Diary of a Death Eater's Wife

by AsdzaaMalfoy

After several nervous breakdowns, her own magic bind, the love of her life risking his life on every mission as she sits back and witnesses the ins and outs of a Death Eater. Mrs. Nott keeps a diary of daily entries, to keep her sane as she figures out how to get her magic back all while hoping for her husbands safe return.

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DISCLAIMER: Obviously I don't own any of the characters in Harry Potter or anything belonging to Harry Potter World, it belongs to the only and only creator J.K. Rowling.

~~AM~~

Entry Thirty-Seven

February 06, 2001

Today was such a boring day. From the time I woke up to now, its almost bedtime. I just a book I got from the states, its by a Native American author name Sherman Alexie, the novel is call Indian Killer. Its an interesting read. I was so engrossed by it, I laid around and read all day and evening. I almost done with the book. I still don't know who the killer is. Everyone was busy today, so there wasn't anyone around, which was fine with me. I feel like I have been smothered by everyone's presence lately, so it was nice to not have to interact with anyone. I only got up to use the toilet and Suki brought me my food, which I ate while reading.

My husband was called out, so he has been gone, I don't know if he is going to be back. I haven't really had a decent conversation with him, except when he had told me to go with Fenir. Even with that, it still makes me upset thinking about it. How can you get pawned off to someone else. I understand the whole busy with missions and whatnot, but I know my husband has his other jobs he must do. I tried to ask him if he needed any help with anything, but it is always, "No, Love, you just rest and do what you need too here." I am rolling my eyes writing it.

I need to start packing my things as well, because tomorrow I will be leaving for Norway. I think its very cold since Fenir lives in the mountains. I get upset about having to leave, but on the other hand I am excited to go because I enjoy mountains and snow. I get to meet Fenir's wife and I hope she is easy to get along with. I am such a hot mess, its not even funny.

My whole situation is not even funny, I hate it. I afraid for Theo when he goes out on his missions, seeing him on that table and all the blood and Draco as well. I wanted to start physical training again. I lost muscle mass because I've been laying around. I wanted to start with running and build my cardio back up, then building back up my muscles and flexibility. I became soft, more literally then metaphorically.

I am getting a headache just thinking about it. It would be better to just go to sleep and deal with everything in the morning, along with my packing. Hopefully my husband is back before I leave.

Mrs. Nott