in."
"If you need to talk, I'm here. Jay, I know we haven't always seen eye to eye but I know what you're going through."
"Yeah, thanks."
"I just talked to Erin and she said she's going to get a flight to Chicago as soon as she can."
"Thanks. That means a lot. I'm sorry I disobeyed you. If it wasn't for that son of a bitch, our dad would still be alive."
"I get it. It's me you're talking to. You mentioned that you had a complicated relationship with your dad. My relationship with Justin was complicated too. It wasn't until Olivia and I got together and got married that Justin and I started respecting each other more. Olivia had become Mom to him and she loved him as much as she loves Noah. His death hit both of them hard. I was proud of Justin for everything he had accomplished."
"I found some articles about me in my dad's stuff. I never thought he was proud of me but it turns out, he was. He just had a funny way of showing it."
"I understand. I had a funny way of showing it with Justin sometimes."
"Losing my dad really hurts."
"I know. I'm here if either of you need to talk. Olivia is too. Take as much time off as you need."
"Thanks. I appreciate that."
Hank patted Jay on the back and then the 3 of them went inside. Hank joined Olivia, Al, Meredith, Trudy and Mouch and Jay and Will joined Natalie. Olivia got up, went over to Jay and gave him a big hug. Then she hugged Will.
"I am so sorry about your dad."
"Thanks."
Olivia went back over to their table and Wallace and Donna had come over.
"How's Kidd?"
"She's doing fine. She'll be back to work in no time."
"Good."
"I take it that was Erin?"
"Yeah. She said she was going to try to get a flight out as soon as she could. I told both Jay and Will that if either of them need to talk, I'm here and so are you."
"Ok."
Hank rubbed his hands over his face and then Olivia rubbed his back.
"You look tired."
"I am."
"Let's go home. We made an appearance."
"Yeah, maybe."
"Night, you two"
"Night."
Hank and Olivia got up and then they headed out after they said goodnight to everyone else. Olivia drove home and then Hank went up to get ready for bed as soon as they got home. Olivia locked up and went up to the bedroom. She got ready for bed and joined Hank in bed.
"What's going on?"
"I'm just thinking about Justin."
"I think about him a lot too."
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For always being so supportive and for loving me even though sometimes I don't deserve it."
"You deserve it, even though you can be pretty stubborn sometimes."
"Thanks a lot."
"I didn't mean it that way. I don't think I could have been this happy with anyone else and I wouldn't have left New York for just anyone. You make my life complete. I love you so much."
"I love you too."
Hank and Olivia started kissing and then they fell asleep in each other's arms. They had been asleep for a short time when the doorbell rang. Hank heard it, so he got up and went downstairs to answer it. It was Jay.
"Hey, Jay."
"Hey. I didn't know where else to go."
"Come on in."
"Thanks."
Jay came in and then he and Hank went into the living room to sit down.
"Can I get you anything?"
"No, thanks. I never had the best relationship with my dad and I said some stuff to him that I can never take back. Sometimes I get advice from Olinsky. You two are pretty much all I have left as far as father figures go."
"Like I said before, I'm here if you want to talk. I know I've never been your favorite person and that was basically because of Erin."
"I understand why you never wanted us to date and be partners. I still care deeply for her."
"I know, which is why I called her to tell her. She made the decision to come to Chicago on her own."
"Is it wrong for me feel bad about what I said to my dad?"
"We have all said things we regret that we will never be able to take back. It may stick with you for the rest of your life but maybe he knew you didn't mean it. I'm glad I worked things out with Justin before he died. I'm also glad that I was given a second chance with Noah to be the father I should have been to Justin."
"I wish I had been a better son."
"I think the fact that he had those article says how proud of you he was. Maybe he didn't know how to tell you that he was proud of you."
"Yeah, maybe."
"I'm sure he was proud of both of you."
"No doubt he was proud of Will. Will wasn't around much either. He wasn't here when our mom died. I get blamed for everything."
"You were the one that was there the most. My relationship with Justin fell apart after Camille died and Erin tried to be the strong one. She basically told us to get our shit together or she'd kick both our asses. I'm glad Olivia was there for me when Justin died. She would have said the exact same thing."
"That sounds like Erin and I can imagine her saying the same thing to me."
"You two planning to get back together?"
"I'd like to but I'm not sure how well long distance is going to work. I know it worked for you and Olivia for a while."
"It did but it was difficult. If you love each other, you make it work the best you can."
"I'd consider moving to New York but as much as l love working with Olivia's former squad, I don't know that I can handle doing SVU cases all the time."
"That's understandable. She has been thinking about wanting to come back here. She's a little overwhelmed by the FBI thing and she wants to work with Olivia. She had hoped for that but I wanted her away from Bunny."
"She definitely can't be trusted."
"No, she can't. Olivia and I have both talked to Erin and she said she misses Chicago. I told her that if she keeps Bunny out of her life, she can come back. I guess the 3 of us need to make sure that doesn't happen."
"I will. Again, I'm sorry about disobeying you earlier."
"I get why you did it but I meant what I said, it's my job to protect all of you and to make sure nothing happens to anyone in the squad. I wanted to go after the guy that killed Justin but Olivia got me through it. After losing Camille, I wasn't sure I wanted to get involved with anyone again but then Olivia came into my life. We were all hurting when we lost Justin. Olivia told me to be open about my feelings. The 3 of us went to talk to Dr. Charles."
"I tried therapy for my issues with PTSD but it wasn't for me."
"I didn't think it would be for me either but we went as a family and it did help. Olivia has been dealing with PTSD for a while too."
"We talk sometimes. I should go. Thanks for talking to me."
"No problem."
Jay left and then after Hank locked up again, he went back upstairs, got into bed with Olivia and wrapped his arms around her
"Everything ok?"
"Halstead wanted to talk."
"Ok. I love you."
"I love you too."
Hank kissed Olivia's neck and then they fell back to sleep. The next morning, they were woken up by the doorbell. Olivia got up, grabbed her robe and went down to answer it. It was Erin.
"Hey, Erin."
"Hey, Liv."
"Come on in."
"Thanks."
Erin came in, while Olivia went upstairs. She made sure Hank was up and went to the bathroom before going back downstairs and going into the kitchen to make coffee but Erin beat her to it.
"I take it you got the first flight out of New York this morning?"
"Yep. I definitely want to come back here."
"I'll see what I can do."
"Ok. Thanks."
"Sure."
After Hank had gone into the bathroom, he joined them downstairs.
"Hey."
"Hey."
Erin hugged Hank.
"She said she wants to come back and I told her I'd see what I could do."
"Ok. You know my rule."
"I know. I have to stay away from Bunny and if I don't, I'm on my own."
"That's right."
"Can I stay here while I'm here?"
"Yeah, sure. You're always welcome here."
"Thanks. Would it be a problem for me to stay here for a while if I come back here?"
"It shouldn't be a problem as long as you don't mind sharing a bathroom with Noah."
"It's not a problem with me."
The doorbell rang again, so Olivia went to answer it. It was Jay, Will, Natalie and Owen.
"Morning."
"Hey. Come on in."
"Thanks."
The 4 of them came in and followed Olivia into the kitchen. As soon as Jay saw Erin, she wrapped her arms around him and held him.
"I am so sorry about your dad."
"Thanks."
Then she hugged Will.
"We came by to see if you wanted to go out for breakfast with us."
"We need to take a shower yet and then we need to get Noah."
"I can go get Noah for you."
"Ok. That'll be a big help. I'm sure he'll be happy to see you."
Olivia wrote down the address where Noah was and then she and Hank went up to take a shower. Everyone helped themselves to coffee and Erin took hers to go, so she could go pick Noah up. Once she got back and Hank and Olivia were out of the shower, they decided on a place for breakfast. After breakfast, Erin and Natalie went with Jay and Will to the Funeral Home to make the arrangements for their dad, while Owen stayed with Hank and Olivia and played with Noah.
During the next few days, they had Pat's visitation and funeral and Erin went to formally interview with SVU. She spent as much time as she could with Jay. She ended getting the job with SVU and CPD was fine with her returning. She stayed in Chicago for the remainder of the week and then returned to New York to give her notice and start packing for the move back to Chicago.
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