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Entry Thirty

January 30, 2001

Today was a busy day. Busy as watching my husband and Draco get healed up. I was in the library with Granger when Narcissa came barging in looking panicked. I sat up straight and looked at her. I started to get anxious, with the look on her face. She finally said Theo and Draco were back, but they were in bad shape, and I jumped up and ran to her, and caught her as she started to fall. I helped her catch her balance and sat her down on a nearby chair. I asked her where they were, she said they were in the dining room. I was at a complete lost, as I stood up, cover my mouth with my hand, and looked at Narcissa and looked at the library door. I squeezed her shoulder and ran out down the corridor into the parlor and made my way to the dining room.

When I pushed open the door, I saw Theo and Draco laying on tables and several healers working on them. I could see bloody rags on the floor, I stood at the door a what felt like forever, not knowing what to do, I went toward Theo, when my elbow was grabbed and I was yanked back. Instinctively started to fight against the hand holding my elbow, when I finally realize it was one of the death eaters Theo always goes on missions with, Lucian. I pushed him against the wall and demanded answers from him. He said they found a safe house and they were ambushed. Theo and Draco were the ones who made sure everyone else came back unscathed. Seriously, how useless could these idiots be. I asked what happen to Theo and Draco, he said he didn't know because he and the others were ordered to go, while Theo and Draco fought off several rebels. Lucian said Theo was physically fighting George Weasley and had used his cursed dagger and stabbed him in the throat before he was able to disapperate. I asked him about Draco, he said he was near Theo, covering him. Lucian pulled out a galleon, and said Theo gave this to us before we left on our mission. I recognized the galleon he had, it was the same as the ones I had made while we were at Hogwarts, it was exactly like the ones Hermonie had made, but this one was design to bring them back here to the manor when it was activated. It was only used in an emergency.

I was so angry, I slammed him into the wall, that was when I realized there were several other men standing against the wall. I looked at all of them, while they hung their heads. I was so furious, I cursed at them, asking why they were incompetent. They were chosen by Theo and Draco, I am sure they were hand picked by them, yet here they are intact while their Generals were laying on the tables being worked on. I turned around looked toward where Theo and Draco were laying, and I could feel the rage beginning to flow through out my body, I could feel the tingling from the top of my head, spreading down into the rest of my body, and I turned back to them. I dropped my tone, and said it takes six of you incompetent, useless, fucktards to fill my fucking shoes. Then I heard a scoff, I turned my head toward the man standing toward the end of the line and stood in front of him. It was Adrian Pucey, I punched him in the face twice and threw him down, before he could pull his wand, I had my blade in my hand and stabbed him in the shoulder and twist it. All I could hear was him scream in pain, his wand fell to the floor, and I picked it up.

I could feel my magic slowly leak out from its bondage, the excitement it felt, I could feel it breaking through the binding. I could feel the electrocuting shocks, but my anger numbed the pain as I felt the magic seep out of all my pores, all I could see was red. It felt exhilarating. It's the most invigorating feeling, I have yet to feel in a long while. It was thrilling to see these grown men wither in pain, as I heard bones cracking, arms and legs contorted, shrieks filled the dining room. Then everything went dark. Apparently, Lucius knocked me out and I was brought back to my room.

I woke up several hours later, bond to my bed. The only thing I could do was sit up in bed, so I propped myself up, and waiting for someone to come. I tried to call for Suki, but she didn't come. I called for Draco's house elf Libby, but she didn't come either. I notice I didn't have burns around my wrist, ankles or neck, and I heard a knock at my door and Lucius came walking into my room with two dosage of the vivid orange potions. I eyed the potions and looked at Lucius, and he finally spoke, he said, Ash dear, you need to take these potions. You have your inspection tomorrow and you created a mess. I wasn't worried about that, my mind was on Theo and Draco. So I said how is Theo and Draco. Lucius said they were fine and they are resting now.

Relief was an understatement, and I broke down and started bawling my eyes out. I finally calmed down and took the potions from Lucius and took drank them both. I could feel the hollowness again. I felt exhausted and Lucuis told me I can see them until tomorrow. He said right now I had to rest, but before I was given an unknown potion, I asked if I could do my entry. He brought over my stuff, and I started this entry. So here I am trying to stall for time, but I am nodding off while writing this. Now I have to take the unknown potion and forcefully go to sleep.

Exhausted and insane Mrs. Nott