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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run

Chapter 315 Gutted

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Jax could take Scarlett screaming and shouting at him. He couldn't take her looking at him with her green eyes filled with tears and pain and knowing that he'd caused them by his stupid jealousy.

"When I was riding around in circles, my head was sort of spinning in circles too. I wondered if you could have been playing me. If I'd listened to my brain or my feelings, I'd have known that there was something going on that I wasn't seeing. There was some logical explanation for what I was seeing that didn't involve you sleeping with the guy I saw go to your motel room. I should have had faith in you, but the thought of you with another man drove me crazy."

"You thought I could be playing you? Why would I do that?"

"Scarlett when it comes to you, I don't always think logically. I just reacted. You're different from any girl I've ever met."

Jax wasn't about to tell her that the Jax Teller swagger was a little less with her and, for the first time, he felt lucky to be with a woman because he knew that just about any man would want to be with her.

It wasn't just her beauty. She was smart and funny and he loved to spend time with her even though he knew it wasn't going to lead to sex. He was actually growing up. This was his first mature relationship.

"Do you remember the night you came to my room and you gave me the reacher? You wanted to just hang out for awhile and I could sense that something awful was going on with you. I told you that you could stay with me that night. I was putting a lot of trust in you. I don't have sex casually, but I don't allow men to just share my bed without sex either.

"When I sleep I'm at my most vulnerable," Scarlett continued. "I trusted you to not force me to have sex with you while I was asleep. I trusted you not to hurt me while I was asleep. You can't even trust me not to have sex with a guy after I told you that I hadn't been with a guy in more than three years. We had just agreed to be exclusive too."

Jax was now encountering the problem with being with a smart woman. Scarlett's clever mind continued to make her point that she had trusted him and he had failed to trust her. Worse, she was right. She had demonstrated that she trusted him and he had nearly destroyed their relationship with his hormone fueled rage. He hadn't even considered that it was a trust issue.

"Scarlett, I didn't even think far enough about what I was doing. I see it now, but I didn't see it then. I should have had faith in you. You're right that you did show me trust when you let me stay the night with you, but with the girls I've been with in the past sharing a bed wasn't a big deal with them. I know you're different and I see now it was a big show of trust for you. I'm not perfect, but I want to be the right guy for you."

"I can't have you flipping out with jealousy and you have to trust me."

"It won't happen again."

"I would never cheat on you."

"I'll never cheat on you."

"Being in love with you scares me. Part of me wants to run before we get any closer."

"Run to me. I'll always keep you safe."

"I want to believe you," she said softly.

"You love me," Jax reminded her with a gentle smile.

"Already using that against me."

"I love you too," Jax said and pointing to his lips.

Scarlett motioned him to lean forward so she could kiss him.

"I hope we don't regret this," she whispered.

"Regret what?"

"Falling in love together."

Jax wasn't worried about regret. Now that they had closed the door on this fight, he saw nothing but happiness and eventually sex in their future.