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Entry Thirty-Six

February 05, 2001

Those migraine spells finally went away. That was an excruciating experience, I would not even wish it upon my enemies. I was so happy it was over because today I got a surprise visit, well not necessarily a visit for me, but nonetheless, Fenir Greyback III had came to Malfoy Manor. If there is one man that makes my husband anxious and overly possessive, its my dear friend Fenir. It all started back when I first came to Malfoy Manor. I was always fighting with Fenir, physical fights and also because I could shapeshift into a wolf. Because of that, we would have dog fights and get scolded by Narcissa because of it. We also got along when we had too, we had a connection because we were similar.

I woke up around midmorning, I slowly opened my eyes because I thought I was going to have a raging headache again, but there was nothing. So, I jumped out of bed and ran to the window, moving the drapes aside and looked out at the sunny grounds. I hurried and got ready, because I felt good. I put on a high waist trouser with a emerald green silk blouse with a black lace top. I put my hair in a high ponytail and put on a pair of checkered slip-on vans and grabbed a black fur cloak. My room is warm, but once you step out into the corridor the temperature drops. I made my way down to the dining room, as I was walking down the corridor to the dining room, I passed the sitting room, and I heard voices, usually I would ignore and go about my business, until I heard a familiar voice I haven't heard in a while. I stopped and listened, and I knew it was Fenir. I barged into the sitting room, and there he was sitting with Draco, Theo and Lucius. Everyone looked at me, I stood there looking at Fenir, and he stood up, and I ran straight to him and jumped into his arms and hugged him, he hugged me back. I could see Theo stand up in my peripheral, but I hugged him. I didn't know how much I missed him until I saw him again.

At that point, my eyes were watery, and tears slid down my cheeks, and I told him how much I missed him and hugged him again. I apologize to everyone for barging in and interrupting their conversation and told Fenir to find me in the dining room when they were done. I walked over to my husband, hugged him and told him I feel better, and I am going to finally eat something. He insisted he go with me, but I told him no, you continue what you are doing. I'll be fine, and he kissed the top of my head, I looked up at him and smiled. I left them to their business and went to the dining room, Narcissa was sitting at the table with Hermione. I sat down across Narcissa and told her I was hungry. Narcissa called for a house elf and told her to prepare something for me. I told the house elf I was very hungry. I was happy and became even more happy when I was brought a plate of roast beef and vegetables. Hermonie asked me if I wanted to look at her notes and I told her yes. She pulled out a thick stroll out of her little purse and handed it to me. I sat there reading through the stroll as I ate, asked her about her translation of the runes she had read about. I was about halfway through the stroll when Fenir, Theo and Draco came into the dining room.

Fenir sat beside me and asked what I was reading, I told him about the notes Hermione took and then told him about the theory I had about modifying my magical core. He looked at the chain that was around my wrist and listen to me rattle on about the runes that we had translated so far. I asked him where his wife was and if she had their baby yet, he said not yet and she stayed behind because of her pregnancy, he did not want her traveling. He asked how I was doing, and I told him its good and bad, there is no in-between, but I am managing it. Fenir asked why I was trying to modify my magical core, I told him that my theory is if I modify my magical core, then these chains would not recognize my core anymore, so it would cancel itself out and I would be able to use my magic again. He listened intently and said his grandfather's library has tons of books about runes and old magic and if I wanted too, I can come and look through them and take them. I told him, I would have to take him up on his offer.

I finished my meal and went to the library with Hermione as the men went about their business and their discussion. I was still looking over the stroll Hermonie had given me, and I compared it to my notes and added things into my notebook, as I was flipping back and forth between pages, and writing on her stroll as well. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I looked up and saw Theo standing next to me. I put down the stroll and pen and sat up and looked at my husband. Theo asked me to walk with him in the garden, so I got my cloak and followed him outside. We walked through the rose garden in silences, and I finally asked him if he was okay. Theo stopped walking and turned to look at me and held my hand. He asked me how I felt about going to Norway with Fenir. I asked why suddenly. Theo stated since I've been doing research, why not go back with Fenir and look through his library. I was dumbfounded and asked why. Theo just looked at me, and I said I don't want the same thing that happen in Italy to happen in Norway. I don't want to risk putting his wife through unnecessary stress because I can't control myself and I don't want to leave him. Theo then said he and Draco will be going on a mission together, and its going to be a long one from the sound of it.

For the first time I asked him what his mission was, Theo said his mission with Draco is to hunt down the remaining Order members and he is going to be busy with Draco. I told him I would be safer here at Malfoy Manor. Theo held both my hands and said he felt that with me occupying myself with my research I would be to busy to be waiting around for him. He pleaded with me, and I finally asked if he had already talked to Fenir about this, he said yes, we discussed it early this morning when he first arrived. He stated it would be better that way, I would be away from everything that is going on here and in a safe place where no one will be looking for me in Norway because no one knows where Fenir lives.

At that point I was I don't know, when Theo leaves for a long period of time, he tends to pawn me off to someone else. Like I am a little child, but I understand where he is coming from, since I can't do shit anyway. It's so infuriating and at the same time, I need to see if I get enough research to put my theory into "practice". So instead of being a pain in the ass, complaining and crying around, I just agreed. I figure what the hell, what else am I going to be doing. It beats having to be here, and dress up all the damn time, having to go about meeting with people that Narcissa invites. So, I'll be leaving in a couple of days.

Pawned off Mrs. Nott