A/N: This mentions parts from the last episode of SVU that aired on 4-4-19. I don't own any of the characters.

Declaration of Love

Olivia had most of the conversation with Kitty running through her mind. At first, Kitty had said she didn't want her baby because she didn't want something that was conceived by a monster. That hit close to home for Olivia. She had told Amanda about the conversation that she had overheard her mother having with someone when she was 15 when her mother said she didn't know how to love something conceived by a monster. She calmed down enough to go home to have dinner with Noah but she couldn't help but think about that conversation again, especially when she was watching Noah after he had fallen asleep. Noah was also conceived by a monster. She went to the kitchen to pour herself a glass of wine when she heard a knock at the door. She went to see who it was and was surprised to see that it was Hank. It had been over 3 years since they had last seen each other. She opened the door.

"Hey, Hank."

"Hey."

"What brings you here?"

"I'm in town visiting Erin for a few days. She's still at work, so I figured I'd venture out. I walked around for a while and ended up here."

"Come on in."

"Thanks."

Hank walked in and took his coat off. He put it over the chair and sat down on the sofa.

"Can I get you anything?"

"Sure."

Olivia got Hank a beer and then she brought it and her glass of wine into the living room.

"Here."

"Thanks. How have you been?"

"Same crap, different day."

"I know how that goes."

"Why are you really here?"

"Look, I know I said some stuff I probably shouldn't have said the last time we saw each other and I regret that. I apologize."

"You should be sorry because it hurt. I told you that I had very strong feelings for you and wanted to be with you. You acted like everything I had said to you was a big joke and you basically made me feel like a fool. I'm not even sure I want you here."

"Olivia, I get you're pissed at me and honestly, I deserve it. I was an ass to you."

Olivia had tears running down her face, much like she did that night when they last saw each other.

"I didn't mean to make you cry then and I sure as hell didn't mean to make you cry now. I'm pissed at myself for a lot that has happened in these last 3 years. What happened between us was my fault, my son's death was my fault and so was Al's death. If I hadn't done what I did to that son of a bitch that killed my son, Al would still be alive. Please stop crying."

"I'm sorry. I just had a shitty day. A shitty life, really. We had this case where the victim had found out she was pregnant with her rapist's baby. At first, she said she didn't want to keep it because it was conceived by a monster. That's my life. I was conceived by a monster and my mother didn't know how to love me because of that. No one wants me. My mother didn't. I start getting too close to someone and I end the relationship. Usually. I loved and still care for Brian but we just wanted different things. I dated Ed and I'm not really sure what I was thinking when I did that. The guy I really want never wanted me."

"That's not true. There are a few people that know how I really feel. My son knew how I felt, Al knew how I felt and Erin, Olive and Trudy know how I really feel. My heart was broken into a million pieces when Camille died and I was afraid to let anyone in after that. I've never been good with admitting my true feelings and Camille knew that but she told me that she didn't want me to be alone for the rest of my life. When you told me that you had feelings for me and wanted to be with me, I didn't know what to think. I almost ended up going to your hotel that night to admit my true feelings for you but the words weren't coming. I've basically had Erin and Trudy on my ass about this ever since and Olive normally agrees with Erin. Justin told me not to give up and just admit my feelings. That was one of the last things he said to me before we found him in his car with a bullet in his head. When Al went to prison, I told him that I didn't want him to take the blame for something I did. He told me that I had something more important to take care of. Erin has been trying to get me to come out here for the weekend and until now, I have been avoiding it. Here goes nothing. I love you, Olivia, I have ever since I came here for that case involving Teddy and you threatened to arrest me. I love you so much I can't even think straight sometimes."

Olivia had tears running down her face again. She had had men tell her they loved her before but for some reason, she knew Hank meant it. She started feeling something for him around the same time.

"Olivia, please stop crying."

"I can't help it. I love you too. I started feeling something for you around the same time. I'm damaged though."

"Do you honestly think I care about that? I've been through enough shit in the last decade to last me a lifetime. Just because you were conceived by a monster, doesn't mean that you don't deserve to have someone love you the way you should be. You survived what that son of a bitch Lewis did to you. Your kid loves you."

"Sometimes I even wonder about that. Some nights I can't even get home to have dinner with him and put him to bed. At times, he has told me that he wishes Lucy was his mother. How can I not take that personally?"

"Some days, maybe you need to just say 'screw it' and call it a day. Fin, Rollins and Carisi are very capable of handling things on their own for a few hours."

"Yeah, that's true. I can't tell you the last time I actually had a day off to spend with my son, let alone have a day for myself. Hank?"

"Yeah."

"Do you want to kiss me?"

"Yeah, I do."

Olivia moved, so she was closer to Hank. They leaned into each other and started kissing.

"Hank?"

"Huh?"

"Do you want to continue this in the other room?"

"Uh huh!"

Olivia got up went to put her glass and Hank's beer bottle in the kitchen, while Hank got up. Olivia made sure the door was locked and then she took Hank's hand before they headed toward the bedroom. She looked in on Noah and then they went into her bedroom. Olivia shut the door as Hank got on the bed. Olivia walked over to him and they started kissing again. He started to undo her blouse and she undid his shirt. They finished undressing each other and then they made love. Afterwards they were wrapped in the sheets and in each other's arms.

"Hank Voight, you are amazing!"

"A little rusty maybe."

"Don't underestimate yourself."

"You're pretty amazing too. Just so you know, I'm not into one night stands. I want more out of this."

Olivia had tears running down her face again.

"I do too."

"Now why are you crying?"

"Because I'm happy."

"How are we going to handle being in a relationship with us in two different cities?"

"I don't know right now but I'm sure we will figure something out. I guess the next step is officially introducing you to the other man in my life. I know you two met briefly after Yates' trial but he probably doesn't remember you."

"He's how old now?"

"He's 6. Can you believe that?"

"No. My grandson will be 4 soon. Can you believe that?"

"That does not seem possible. How's he doing?"

"He's doing great. Olive has done a great job with him."

"How's she doing?"

"She still has her good days and her bad days. She's made some really good friends in Scottsdale and Daniel has playdates with some of his friends from preschool. I'm planning to go out there for his birthday and Auntie should be going too. They came to see me for Christmas."

"Does Erin visit you much?"

"She came for Christmas."

"When are you going?"

"Memorial Day weekend. I would like to introduce you to them sometime."

"Maybe I'll see what I can do about taking that weekend off. Noah has a 3-day weekend from school anyway."

"I'm planning to leave Saturday."

"Then maybe I will see if I can get a flight to Chicago on Friday evening and then fly out there with you. If that's ok."

"Yeah, that's ok."

Olivia got out of bed, put something on, which ended up being Hank's shirt and went into the bathroom to brush her teeth. She left a brand new one on the counter for Hank. Hank had gotten out of bed, put his boxers on and was standing in the doorway of the bathroom.

"I found a toothbrush for you."

"Thanks."

Olivia finished up in the bathroom and got back into bed, while Hank went into the bathroom. Once he was done, he got back into bed with Olivia. They kissed each other goodnight and fell asleep in each other's arms.

The next morning, Noah had woken up and had gone into the bathroom. Sometimes on Saturday mornings, he went into Olivia's bedroom and crawled into bed with her for a while. He opened the door and went in but he wasn't prepared to see a strange man in his mother's bed. He went over to the other side of the bed and shook Olivia to wake her up.

"Mom? Mom, wake up! MOM!"

"Huh?"

"Why is there a strange man in your bed?"

Olivia still wasn't quite awake but opened her eyes

"What?"

"There is a strange man in your bed."

"Come up here."

Noah crawled up on the bed as Olivia shook Hank to wake him up.

"Huh?"

"Wake up!"

"I'm awake."

"Noah Sweetie, this is Hank Voight, Mommy's friend from Chicago. Hank, this is my son Noah."

"It's nice to meet you, Hank."

"You too, kiddo."

Noah extended his arm to shake Hank's hand, so Hank shook hands with him.

"Are you a cop too?"

"Yeah, I am. Your mom and I worked on a couple cases together, so that's how we met."

"Ok. Are you my mom's boyfriend?"

"Noah!"

"Well, I want to know."

"We have a lot to work out but we're going to try to be in a relationship, even though it'll be long distance. We may be going to Chicago quite a bit and he will probably be coming here too. I do love him. I know that. I've been in love with him since we first met. You were pretty little when we met and you did meet him once but you probably wouldn't remember that."

"I'm ok with going to Chicago."

"Good. I didn't know he was going to show up last night. The next time Hank stays over, you will know about it first, ok?"

"Ok. Hank, do you love my mom?"

"Yeah, I do."

"Good."

Hank got out of bed and went into the bathroom. Olivia heard someone pounding on the door.

"Noah, stay here."

"Ok."

Olivia left the bedroom, grabbed her gun from where she had it locked up and went to answer the door. It was Fin and Erin.

"What the hell is wrong with you two? Who pounds on someone's door at this hour?"

"Sorry. I'm just worried about Hank. He never came back to my apartment last night. Wait, is that Hank's shirt?"

"Maybe."

"It is Hank's shirt. I would recognize it anywhere. You two slept together last night, didn't you?"

"I'm not saying a word."

"Liv, spill it! Are you and Voight a thing now?"

Hank had come out of the bedroom and came up behind Olivia. He kissed her neck as Olivia invited Erin and Fin in and shut the door. She then went to put her gun away.

"Well, I guess our secret is out."

"You could have called me. I was worried about you when you weren't in my guest room this morning."

"I'm sorry I made you worry."

"I can't take any more loss in my life. Nadia's death still haunts me and Al died because of something I did."

"Al died because of something I did. If I had listened to you in the first place, none of this would have happened."

"I did what I did to protect you because you have always been there for me. I'd be dead probably from an overdose if it hadn't been for you. You and Camille made me the person I am now. I want you to be happy and nothing would make me happier than to see you and Liv together."

"We're going to try to be in a relationship and see what happens. I invited them to come to Arizona with us when we go for Daniel's birthday. She said maybe they will fly to Chicago on Friday and fly out with me on Saturday."

"I was thinking about doing that myself. I hope the two of you can make this work."

"Yeah, me too."

"I do too."

"All I can say is, it's about damn time, Liv!"

"I'm glad we have your approval, Fin."

"I'm just sayin'."

"I'm sure you are. You always have a comment about something, especially my personal life."

"In my defense though, just the thought of you with Tucker was nasty."

"Ok, maybe I wasn't thinking clearly when I decided to start dating him but I'm glad I got to see another side of him."

"Too much information, Liv!"

"Fin, get your mind out of the gutter! It has nothing to do with what happens in the bedroom. He has a softer side that I never knew existed. My heart just wasn't in that relationship 100% because my feelings for Hank were so strong. Ed knew that all along. He knew what had happened the last time I was in Chicago. I'm surprised it lasted as long as it did. I really am. Although I think he was hoping things would have lasted longer. I just didn't love him the same way I love Hank. Hank, where's Noah?"

"He's watching TV in your bed."

"Ok."

"Do we all want to go out for breakfast?"

"Sure."

"I need to go back to Erin's to take a shower and change anyway."

"Here are my car keys. I'll just stay here."

"Ok."

"Should I call Rollins and Carisi?"

"Probably not. Amanda probably needs her sleep because of the baby. Noah wanted to go see Jesse today and I arranged it with Amanda yesterday. We can head over there after breakfast."

"That works."

Hank went to put his boots on and then he came out to get his coat. He kissed Olivia and then he headed over to Erin's to shower and change. Olivia went into her bedroom and told Noah to get dressed because they were going out for breakfast. She then went to take a shower. Noah got dressed and then he joined Erin and Fin in the living room. Once Olivia was ready and Hank came back, they decided where they were going for breakfast. They went to have breakfast and then they went over to Amanda's. Erin had plans with some friends, so Hank, Olivia and Noah spent the rest of the day together. By the time Hank headed to the airport the next day for his flight to Chicago, he and Noah had really hit it off, which made Olivia so happy. He and Olivia had already made plans for their next visit. They were both determined to make this work.

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