I live! I know I've been quiet, but I have been working on stuff in background. Promise. Also doesn't help that I'm currently recovering from carpal tunnel surgery in my dominant hand... either way, I hope you enjoy this little poem.
Memory Loss
Lying in a hospital room
My head bandaged something fierce
I question where I am again
And what it was I do
Something inside has changed
I can feel it in my bones
But when I try to think just what
My head decides to scream
At least I know how to feed myself
How to walk and write too
But I just wish I knew what happened
To put me in this place
I see a woman through the screen
Peeping into the room
But I can see fear and worry
Then she sees me looking and is gone
I see other people as well
Concerned and wary are they
But though I don't speak to them
They at least try with me
But I see their worry only grow
With every word I dare not speak
And yet I feel the change in me
Has something to do with them
Even weirder are the clothes they wear
Colour-coded for each being
Black and red and white and green
With light blue for the elusive one
My head explodes when they come in
The brightness hurts my eyes
That pain obviously shows itself
Because they seem to worry more
A few days after lying prone
I sneak out of my bed
Just moving into the hallway
Tells me this is no hospital
A house, I think this place might be
Or something else considering where I was
And yet my body seems to know
Which room is where and how to get there
I find myself in the shadows
Of the hallway leading to the kitchen
My ears pick up on voices
Despite my eyes being closed to pain
"If only I had gotten there quicker."
The voice came from the one in black.
"If only just a few seconds more,
I could have caught that falling beam."
"You say that, but what about me?
I could not defuse the bomb
And had to call for evacuation."
That voice, I'm sure, came from white
"I was closest to where he was,
I should have gone after him.
Especially knowing he was already injured."
Green's voice was next to come
Just who were they talking about?
Had they caused someone's death?
No, that doesn't sound right
But my head pounds with their words
If only I could remember
What exactly happened to me
If only I knew why my head hurt so much
Then I hear the woman's voice
"If we're all playing the blame game
Let me add one of my own.
I should not have let Jay go off by himself"
My head began spinning at that
I think there was another voice
Or multiple, I'm not sure
But at that moment there was a crash
And I felt my body fall
In the darkness memories flowed
Of being on a rescue mission
Of getting everyone else out
But being too weak to run myself
Images of construction beams
Falling on top of me
Voices calling out my name
Then the lights return
I awake back on my hospital bed
With everyone looking worried around me
I give them all a tired smile
Because finally I remember
- Jay Walker