X. Bulletin Board Material

(Clarice drops her thoughts on public opinions)

When did somebody's relationship become an object of public opinion??

I mean, I get people care about me

(Or care about what I do or did),

But that don't mean my life is for

You to judge on forums and bulletin boards!

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You fuckin' really care what happened?

I know y'all bickering this or that some bullshit,

As if you were there with us,

Instead of being talking heads, armchair quarterbacking.

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No, I don't (and don't need to) remember each and every thing that happened,

I choose to keep events in the past as a blur,

Including the candlelight sessions,

Bones about my father,

And yeah, the fuckin' meal.

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I mean, does it truly matter if I ate,

And said (like a fucktard), "May I have som'more, please?"

Or if the bastard himself smacked his lips

And said, "Mmm, it is good!"

Don't it say, "it's not what goes into your body that defiles you;

But you are defiled by what comes from your heart?"

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Some y'all claim I sold myself to the Devil.

That depends on what you believe

He is.

I've heard it all:

Pure evil,

Sadistic psycho-sociopath,

Vampire/monster/predator,

Faustian genius,

And sex god;

Y'all must be salivating 'bout him eating me out, huh?

Like I would tell you motherfuckers!

What the hell happened to propriety and privacy??

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Then this whole business about D below middle C,

Like it's some mysterious and crafty (bull)shit.

I heard an arrow will go through my zombified head

Or the universe will implode

If/when I hear it.

Hell, I've heard it at least a thousand times by now in the

Numerous operas I've been at.

Well?

I'm still kicking,

And the sun still damn well rises each day, don't it??

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Seriously?

We're just focused on the next day,

The next play;

We're on to the next game

And we've got a plan, believe it or not,

That ain't the same-old-same-old.

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But who am I kidding?

We can have the most Hallmark movie happily ever after,

And y'all still be talking about how

Fucked up we are.

So whatever,

Go live your life.

I'm living mine,

And we'll see what happens in the end.

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(Note: Parts in quotes are attributed to what [some public forums claim] Clarice said during the infamous meal in Hannibal the book and what Paul Krendler actually says while noshing on his own brain in the movie, as well as the Gospels within the Bible. Yes, I am an American gridiron football fan [Go, Baltimore Ravens!]. All credit to football references goes to the coaches/players [and talking heads] who said them first. While the books or movies never indicate if Clarice is into gridiron football, it's possible given where she grew up, went to school, and worked. The references definitely add some spice!)