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Little Toy Bikers and a Woman on the Run

Chapter 251 Spiral Down

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Scarlett decided this was a good time to play with Jax. Almost any time was a good time to play with Jax especially when she could have some fun with his ego.

"How do you decide if you're going to sleep with a girl? You check for a pulse?"

"Really?" Jax asked. "You think my standards are that low?" Jax shook his head in mock anger. "I also check to make sure they are conscious and capable of legal consent. I may be an outlaw biker, but not about sex."

"That's what makes you so damned irresistible. You are this badass biker, but you have this tender, romantic side to you."

"And despite that, you are never going to have sex with me."

"You are correct."

"So, how do you decide if you're going to sleep with a guy? Do you decide when you first meet him or does the answer come when you've seen him a couple of times?"

Scarlett thought about Jax's question and whether she should tell the truth. She didn't have any real reason to lie other than to keep him from getting closer to her emotionally. Her father's words about it being OK to fall in love with Jax were in the back of her mind. It just felt safer to keep him at a distance and lie to him.

There was some possibility that they could have a future together. Maybe it was time to take more risk with Jax and be more open and honest with him. It just seemed wrong to give a guy an honest answer. The tactic felt wrong, but she didn't have much experience with guys. Besides, she always liked to do things her way.

"The first couple of times, it was more curiosity. It definitely didn't live up to all of the hype. When I ran away from my psycho ex, I was done with men. Life is simpler that way."

Scarlett didn't like being vulnerable with Jax, but if they had a future, she was going to have to be vulnerable.

"You said life is simpler. You didn't say life was better."

Jax always surprised her when he showed insight into her. She wouldn't have expected it from an outlaw biker who had been with hundreds but less than a thousand women.

It would have made things easier if he had just been a shallow guy who went from girl to girl because he lacked the attention span for anything longer. That guy would be simple to keep out of her heart.

"I just don't get why you have to be with so many girls."

"I don't get why you refuse to have sex with me. You can't think that I'm only seeing you because I like a challenge and once you sleep with me, I'll dump you."

Scarlett didn't say anything. She was trying to figure out a way to lead the conversation onto less dangerous ground.

"You do think that, don't you?"

"I don't like that you've been with so many girls."

"So because of things that I've done over the last ten years, I have become unacceptable to you."

"It's a lot of girls," Scarlett repeated.

She hadn't worked out a way out of this conversation. She'd been an idiot because she thought she was going to play with Jax. Things had taken a too serious turn.

"Do you think that's fair that you judge me for my past?"

"Doesn't your past make you into the person that you are today?"

"And what's wrong with me?" Jax asked with an edge to his voice.

"Nothing."

"I've just been with too many women to ever be with you."

"Jax, what is your point?"

"Why are you even with me?"

"I enjoy your company."

"OK. I'm a charming guy. I get that. You are an adult. You know that if you see a man for any length of time, the relationship is going to lead to sex. That's the normal progress. If we are never going to get there, why are you even seeing me?"

This conversation had spiraled down into disaster.