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Entry Eighteen
January 18, 2001
Today was a good day. Mentally I am doing well, I haven't had any ugly thoughts or get stuck in a dark place. I took my potions throughout the day. Had breakfast in the dining room with Pansy. Theo and Blaise left to their business place. I had no interest in going, Blaise just eyed me when I said I didn't want to go. Probably glad I didn't go or I haven't said anything about what had happen during their dinner party. I'm beyond that, I am glad my husband is back and with me. So I don't want to ruin the mood, but I sure was wrong. Because Theo came back pissed and Blaise trailing after him. I was sitting in the library looking through a tome on curses when the door was pushed open aggressively. I looked toward the door and watched my husband walking toward me. I just sighed and figured he found out what happen. Sure enough, he did. Apparently, the guy, I don't even remember his name, had came up to Theo and apologized to him. Then Blaise had to explain to Theo what had happened, and they came back.
So there I sat, with my husband upset and questioning me about what happened. I told him it was nothing and I forgot all about it as other pressing matters took over. He sat down next to me, and pull me onto his lap. Then proceed to ask me why I didn't tell him about it and he had to hear it from Blaise. I pinched the bridge of my nose and told him, "Theo, love. It's not important and I completely forgot about it. I was dealing with other stuff and it was all I was thinking about and healing from it." He cupped my face and said, "My dear wife, I had you come here to be safe and be without stress. Not to have to go through any kind of ordeal. But that is not what happened. I wanted to Ava him right where he stood." I told him, "Don't be ridiculous Theo. You can't Ava someone because of that. I am fine, I'm serious, I forgot all about it. I am happy now you are back." He kissed my forehead and held me as I leaned into him. We sat there in the library until Pansy came into the library asking us to come into the sitting room.
Draco was in the sitting room with Blaise, and he was twirling his wand in his left hand. When he saw us walk in, he said he was there to do damage control. I rolled my eyes, and asked damage controlled for what. Draco said Blaise told him what happen and how pissed Theo was when he left and asked him to come. He stood up and strolled over to me and stood right in front of me, rested his hands on my shoulder. I looked at him, he said are you okay. I nodded my head, and he asked, do I need to ava someone. I rolled my eyes again and said no. What is up with everyone wanting to ava someone. Don't they do that enough that they are itching to ava someone. I reassured everyone I was fine and completely forgot about it. I reminded Draco, if I can stab you in the leg, what makes you think I can't protect myself. Blaise tsked and Theo pushed Draco out of the way and kiss the top of my head. Pansy sat on the chair sipping tea and asked about Draco and his stabbed leg. Why I even know how to stab someone. I looked at Blaise and he just shook his head. I didn't say anything and sat down near Pansy and asked her where she got her outfit. She was wearing a cream color sun dress, then she started talking about some shop she has been going too. It was enough to distract her. I sat there listening to her attentively and asked her to take me to her shop when she has time because I wanted to get some new trousers and blouses. It sure was enough to distract her from talking about my death eater days. I assumed she knew what I was doing with Theo and Draco, but I guess not. Blaise really sheltered her from the in and out of what was happening under the Dark Lord's reign.
Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if it stayed "normal". I'd probably be in university now, going to school for agricultural or something. Getting to be home with my family, seeing my parents and siblings, being with my animals. Those thoughts are too depressing, so I try not to think about them to much because the what ifs are to painful. Then if it didn't happen the way it did, I wouldn't have met all the people I hold dearly to my heart, and I wouldn't have met my husband.
All in all, the day went by, I was more active, able to move around more and go to different areas of the house. Pansy keeps asking when we are going to go shopping together. That is a headache in it's self, but I already said I would go with her. Right now I am sitting in bed writing. I look through the other pages where Miffy wrote for me, and I really admire her handwriting. It makes mine look like chicken scratch compared to her beautiful handwriting. I think I am going to do a penmanship class as well. I have to take my potions now and go to sleep. Goodnight.
XO,
Mrs. Nott
Author's Note:
I am behind. I have been busy with work and preparing for a business trip. Now that everything is packed and I'll be on the road being a passenger princess, I can catch up. :) Thank you for reading.