Driving to school was a nightmare. I didn't listen to music anymore. Every song reminded me of him. When it was silent my brain would decide that this was the perfect time to think about everything wrong in my life. Edward, the Cullens, my friends, Edward, my parents, my education, my promise, edward..
Ugh why wouldn't my brain just stop? I wish I could just mute my brain! "Stop it" I scolded myself "he's gone, he doesn't love you.. forget him". I immediately felt horrible for thinking that. I couldn't forget him. I wouldn't! I started to hyperventilate, the thought of forgetting him was terrifying.
The next thing I knew I was in the school parking lot. I hoped no one would notice me but my truck stuck out like a sore thumb. The deafening roar of the engine and the color was enough to draw in everyone's attention. Luckily for me, there were not a lot of kids here yet. Most of the kids didn't arrive until 10 minutes before the bell rang. I could see that I was a gossip topic around here. The kids that were here were whispering and looking at me. I wonder what the rumors were this time. I debated going in early. If I went in now, I could go to the office and figure out where I needed to go. A new semester had started while I was out. I realized I had no idea what any of my classes were. At least then I could figure out where to go. But if I went in now I would have to cross the slowly filling up parking lot and have everyone stare at me. I decided to go in early. After going to the office, getting lectured by the secratary, getting my schedule and figuring out where to go, I stopped into the bathroom. I needed peace and quiet even if it was just for a few minutes. I was in the stall when I heard some girls come in. I recognized two of them right away. Jessica and Angela. I was about to open the door to say hi to them when I heard an unpleasant nasally voice speak up as well.
"Ugh did you see who is finally back? Bella Swan! Haha guess she decided she could show her face here again"
I was confused. What had been said about me? Then I heard Jessica speak.
"I wonder which rumor is true about her." I mean what do you think she did?"
"I heard she was caught cheating with his brother Jasper! It upset Edward and his sister so much that the whole family left!" Ugh that was the rumor against me? Wow. Not very creative but still. I could never do that to Alice or Edward! Whatever as long as I knew the truth noth-. Both Jessica and Lauren's voices got quiet. I strained to hear them.
"Well I heard that Edward got Bella pregnant. She didn't want the baby so she went and got an abortion! The Cullens were so upset that she killed the baby that they left and he dumped her!" Lauren cackled while Jessica and Angela gasped. "Oh my God" squealed Jessica "No wonder she's been a wreck! She did that horrible thing AND lost her boyfriend!" Both girls were giggling. Suddenly Angela spoke up.
"Really? Even if that rumor was true, why would Bella do that? Did you ever think that IF that was true, it could have been that Edward forced her to have one or he did something to her? Do you ever think that maybe she was a victim and NOT him?" I silently thanked Angela. Obviously that rumor wasn't true but she was still attempting to stick up for me.
"Ugh whatever" said Lauren and I could hear her opening up her bag. Probably to touch up her makeup before class. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to say something. I opened the door and stepped out.
All 3 girls looked at me shocked. Angela looked shocked, Jessica was clearly embarrassed but Lauren looked like she had just smelled something gross. "Well look who it is. Bella. Have a good extended vacation Bella?" She laughed and turned away from me. Jessica stepped toward me like she wanted to say something but instead turned around, grabbed Lauren's hand and stumbled out of the bathroom. That just left me and Angela in the room staring awkwardly at each other.
"Welcome back Bella" Angela finally said. I couldn't say anything. My mouth wouldn't open. All I could do was give her a smile which probably looked like a grimace. Angela continued "I'm sorry about the conversation you heard. We didn't know you were there. Are you OK?" Angela looked at me with genuine concern. I was only able to nod. I was afraid that if I tried to say anything, I would break down.
"Well if you ever need, you can talk to me.. I'm here for you" she gave me a slight smile and then left the bathroom. I stood there for a minute, not really sure what to do. All I wanted to do was to go home. I wanted to be in my bed away from all this drama. But I had made a promise. I thought of the rumors that were going around. "Me cheating on Edward or killing his baby" I wasn't sure if I wanted to laugh or cry. I looked in the mirror and saw that I had tears slowly dripping down my face. I wiped them away and made myself look presentable. Only 7 hours of hell left. Please let it go by soon.