"Ok, so… you arranged this whole thing up?" Helen asked Becky as she tried to organize her and Maia's apartment, the two of them glared at her in fright as she went from one side to the other like crazy.

"I had to! As an older sister is my duty to support him and make him feel better! Don't you guys thing he has been whipping over Clary far too long? I mean, she's happy! Shouldn't he be too?" they had never seen her as a control freak but she was clearly losing her mind at that point.

"We know, but shouldn't it be a little more… spontaneous? That's how love works, for what I've heard…" said Maia trying to calm her.

"Of course, how could you know anything about it, you little…" but Becky cut Helen off. She was also a bit tired of her endless speech.

"First: Get over it, Blackthorn; that's Maia's thing, not yours; Second: Yes, I know that love's not something written in the book of life but… I didn't come back to see how my brother throws his existence away for nothing, I would lie if I told you that I had no idea that Clary didn't feel the same way because I did… but I'm also sure that she cannot be the love of his life; the way he looks at Izzy… is different from any other glare he had shown before, he's discovering what true love is, and If I can help him then I'll do, he deserves it…" Becky has always been like that, after their father died, she knew that her mom wouldn't bear with all by herself, so she decided to make it easier for her; Simon and Becky were inseparable, as much as Clary and her brother were… sometimes, when the world as turned away from you, everything that remains is family, she knew that and she also knew that Simon needed her, maybe not for everything, but as long as she could she'd help her baby brother.

"Well, I think that's really cute from you… If you're this nervous about Simon's love life, imagine how I'll be when Jules tells me he likes someone!" Helen giggled.

"Yeah, yeah… brothers are such a difficult science to understand, aren't they?" Maia sat on the sofa as she scowled; both Helen and Becky knew what she was thinking: "Daniel, Daniel, Daniel… what did he have to be such a mess?" but they decided not to touch the topic.

"Anyways… You guys have to make sure that Simon does his best tonight! Please?" she begged with her bets puppy face.

"Fine, but its solo night! You should've brought him when we were trying on duets, he's gotten much better I must say… but, I'll do what I can" Assured her Helen, she squealed happily.

"Yey! If everything goes well tonight, maybe we'll hear about a future Mrs. Lewis soon!" Becky had to get along with all of them; dreaming all day long, it was kind of what kept them alive.

"Oh, that so cute! Imagine how their kids will look like! I mean, a princess cannot possibly have non gorgeous children! And Simon's not ugly either!" Helen said happily as they jumped up and down in excitement

"Whoa, let's slow this down, ok? They must be friends first! Then you can think of our future nephews or nieces!" Maia laughed as the two crazy girls planned Simon's life, on the inside Maia was a bit scared of their future, their life had changed a bit and now everyone was talking about serious love and relationships and marriage and babies! It was far too much, only the Angel knew what fate would bring to them from that point ahead, but still she was happy for them.

"Ok, I think the concept of "Friend" doesn't go well with him, we have to make him become a perfect Romeo so she cannot resist him!" Maia was sure that Helen knew what was she talking about, a heartbreaker never failed at getting someone she liked.

"Hey, hey, wait! Don't mix up the meaning of "Romeo" with gigolo, ok?" she laughed at Helen's suggestion.

"You girls are hopeless! But there's no way any of us can lose in this…" Becky hugged them both as the good friends they were; with one common goal: making Simon happy.

"Mother, I must tell you that I'm worried about her…" said Jonathan as he hid his face on his hands, Jocelyn turned to see him feeling as her soul left her body.

"Why, sweetheart? You think that Jonathan will hurt her?" was the first thing she could think of as she panicked.

"No… It's not because of Goldilocks, mama… I actually think he does love her truly, he's the last person inside the palace who could hurt her…" he looked at the ground as he spoke, thing that reminded his mother of Valentine; if it was true, Valentine and her son looked exactly the same, but Jonathan had a pure heart on the inside, he didn't go crazy when his father left as his father himself did, he was strong and caring and smart. He was much more than Valentine, much more.

"But what about the others?" Luke asked as Jocelyn took his sons hand and gave him a kiss on his forehead,

"I didn't get the chance to meet them, but for what Clary told me, the only one who could we think of as a real menace would be Robert Lightwood…" he confessed, Clary had spoken about the Herondales, and the majority of the Lightwood family, as great people; even though her father and mother in law didn't seem to get along well with her, Robert was the one who had his eyes on her for some reason she couldn't know.

"You think he knows about it?" asked Luke about to lose the last piece of calm he had.

"Maybe not, if that was the case… he would've put her on evidence already" he answered.

"By the angel, what are we going to do?" so, maybe now we can understand what she said what she said when Clary left the house: "I'll regret sending her off like this one day" It wasn't just the plain mother fears, but something much bigger and worse.

"Still I'm starting to think that the biggest danger right now…. Might be herself" Jocelyn got pale at hearing her son's words, how could that be possible?

"Darling, what are you saying?" she asked in fright.

"Mom, she's willing to do anything to discover everything about The Circle, no matter how much we try to stop her, you know how stubborn she is; she'll end up finding out sooner or later, and when she does…she might not want to see us ever again" Luke recognized that look on Jonathan's eyes, the kind of look he had when he had to tell Clary that their father was gone, the look he had when his grandfather died, the look he had when he decided to leave his home, the only home he had ever known and that would never mean the same to him; pure pain showing on his angel like face, he knew that both Clary and her brother had gotten that sensitive side from their mother; because Valentine had never liked to show weakness, as he called it, in front of other, but his children were pure at heart.

"He's right, Jocie" agreed Luke even though he didn't want to.

"And what do you suggest to do, uh? Tell her now so she can hates us longer?" she said with tears almost falling down her cheeks, Jonathan approached her and took her hand.

"Don't you think it's better to cry with the truth than smiling with a lie? She deserves better, mom; none of this was her fault so she doesn't have to suffer the consequences" she knew he was right, but it was just too painful to think. Jocelyn had always done everything she could to protect her children on her own, after Valentine had gotten a bit crazy about almost everything, she knew that she could never rely on anyone that wasn't herself; but Jonathan didn't like that, he left so her mother wouldn't have to worry about him anymore, but Clary was just her baby girl, Clary was so fragile and strong at the same time, Clary was an special, kind and beautiful kid, she didn't deserve any of what would happen if the ugly truth came out just like that, and that was what her mother had tried to prevent.

"Also is better that she hears it from you than from anyone else, I know it hurts, Jocelyn… but it's necessary" Luke was never wrong, she had to admit that.

"I know, but I just don't have the heart to tell her…" she confessed ending everything.

Jace didn't really notice he had frozen for a bit, but Clary did, she kept her eyes wide open in fright wondering what had happened.

"Did I hurt you?" she asked trying not to scream, she cupped his cheek and made him stare at her as he caught his breath once again to answer.

"You… do you mean that?" his voice shivered as his bones did on the inside of him, he was terribly happy on one side but on the other, he was afraid that she'd push him away one more time, he couldn't make the "first kiss mistake" one more time, he just couldn't, she finally accepted she wanted him! It was far too wonderful to throw it away. Clary flushed as she smiled.

"Well, yeah… I've been wondering this stuff for a while, you know? If it feels so perfect being together when we're awake, how much more beautiful would be to dream while being in your arms?" Jace also smiled, in fact! He felt like crying from all the joy he felt; she wanted to be with him for sure, maybe she couldn't bear to say it because of the shyness, but it showed in her eyes, those beautiful eyes that kept him alive when he was about to give up.

"I don't really know, but it might be so great that I'll never want to wake up again" he hid his face on her neck as he kissed her there, softly. Clary tightened the grip of his hand as her heart started to rush again.

"Then don't..." she chuckled softly.

"Oh, no! I couldn't! Clary, you're the first thing I think about when I go to bed and when I wake up! What if my dream changes and you're not there? It wouldn't be a dream anymore… at least, not one that I would want to have" he rested his head on her chest as she caressed his curls; Clary had figured out that sweet and vulnerable part of him was only for her, with her was the only chance he got to try not to be perfect for everyone, and like that he was perfect for her, her really arrogant yet loving angel. She understood what he had meant with that, she kissed his forehead.

"I wouldn't leave you alone, Jace… unless it was for your good" she confessed, Jace felt as that last part stabbed him deeply on his heart he raised his head to see her eye to eye.

"Don't you ever say that again, Clarissa… Hurt me, make me cry, hate me, push me away, kill me if you want to… but don't dare to leave me, because that's when you'll finish me entirely" Clary saw his blurry eyes and hugged him.

"Alright, then… I'll take care of you, I promise" but that wasn't the first time she promised that, Amatis also counted on her, there was no time to wonder why she had said all that, it was time to start doing it.

"Ok, you said it but first… I think we might need some… uh… protection…" Jace seemed to choke with his own words, and Clary wondered what did he mean by that?

"Protection? …" Clary showed a confused expression that made him shiver, had he misunderstood her? "What? Oh, by Raziel! I didn't mean that!" they both flushed to death; but Jace was the one wishing that a giant hole would open on the ground to take him to hell.

"God, I'm so sorry, Clary! I should've known" he laughed nervously and sat next to her, as Clary looked away embarrassed.

"Well, is not that I don't want to but…" she began giving him a little hope.

"But?" he asked her to continue as he played with her hand.

"But I don't think I'm ready yet, and I don't want you to get mad at me…" she whispered making him smile, he took her by her waist like hugging her from behind.

"You fool! I'm not mad, I understand and I'll wait… I also want to live everything I can with you, but I understand what's like to be a virgin…" they both laughed with that last part as Clary hit him softly.

"You, for real?! When was your first time? At fourteen?" she mocked him as she placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.

"Clary, please! How can you say those things?" Clary smiled relieved "… it was at fifteen" he ended.

"Oh God, I hate you!" she giggled, but Jace took it too literally.

"You do?" he asked terrified and that made Clary laugh even harder.

"No! Of course not! I just swore on the angel that I'd never leave you! Don't be so bipolar" Clary got her lips closer to his to kiss him as she was sealing the deal. They both got carried away with that sweet kiss again; it became more and more passionate until they both felt as melting in each other's arms. Then a loud knocking on the door forced them to wake up from their dream; they looked up as their nerves began to raise and they felt like their hearts were about to give up the beating, as if they were two criminals being found by the police.

"Princess, are you there? Can I come in?" spoke Amatis calmly, she stopped breathing for a moment, Jace got up from the bed in the speed of light and asked lowering is voice:

"What do I do?" he said trying hard not to lose his head.

"Go to the bathroom and stay there until she leaves!" Clary answered, Jace nodded once and got inside the bathroom as she tried to fix her hair and dress, Amatis didn't need to have any clue about what could have she been doing. "Uh, sure, come in!" she said taking a book from her nightstand and pretending to read it. Amatis came in and greeted her with a bow.

"Sorry to bother you, highness; Your mother in law wonders if you have seen Prince Jonathan, he hasn't returned to his room and we cannot find him anywhere" even while saying that, she didn't seem worried at all, but Celine must've been losing her head. Clary swallowed uncomfortable and tried so hard not to look to the bathroom's door.

"Not really, I haven't seen him either since my brother left, I'm sorry" Liar, liar, you big, nasty and horrible liar, you'll go to hell for this! Her mind told her but she still smiled to her aunt, still Amatis wasn't a fool and she knew that.

"Are you feeling alright, princess?" she asked looking at the suspect.

"Yes, I'm perfectly fine, I've never been better!" And that's why you're not an actress but a painter, the word: conceal as never been in your dictionary!

"Ok, then. Sorry again, have a good night… and in any case you see the prince, please tell him to meet his parents as soon as he can" Amatis bowed again and left closing the door behind her, Clary sighed as the tension inside her disappeared and Jace came out of the bathroom.

"That was close, she almost caught us red handed!" said Jace coming back to her.

"Hey, hey! What are you doing? Didn't you hear her? Your parents are looking for you!" she reminded him, Jace scowled as he thought about what to do.

"I don't really mind anything they have to saw, they're like a recorder you know? Always saying the same stuff… I'm kind of tired of their scolding" he said as he rested his head on her chest.

"And why would they scold you now?" she asked him kissing the top of his head.

"Because I've never been able to please them completely, no matter how much I try, there's always something I did wrong, and they never forget to tell me about it…" Clary felt like her heart had been stabbed, she couldn't really understand his pain, her own parents, or in this case mother, had never been so demanding with her; she knew how hard was Jace trying to be perfect at everything: the perfect son, prince, cousin, grandson, husband, friend, lover… but what nobody understood was that he was also human; and she also felt guilty for pressuring him to be perfect one time.

"I'm sorry, Jace, but you know what?" he raised his head to see her "Sometimes, it's worth nothing to be perfect if you're not real… at least with me, you can be as imperfect as you want! As long as you love me of course…" he smiled to her.

"Believe me, I could live without breathing or eating or anything, but to live without loving you… that's not living" damn, why did he have to be so wonderful? And why hadn't she noticed before? Clary gave him a tight hug.

"Alright then, if you want to stay with me you can… but I'm warning you! You cannot try anything if I don't tell you to!" she said as threatening him, Jace laughed.

"I'll have you begging all night long, Clarissa" he answered and kissed her softly. Clary prayed so the sun would never come up and that their special night would last forever. And as she had wanted, she slept on his arms feeling happy, protected and loved, and she dreamed about living the rest of her days with him, she dreamed about them sharing beautiful memories along with their friends and family, she dreamed about how would he look when she told him they were going to have their first kid, she dreamed about growing old together, she dreamed of all her friends getting married, she felt as if their hearts had become one and that their fates were just meant to go hand by hand; her dream was only about him, and that's how she figured out that her life would be nothing but a nightmare if she lost him.

Izzy was a little nervous to see Simon again, the last time they had seen each other he was nothing but a puddle of tears and little pieces of his broken heart. She wasn't sure if he felt okay or not, and what could she have done in that situation? And also she felt guilty because it had been Becky who invited her to the rehearsal and she was only thinking about Simon! Poor Izzy, but that's how love works, it makes you feel thousand of things, it's awful and exciting at the same time, it's confusing, but it's also the only certainty you'll ever have. When she finally gathered up the enough strength, she knocked at the door of the apartment. Becky opened the door with a huge smile on her face.

"Highness, what a pleasure to have you here!" she hugged her friend joyful and made her come in the apartment. "Let me introduce you to everyone. Guys, this is Isabelle" Simon's friends smiled and waved at her "Izzy, this are Eric, Kirk, Maia, Helen and my brother who you've already met".

"Hey, it's so good to finally meet all of my cousin's friends!" she really hadn't had time to meet them all in her little visit to the Academy as she had been far too busy trying to run away from the paparazzi!

"You see? Clary said she was adorable!" Izzy heard as Maia whispered, but she didn't feel hurt or anything, she rather felt relieved.

"Far too adorable" complimented her Simon and Izzy smiled.

"You have to hear them play, honey. They've gotten so much better!" said Becky taking her to the couch as the guys got ready to play.

"I just hope I don't faint before hearing them" Becky took that comment as a joke and laughed, but Izzy meant that.

"Okay, Helen you go solo tonight, remember?" said Maia.

"How could I've forgotten, Maia? A diva's life is under the spotlight!" answered Helen happily.

"Careful not to melt with so much light, Blackthorn" said Eric and they all laughed, except for Helen of course.

"Silence, guys; we begin the recording in three, two, one…" and the music begin. Izzy wasn't really familiarized with rock music, but it was fate's trick to hear that song that specific night.

Perfect by nature.
Icons of self-indulgence.
Just what we all need,
More lies about a world that...

...never was and never will be.
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled.

Look, here she comes now.
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you.
No flaws when you're pretending.

But now I know she...

...never was and never will be.
You don't know how you've betrayed me.
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie.

I know the truth now,
I know who you are,
and I don't love you anymore...

After the song finished, Isabelle was petrified, how come everything always reminded her of her guilt everywhere she went? Even when it wasn't her fault it felt like the guilt was taking her life away; she'd never be able to free herself until she'd actually decide to do something, but what?

"… That was awesome!" finished Becky turning her head to see her friend "Are you alright, Iz?" she asked. Isabelle tried to smile.

"Uh, yes… I'm just shocked that they're so good!" she laughed softly, suddenly she sensed Simon staring at her and she raised her head to smile at him, Simon left his guitar on the floor and approached to sit next to her as his mates continued to talk about how great had the song gone.

"Hey, what's wrong? A couple of days ago it was me who looked like a zombie and now it's you!" Simon joked but Izzy was still too nervous to laugh for real.

"I just… kind of felt the lyrics far too much…" she confessed, Simon remembered that Becky had told him that Izzy had some troubles with her family, but what troubles could she have? Her parents were princes, also her brother, she was a princess, her grandma the Queen mother loved her to death even thought she wasn't a Herondale, Jace was her cousin and now she also had Clary! What could go so wrong with her life? He also remembered that Izzy had offered once to help him and he hadn't accepted, but now it was his turn to help her.

"Come with me" he got up and offered her his hand.

"Oh, it's really ok… I just…" she hesitated looking at the floor.

"Believe me, baby; you need to let this out!" he said, Izzy giggled and took his hand shyly. Simon took her out to the apartment's little balcony, the view was amazing and the soft breeze made Izzy feel like she could breathe again. "Now, what's bothering you so much?"

"Simon, what would you do if you had a giant secret hidden… and you were afraid to tell it because it would hurt many people, but also it would damage many other people if you don't say it?…" Simon kind of related her problem to his own problems. That thought was always running through his mind: Isabelle or Clary? Clary was her best friend, he had to love her! But Clary was married and in love, Izzy wasn't and she seemed to like him! But Clary knew everything about him! But Izzy brought up a part of him that no one had ever seen! And he had to let go of Clary! … And like that he had many theories about his pitiful situation.

"Well, I'd do what feels right to do! Sometimes humans make everything so difficult when it's actually so easy, you know? Sometimes… you just have to go with the feeling and that's it, that's why we have a heart anyways, isn't it?" his answer made Izzy smile tenderly, Simon's heart began to rush and his braveness grew up inside him; without knowing he had found a solution while trying to help her; that was it, in order to help others he had to help himself first.

"I guess you're right…" She shivered a bit, Simon got closer to her. "I'm just a little afraid" Her eyes went from his own eyes down to his lips, he knew what was going to happen and he didn't mind, Clary's image had been erased from his heart and mind, he was ready to let go and start again.

"Don't be; if you make a mistake, you'll learn from it and if you got the answer right, you'll win whatever you wished to have…" Simon closed his eyes as he tried to focus only on her, her breathing, the way the wind went through her dark hair, her sweet eyes, her soft lips, the lovable way her hand shivered when he held it.

"Right now, what I most wish… Is you" she whispered, Simon got green light to touch his lips with hers, their hearts beat as if they were running a marathon, the kiss felt so right, perfect and wonderful, no one had ever made Simon feel like that, not even Clary, there was the answer he had been begging for, he was also in Clary's place, she was the past he loved, but Isabelle was the future he desired so badly; it was so meant to be, it was too much for them to take, Izzy had never felt like melting in anyone's arms, she felt like he would heal all her wounds, but could she do the same for him? She had to remember what Alec had said when she had told him about Simon: "give him some time, or you'll be forcing him to love you"; she had find out after that, it was always her who made people suffer over anything, the one who began the fight, who lighted the fire, who started the tragedy, drowning everyone with her own pain because she had made others love her, they didn't have other choice but to love her, she couldn't do that to him: if he wanted to love her, he would but because he wanted to not because he didn't have other option . Izzy died a bit inside as she got apart from him, Simon glared at her in disappointment.

"Give yourself time to heal, honey. I don't want to be your next broken heart…" they both had too much things to think about and do; they couldn't manage to love each other if they couldn't even love themselves at that point, or so she thought. Simon was starting to heal, but Isabelle was just starting to feel the pain. But they also knew that they would end up dying for each other, and it wouldn't be easy, it would hurt to death.

To be continued…

Dreamer.

*Disclaimer: The song I put there was Everybody's fool by Evanescence*

Hello, dear nephilims! First of all, I'm going to beg on my knees for forgiveness! I've been trying to update for so long, but these last weeks, have been awful, terrible, horrible and other synonyms! I've been so busy and tired and worried about everything! But I'll try to update the next chapter as soon as I can, but I'm not sure if I'll have time to write, but I'll try, I'll try with all of me! I swear hahaha. And other thing I wanted to talk about with you, my fellow fans; it's no news that we'll have our dear saga to become a TV show, at first I didn't think it would be a bad idea, until I read the word: "recast", what on earth were they thinking? I mean, I liked pretty much the movie, and even though the cast wasn't perfect, I think they did very well! I was getting used to it! But another cast and this whole idea of aging the characters, I'm just really pissed off; you know that sometimes producers make us suffer more than they please us! I mean why do we love any story of they're going to change it anyways? I'm terrified over the idea of who they're going to pick for which character (goodbye to my big screen sweethearts: Jamie, Robby, Kevin and Godfrey! :'(…) I mean, if the movie didn't work for them or us, why don't they leave it that way and that's it… I'm just not convinced about this, I'm going to die of sadness really! Tell me what you think? Well, anyways, I'll stop the drama and ask: what do you think? I know I made you get angry over the Clace drama but also remember how much did miss Clare made us suffer with the Sizzy, I mean maybe they weren't brothers but as *spoiler alert* as soon as they say I love you for real he loses his memory! That's not fair! I love Sizzy, I really do… I cried over Simon's incident for one whole weekend, I just couldn't believe it; I was so heartbroken that I couldn't even read the epilogue! Hahaha, well I can just tell you that this relationship will be a bit complicated but also beautiful. And I'm going to tell you this, the next chapter will be about Jace and Clary's fourth anniversary, because I'm running out of chapters actually I have to rush this but I also want to give you more romance, it's complicated, hahaha; but I'm telling you this so you don't get lost, still I'll write that down in case you forget it. As always, thank you for reading, sorry for making you wait so long! Hugs and kisses and I'll "read" you in the next chapter, goodbye!