'Come back, please! Wait, no! What am I thinking? Damn it! How is this possible? You lived without him once, you can still do it!' but Clary was more than bored sitting in the desk of her large but empty feeling bedroom. Jace had left to England the day after, all that he said was: 'Good luck, don't miss me too much. The Angel knows that you'll die without me', she of course replied with a strong blow, however, it was invisible to the rest, but very painful for him. He disguised his pain with a wince and she answered with a fake smile: Farewell, honey.

You might ask: well, why isn't she doing anything? Simple, she had called Simon, he was very busy preparing everything for when Becky came back, Eric and Kirk had gone out on a double date (what she had thought would be impossible but, let's face it! They were the crown princess's best friends, of course that their social status had changed) Helen was at her singing lessons and Maia had also gone out with a guy, that no one on earth knew who he was, but Helen told her that she had met him while they were on their vacation. She thought it would be say to call her parents and cry her eyes out saying how much she missed them. So, yeah, everything had something important to do, it was her first free day in like a month and no one was there for her to take advantage of it.

'But for your good and beautiful luck, Clarissa. There's always someone else who you can talk with, and may the angel bless your patience' she thought and took out some paper and a pen.

To my dearest brother (and unfortunately the only one I have):

Have you forgotten about your miserable and lonely younger sister? You're such a terrible and selfish relative! At least mom and Luke call me every single day, but you write only when you get bored! And knowing you as well as I do, that's almost never! You're busy all the time! But, don't tell me why or I'll hang myself from the window! Child of the angel you say? You're nothing but a devil in disguise! Anyways, if you still care about me for a bit, I'll tell you that… strange things have been happening…

But she reconsidered writing that down, she was sure of what exactly was going on, so it would be useless to worry Jonathan about nothing.

Anyways, if you still care about me for a bit, I'll tell you that… your advice was the worst one on earth! I'm wondering where my husband is right now. Oh, right, just remembered! He's in England with God knows who doing who knows what! And I'm here alone writing a pathetic and very pitiful letter to my only brother who I haven't seen face to face for more than three years, how sad is that? My friends are gone and I don't want to worry mom, and I honestly feel so uncomfortable with my in-laws around… except for Princess Maryse and Alec, but she has been very sick lately and her son has been also busy, I've got my suspicions but I also know how to keep a secret, you know what they say: romance is better when it's dangerous! Such a scandal, but as monarch of Idris I cannot gossip around like there was no tomorrow and Alec trusts me so… I'm not that mean! About Queen Celine and King Stephen? By Raziel, I'm starting to believe that she really does hate me… and he doesn't give a damn about me, I've been asking myself if he even gives a damn about his own son or wife, why the heck is he so depresses all the time?! But like father like son! They're so stressing! And my sweet and cute Grandmother has been drowning with work! She almost has no time for our afternoons with tea, old photos, chatter and laughter! This is killing me! About Prince Robert, you won't believe what happened! It looks like his favorite dish is peppered chicken; you can imagine how red and swollen I was! He might have not done it in purpose but that man scares me to my bones! And I also discovered that Mr. Jonathan Herondale becomes Superman when it suits him! So, yeah, we could say that he kind of saved my life or something but… anyone would have done it once they saw that I was allergic to pepper! Right? RIGHT?! Ok, well then, that's what I can tell you about me! But now I have a question for you, does father even know that I got married? I mean, I know he really does not care about us but… does he don't care like at all? He must've seen it sometime somewhere! I just… I know it's weird and ridiculous, but… I would like to hear his voice once again, even if he yells at me and tells me how a displeasing daughter I am. You know that Luke's great and everything, but Valentine's my father, and I once thought he loved me, is it so wrong to want to know if he's still alive? So, do you think it would be possible? Be sincere or I'll send a hired assassin to chase you! And you know I would, because now I have the power to do it! (But I won't just because I love you and I don't want mom to have a heart attack) Anyways, please remember that you have a sister that misses you crazily more often, ok?

Good luck, blood of my blood! Write back soon, and don't forget to tell me when are you visiting my haunted mansion, ok?

With love, your only, sweet and lovable sister you can't help of adoring!

Clary (Fairchild Morgenstern Herondale, etc! this is annoying you know? Who needs this many last names? Oh, right! I'm a princess, well… shit).

"Knock, knock? Am I interrupting something, highness?" said Alec at her back.

"Oh, not at all! I was just writing a letter for my brother, I haven't talked to him for like three weeks or so…" put the letter in an envelope and placed it on her bedside table where she knew Camille would find it and send it to the post office.

"So, are you free? Do you think you could help me with a … little something about a little, but not so little, someone?" he asked with a playful smile and an excited expression in his eyes.

"I think so, let me sleep on it…" she said sarcastically.

"Oh, alright! Take your time…" Alec was terribly cute when he faked innocence and naivety.

"Oh, by the angel! Let's get out of here before I get claustrophobia!" Clary laughed and took Alec by his arm, both leaving her room. At least she could stop thinking about Jace for a minute.

"Welcome, my dear!" Jace was definitely surprised when he arrived to London and saw Aline waiting for him right outside his hotel. She approached him and started covering his face with kisses.

"By the angel, what are you doing here?" he pulled back a bit and made sure that no one had seen them. Luckily, no one did, Hodge was talking to the Queen Mother on the phone and his bodyguards were taking his baggage to his room.

"Is that the way to greet your girlfriend, Jonathan Christopher?" Aline was especially cheesy that day, no wonder why.

"Girlfriend? What the…? Are you feeling alright, Aline?" she was acting weird, and Jace got a little scared by the fact that she had followed him there.

"I'm better than I've ever been, now that you're here… "She took his hand with hers and they started walking to the hotel.

"Have you gone out of your mind? These people know that I'm married!" he whispered reminding her that there was actually a reality, and that people actually existed in that reality. Because they were all looking at them, but luckily no one had a camera.

"Just tell them I'm a friend" she gave him a soft kiss on his cheek.

"Yeah, I'll tell them that we're very affectionate with our friends in Idris…" Jace would have to find an excuse soon.

"Right, that should work! No one but us needs to know how much we love each other…" and she got closer once the elevator's doors closed.

"I still don't understand why you came. I am here for a conference, not for doing tourism…" he said while entering his room, big and fancy as always.

"I know but… I've missed you, and we should take this time to be together, you know… do things that we can't do in Idris" she hugged him from behind. Jace felt strange, he had never felt that something with Aline. 'She can't compare to Clary' he thought.

"You mean things that you cannot do in Idris" he let go of her.

"Oh, c'mon, highness! Since when Jace Herondale is a coward?" Aline had a threatening look in her eyes, it was frightening.

"I've never been a coward, but I consider myself a prudent person…" but he knew it was all lies, he just didn't want to be with her, if he could have chosen who would've gone with him, well... then Clary wouldn't have hit him the way she did and because of the reasons she did it.

"To hell with prudence! Sometimes I think that you forget we're reckless teenagers!" she cornered him to the wall "Life is about making mistakes…" she said to his ear.

'Oh, my! You have no idea of what a big mistake you're doing….' He thought to himself. 'Considering that I might be falling in love with someone else' but just when he was about to surrender, Aline got apart.

"You're a bit weird today, are you ok?" she asked placing a hand on his forehead confirming he had no fever.

"It's just… I am still a bit surprised by the fact you're here!" he lied, but Aline was far too blinded with desire and emotion to care.

"Surprised in the good way, of course" she gave him a playful smile, he tried to smile back.

"Sure… but I wonder… why the others didn't come also? You know your jerky cousin and Jordan" he said. 'If you were going to ruin my privacy, why did you have to do it alone?' he thought.

"Because they would've ruined everything, wake up!" she giggled.

"Ruin what?" he asked, there was no way that the situation could get worse. Let's just analyze it! He had a wife, she was acting crazily, there were paparazzi everywhere and last but not least: He was a crown prince! She gave him a death glare.

"I guess you must be a bit tired for the long trip… we should get some distraction" she said stroking Jace's blonde curls.

"Do you really think they'll let me get away just like that?" now he was just saying any excuse to not do something he didn't want to.

"Who says that they'll notice?" she replied.

"Why do I have the feeling that this will end horribly?" he said annoyed.

"You're confusing that feeling with excitement!" she chuckled and took him out of the room without turning back.

Isabelle wasn't the kind of person who felt "homesick" easily. But when she saw Idris through the airplane's window, her heart seemed to beat faster and felt that long gone warmth inside her once again. She was excited and also afraid to be back at Alicante, she wanted to see her family badly, she had many things to tell them, but she was terrified that someone would discover her tiny secret before she got off the plane, and what was worse what would her father say when he saw her.

"Is everything ok, miss…?"said the fly attendant while looking her worried expression and thinking she might have felt sick.

"Yes, everything is perfect, thank you…" Izzy covered her face with one hand discretely and waited for her to go away; she sighed and put on her sunglasses.

"I don't really think that those will work inside here, Iz" said Becky sitting next to her again.

"It's a question of glamour, Becks" she answered with a smile.

"God, it feels like I have been gone for a century! I wonder what my brother looks like now, I mean… I left when he was sixteen and now he's nineteen! I'm afraid to found a man instead of a boy when I get home" Becky loved her family dearly, as much as Isabelle did. But the Lewis's had

an advantage, their father hadn't been a psycho.

"That's surely not my case, but you can ask my brother if you want to…" she also wondered what would be happening with Alec, did anyone already have a clue of what was he hiding?

"Right… hey! You already said that you'd love to meet my brother, why don't I also meet yours?" Izzy shivered with that suggestion.

"That's a good idea but…. Hum…. Alec is kind of a busy person, but I'll tell him as soon as I can" she wasn't sure if she was lying or not, Becky was her only true friend, she didn't want to throw their friendship away just because she was a princess, it would also be dangerous and very annoying for her.

"You seem a little troubled, is everything alright?" she asked with her always sweet voice tone that made even harder for her to hide the truth.

"Yeah, I'm just a bit worried… about my parents" she confessed.

"Oh, I remember that you told me that your father was a bit… complicated" answered Becky, but "complicated" wasn't enough to describe Robert's madness.

"Yes and my mom has been sick these says… I'm afraid that he could have…" she was about to say when the pilot announced they were going to land at the airport. Becky got distracted and forgot what they were talking about, but Izzy just couldn't get it out of her mind.

"Here we go!" she said and they got off the plane.

After getting their luggage, Becky repeated the same question she had been saying all day long.

"Are you sure you don't want me to take you home?" she asked.

"Absolutely not!" she answered almost instantly "you shouldn't waste your precious time! I'm sure you're dying to see your family, don't worry about me! I can take care of myself" she assured her.

"But I'm worried that your father will…" she began.

"I know, but that's my problem not yours, I'll be ok. My father might be a special person but he's not the devil…" Izzy replied. 'But if you want to know the real reason that would be: it's because you wouldn't be taking me to a house, you'd be taking me to the palace" she smiled gently so Becky would relax.

"If you say so…" she approached to hug Isabelle "Good luck! Don't forget to call me ok?"

"I won't, Becks" she answered happily.

"Oh, and welcome home, Izzy!" she said.

"To you too, I'll see you soon" she waved and then they both went their separate ways. When Izzy made sure that no one was looking at her, she took her cell phone out and called the only person she trusted blindly.

"Hello, this is mister Alexander in love Lightwood talking!" Alec sounded terribly joyful, Izzy smiled.

"I wonder who the lucky one is… hello, brother!" she would've wished to sound a bit happier, but she was too busy watching everyone at the airport so they won't do the same with her.

"Hello beautiful younger sister of mine! How can I help you?" he answered with a stupid giggle, very proper of anyone who has a crush.

"You could come and drive me home!" she said. Alec laughed even harder.

"Iz, what have I always told you? You cannot cross Europe by car!" he reminded her.

"I know that! But you can actually take the car and come to the airport to take me to the palace, am I wrong?" Alec remained silent for a second.

"Wait, what? … No way! Don't tell me that… " He began when he finally understood the situation. "By Raziel, father will go crazy when he find out…" that was enough to ruin his mood, but not Isabelle's

"Yup… it's as bad as it sounds… I'm back, bro!" she replied.

It had been good to spend some time with Alec to clear her mind. The next day she felt completely pleased to help Alec capture Magnus's attention, there was no way he could deny that he began to like him, seriously like him, and together they made the perfect plan. For what it looked like, it had gone pretty well, "If he smiles every time you talk, he likes you for sure" she had said, and it was true! Magnus couldn't get his eyes off of Alec. But she couldn't help of feeling a bit jealous, their relationship had advanced so fast and easily, not like hers with Jace. And that was what she wondered all the time: what do I feel for him? What does he feel for me? What do we feel for each other? Does this go anywhere? Is it even a bit real?

"….as you can see, King William and Queen Theresa's romance was quite special. Citizens love that story, it's their favorite when it comes to the monarchy's tales" Clary was actually enjoying that day's lesson; it was less history and more love, adventures, secrets and exciting stuff. Another good fact to keep her concerns away and lose herself in the past.

"So, what really happened to James Cairstairs?" she asked, her curiosity burned her heart.

"No one knows for sure, but some people say that he visited the kings very often after they got married…" Amatis answered. "Of course that there's a lot of rumors that involve magic and life after death and crazy stuff…" she said with a chuckle.

"Really? Like what?" Clary asked immediately.

"Well, Queen Theresa was accused of witchery once… some people can swear that they've seen her in London, but that's just ridiculous, don't you think?" Amatis explained, that rumor seemed strange but not for Clary.

"How are you so sure that's not true?" she asked crossing her arms.

"Because… no one can live more than a hundred years, highness. Not even with magic, if that exists somehow" Amatis reminded her.

"Who knows? Magic is at every corner" she said with a bright smile, Clary was surely a dreamer.

"Ok, I think I've already molten your brain, we're done with the lessons for today, you're dismissed" it was the first time that Clary felt disappointed while hearing those words.

"I don't really have much to do today…" she confessed ashamed.

"Seize your time, highness. That's my only advice" said Amatis, she made a bow and left.

"Talking about crazy things…" Clary whispered when she finally thought of something to do.

She walked carefully to the palace's stables, she had only been once there, watching Alec and Jace ride their horses by the huge gardens. She didn't really have much practice, but she had done a lot of reckless things lately, this wouldn't really make the difference and she had always wanted to try! Of course she had taken a few lessons, but this was the first time she did it with no one watching her. She went with Jace's beautiful white horse and stroked his muzzle; she had never ridden him, only Maryse's black mare.

"Hello, big boy… Looks like we're going to take a walk today, just the two of us. What do you say?" she said with a smile and took him out of the stable. It would definitely be difficult to ride a horse wearing such a large and bulky dress, but it was worth it, Clary needed some action. "Ok, take it easy on me!" she said and got on top of him. She needed some time of her own, time to think, time to feel, time to figure something out. Confusion was the only thing she had in mind those days. She started slowly, but she realized that the breeze and the beautiful view and everything were just too wonderful not to take speed. So she did, what an epic fail. She saw two worried and terrified faces when she crossed the main garden.

"My God, princess!" screamed Annemarie, but it was too late to try to stop her, she actually thought it was kind of funny.

"You shouldn't be doing that, please stop!" yelled Camille running behind her, she had never felt so free inside the palace. Her maid kept asking her to get off the horse but she was too happy with that sudden feeling to do it and just when she thought that everything was perfect, she got to the palace's gates and almost ran into someone, someone she had never seen. The horse stopped immediately and she almost fell, but then she got off quickly because of the adrenaline of the moment.

"Highness, we're so sorry!" said Annemarie, Clary turned to see their petrified expression.

"I'm ok" she assured them.

"I'm sorry, but I was talking to her highness…" she answered, Clary felt a bit confused and turned again to see who had she almost killed.

"Princess Isabelle…"

It was a beautiful day in London to take a walk with your mate. The only problem was that Jace didn't want to be with Aline, he was tired because of the meeting he had earlier and she was too intense, they weren't a couple, they weren't mates. But that was something that she didn't want to understand, because she certainly knew it, what else would she have followed him to England? She thought there was something she had to recover between them, but Jace knew perfectly that there was nothing; she was trying to save something that didn't exist. She was saying something about her parents that he didn't really care about when he saw something that caught his attention. It was a familiar face, although he had never seen it personally.

"How strange…" he whispered looking at the mysterious woman talking to a man in front of Idris's embassy, or how the people of its country would call it: the London Institute.

"What?" Aline said also looking at her.

"She looks like… my great great great grandmother Tessa…" he answered, Aline scowled.

"Have you ever seen your great great great grandmother?" She asked.

"Only in portraits and stuff, but I swear that she looks much like her…" Aline got bored of his chatter and began with the flirting again.

"I'm going to miss you so much when we get back" she said placing her arms on his back, her lips begging for a kiss that he surely wouldn't give her.

"I don't really understand why… you've never been so attentive with me…" he reminded her, her frightening expression went back making Jace shiver, what was she trying to do?

"Well, you know what they say: You don't know what you've got until you lose it, but I'm willing to get you back, Jace" she tried to smile, but it wasn't enough to get to Jace's heart. 'Absolutely not as Clary, when she smiles… the world seems to be brighter' it would've been a bit strange for anyone to keep comparing his ex with his current wife, but hey! The guy was in love for sure!

"How do you get back something you never had at all?" he asked indignant, she had never taken their relationship seriously and now she was trying to get him back? What kind of cruel joke was that?

"You know we both feel the same, it's ok that you're a bit mistaken with all that has been happening but…" she seemed to want to know it all, about him, about his feelings.

"The only one here who's mistaken it's you! What have you been doing these days? You act like we were Romeo and Juliet and that I've always loved you insanely and that we cannot live without each other!" he started to get upset about that whole drama.

"Because it is like that, I know it…" Aline was just making things up, mixing everything and trying to convince him about lies when he appeared to be the only conscious in all that situation.

"No it's not! We never loved each other, Aline! Let's face it! We played with each other; we used each other... ok! I admit it! I used you because I didn't want to marry a complete stranger but now it's a bit late don't you think? What we had wasn't love or nothing else! We just tried to fool us knowing how smart we are, it was ridiculous… it was nonsense!" he had been trying to explain it all the most careful, calm and easy way, but she was just getting on his nerves.

"That cannot be true, we must feel the same way!" she insisted tirelessly.

"No! There are no feelings around us, ok? This was never something serious and I don't really understand why you took it like that! We were barely friends when we started to date, this wasn't meant to last much... "He was breaking his head trying to make her understand but her attitude was impenetrable, a wall made with disappointment, lost and loneliness.

"Why are you saying that? Stop trying to lie to me, It's obvious that we were meant to be together!" now it looked like she was pleading, pleading that Jace would admit something that wasn't true to hide her own truth.

"If it was like that, why I haven't seen you like nothing more than a friend?" it wouldn't work trying to explain it, she had figure it out herself.

"That's also a lie, I'll show you!" her patience was gone and in less than a minute her lips met his, it wasn't a sweet and lovable kiss, it was rushed and somehow painful because it had no emotion, no reason to be, there was no love in there, no hope or illusion, it wasn't dreamlike. 'Oh, I know what you're going to say: Definitely not as Clary would do it! And why do you think it's like that? She's not Clary, and she'll never be… so you'll heart won't be hers… hell, you're in love!' finally, after all those wonders and doubts and thoughts, he just had to accept that his heart had already been given, but its owner didn't know it. And those thoughts distracted him as the paparazzi took pictures of them and who would send them to that certain place where they would be together? No one else than Robert Lightwood, but how could they've known?

"Stop it! Have you lost your mind?" he said breaking the kiss.

"What do you mean?" she asked with a sad expression.

"Ok, I'm just going to speak my mind! Aline, I don't love you, I never loved you and I certainly won't ever love you! You're not the one for me, ok? And you had no right to come here and distract me from my responsibilities, and what's worse you had no right to kiss me like that and say all these fake things about us when you know that I've got a wife and a country to care about!" he exploded finally, not because he was feeling angry, but because he felt like he has deceiving Clary and deceiving himself.

"What makes you say something like that? You could love me…" he had never seen her cry; maybe her feelings were actually true. But there was nothing he could do to ease the pain, it was already too late.

"I could've done it before, when we both had the chance, but right now… I'm afraid that this is it… I thought that this had already ended but… now it's clear that for you it isn't over, and you're wrong, Aline… this doesn't go anywhere" he said more calmly now that he knew that it was painful for her to accept it.

"Maybe I'm not the one… but… is it her?" she asked letting a tear fall through her cheek.

"Who?" Jace knew who she meant but he needed to hear it.

"Is it her? Do you love her? Do you love someone you don't know? Does your heart belong to someone that will never love you the way I do?" and that just made him wonder what kind of love did Aline have for him, there was no way she could feel something like that, he had never given her that kind of high hopes.

"What I can tell you for now is that… what I'm beginning to feel for her… is something I'll never feel be able to feel for you…"

To be continued…

Dreamer.

Hello, my dear nephilims! Here is another chapter for your delight, haha! So, did you like it? As you can see there was not much Clace action is here but I guessed that the needed some time to figure out that something could be going on with them, who knows? I had to shorten this chapter so much! I wanted to add Maryse's confession but then I realized that Izzy was still in Switzerland so I had to bring her back! And I also wanted to do something with the Malec (because, God I love them so much!) Ok, I don't want to make a spoiler, but next chapter I want to focus more on the Sizzy and the royal family issues, but still in the next chapters… get ready for some serious Clace! (I'll give you a tiny clue so you don't hate me for so much mystery… First kiss alert!) We'll see how these lovebirds face true love while being in such a complicated situation! Oh! And also keep an eye on Robert, if you think that he's already mean… oh, dear! You haven't seen anything of him! And I'm also planning to make an appearance of Sebastian, but with Valentine I'm not so sure of what would he do… anyways! I'll figure something out! Thanks for your wonderful comments and all your support, love you all! Bye!

Pd: in chapter 12, the song that Jace was playing in the piano was Kiss the Rain by Yiruma, I just thought that you should know, haha!