Well, the day did not go fast like I had hoped. Each class felt like it was 3 hours long. Each teacher seemed either surprised to see me back or had forgotten who I was. In every class I heard the whispers. I heard the rumors. I heard some different ones, besides when I heard from Lauren and Jessica. I heard that Edward found someone else, he had fallen for one of his "sisters" and people would judge so his family left to find somewhere where people wouldn't care or the simple one: The cullens moved away and I was being over dramatic. Those rumors were more believable. I preferred those ones compared to the cheating and abortion stories. The one thing that I couldn't stand is that students were actually adding to the abortion story. It wasn't as simple as I heard in the girls bathroom. Some were saying that I made him take me to the clinic so he had to watch, others said that Carlisle was the one who helped me and that he felt so guilty about what he had done that he took his family and fled the state. I was near tears and as soon as the bell rang for lunch, I ran to the bathroom before I started to lose it in front of everyone.
There was a bathroom at the back of the school that no one over used. I made a beeline for there. I hurried in and ran into the nearest stall. I tried to muffle my sobs. I missed Edward. I missed Alice. I missed all the Cullens. I missed my mom.. The wound in my chest had once again brought a stabbing pain through it. I couldn't breathe, I started to gag everything was horrible. I could fill my anxiety building up and I was going to scream.
"Bella..?" Angela's voice brought me back to reality. She had followed me all the way into the bathroom. I felt a little twinge of fear at first. What if Lauren and Jessica followed her and they were all going to come at me again.. I hesatiated for a bit, waiting for the door to open again. When nothing else happened, I took a deep breath and opened the stall. "Oh Bella" she looked so sad for me. Before I knew what I was doing, I ran and hugged her. We stood there for a few minutes as I let all the pain that I had been feeling today out. I was sobbing onto her shoulder while she held me and whispered that it was going to be ok. After a bit I let go and looked at her. Her left shoulder was all wet and crumpled. I instantly felt bad that I had messed up her shirt but she wouldn't hear of it when I tried to apologize.
"It's ok Bella. It's just water. It will dry" she turned to the mirror to see her shirt for herself. "I bet in an hour it will be fine". She smiled at me and gave me a side hug. I doubted that it would be dry by then but I didn't say anything. "Come on, let's go get something to eat." She took a paper towel, helped me dry my face and then led me out into the almost empty hallway. I still felt the anxiety and pain in my chest but it wasn't as bad as it had been.
I couldn't go into the cafeteria because it held so many memories of the Cullens. It's where I first saw them and where I sat with them and I grew close to them. So Angela went in and got enough food for both of us. We then went into the library to eat. As we ate I told her the real story about why I had been gone, well I left the part out of them being supernatural creatures but I told her almost everything else. I told her about my mom and her cancer and sudden passing and then I set the record straight about what happened between me and the Cullens. I told her that the day after my birthday, he came to my house. He wanted me to take a walk with him, so I did. Then I told her about how he said he hadn't loved me and that he never did.
"Oh my gosh Bella.. I'm so sorry. How could he have said those things to you?! Was he mad at you? Sometimes people say things out of anger and they don't mean it.. I can't imagine what that must all be like or what it's doing to you." She patted my back. We sat there in silence until the bell rang. I sighed. I didn't want to go back to class. I only had 2 hours left before I could go home.
I hardly remember the last 2 classes. It all went by in a blur. When the final bell rang I slowly started packing up my stuff. The hallways were filled with kids rushing to go home. I wanted to wait until the massive crowd died down so I could walk to my truck without being bothered. I swear it was like half the school was waiting for me to leave. When I finally went outside, kids stopped talking and watched me. They didn't even try and hide their stares and whispers. I was like a little side show freak that was put out on display to be gawked at. When I made it to my truck kids had started to lose interest in staring and had gone back to talking, most likely about me. As I scanned the parking lot I could see Lauren, Jessica and Angela. Angela gave me a small wave while Lauren and Jessica looked annoyed. I started up my car with a roar and slowly started on my way home. How could I put up with this every day? Why couldn't people just leave me alone?