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Entry Sixteen

January 16, 2001

Today the most exciting thing happened, guess what it was. My Theo came back. Before I get into that, this morning I took my potions, ate a few bites of toast, and went back to sleep. Then Pansy woke me up, told me to take a shower or bath, but I refused, then she threatened me with having the house elves sponge bathe me, so I got up and sat in the tub filled with suds, and soaked for a bit, while Pansy washed and conditioned my hair. It felt good to have someone wash my hair, reminding me of when my grandma use to wash my hair for me and put it in a bun or braid it. After I was done, she asked if I wanted my hair dried, I told her I wanted to let it air dry. My hair hangs below my waist, I have fine thick hair. Pansy had suggested I'd wear something nice, but I said for what, after I take my afternoon potions, I am going to be sleeping. So I went into the walk in closet and got a cream color silk night gown with a matching robe. I brushed my hair out with my fingers and sat on the sofa waiting for Miffy to bring my potions. Then I slept again for the afternoon.

My soreness isn't so bad anymore, I'm moving around faster and freely, rather then being slow and stiff like I was before. My insides still hurt every now and then, I still must rest when I am moving around too much. So since I had been here for awhile, Blaise had a big plushy bear on the floor by the window. He said if I get tired of sitting on the sofa, I can lay on the bear. I had pulled the bear to the sofa, so it could be propped up on it, while I sat on it and was able to lean back, like sitting in a recliner, I had a throw over my legs, a book on my lap, and just looking out into the evening scene, the mountain was turning a blueish color, as evening was slowing fading into darkness. You could faintly see the twinkle of stars. It was a beautiful clear night. I absent mindedly looked out the window and I would look down at the book I was reading, reading the same sentence over and over again, then look out the window again.

I don't know how long I kept doing this, when I heard the door creak open, I didn't look at who it was, I assumed it was Blaise or Pansy, so I just said, can you bring dinner with my potions later. Then I heard the familiar resonant voice I have been longing for calling me. At first I thought I was just hearing things, like hallucinating, then I seen a familiar reflection in the window, and I finally turned too look behind me. There stood my husband, still in his tactical gear on, smelling like smoke and blood, I got up as fast as I could, that I wobbled a bit, and he came running to me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and broke down sobbing, I felt him pick him up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist, and he just let me cry as he comforted me. He finally sat down on the sofa with me on his lap, every time I tried to speak, I would just start crying again, and he just held me in his arms. I heard him summon the throw and he wrapped me in it while he cradled me. I had let go of the reins of my emotions, and it ran wild. I heard him summon for Suki, who came with a pop, and he asked her to bring my favorite blankets, my comfy clothes, and the special potion. Away Suki went again with another loud pop. Just as Suki left, Blaise came walking into the room, surprised to see my husband holding me, while I was being a complete wrack, he was carrying a tray of potions and dinner. He set it down, and Theo asked him what the potions were for. Before Blaise could say anything, I tried to talk, but was just crying harder and trying to catch my breath. Blaise tried to offer a calming draught to Theo, but he told him, Suki is bringing my things and my special potion. With a loud pop, Suki changed the bedding, put my down comforter and blankets down, along with my fluffy pillows. Theo told Blaise to step out for a moment and helped me change into my joggers and jumper, he also tied my hair. I finally was able to speak, I told Theo I didn't want to take any potions, because what if he leaves me again when I fall asleep. That was when he pulled me onto his lap again, and kiss the top of my head, and told me he wasn't going anywhere. He said he did not want me to go into a panic attack and when I wake up he'll be right next to me.

Since I was already on my husband's lap, he helped me drink my special potion. The only reason its call my special potion, is because it's a calming draught with a dash of sleepless draught, but instead it being bitter, it has a nice sweet and tart taste to it, its in my favorite color, lavender with iridescence sparkles and It smells like vanilla and coconut. I know, it sounds absurd, but it really helps when I am in that state. My husband really knows how to do major damage control, not that I am proud of it. I clung to him until I was limp in his lap. I slept for almost two hours, I slowly woke up, and I could hear him talking to someone, I shifted a bit, and I felt him reposition me on his lap. I could smell his scent, he didn't smell like blood or smoke anymore, I snuzzled him and woke up. I could feel my eyes were puffy and dry.

It was nice to wake up in my husband's arms, I drank water and ate some rice porridge. Draco and Blaise were both in the room with us, while I was sleeping Blaise had told both Theo and Draco what had happen and why I was given potions. After I had ate, I took my evening potions and held off on the dreamless sleeping draught, because I wanted to do my entry for the night. Theo fussed over me, and I had to whisper my thank you because my voice was still raspy. I could see the worry in his eyes, but I reassured him I was feeling better, and it was just my voice being raspy when I would talk loudly.

I am so happy he is back. As I write this, I am leaning against him, as he watches me write. I'm completely smitten over this man of mine. Theo said we are going to stay here until I am 100%, and I told him I wanted to go home. He said he wanted to stay for a bit, to relax and to be away for a bit. I just nodded my head and told him I missed him so much. I felt the warmth from him, after all those days, I finally felt warm and whole. Have you ever felt that feeling of home with someone? Where you feel like the sun is shining down on you, all the worries and anxiousness is lifted off your shoulders and you can finally breath properly and feel light. Where you look at the person who makes your world a better place, you feel those light and loving emotions well up inside you and can't help but shed happy tears. The feeling of being home, in your comfort zone and feel extremely safe. Theo makes me feel those, he brings out the best in me. I can't even describe the amount of love I possess. Until next time.

XO,

Mrs. Nott