July 23rd 1971:
Peter Pettigrew had always dreamed of receiving his Hogwarts letter, though part of him had feared it would never come. More than anything, Peter wanted to belong; to be part of something bigger than himself. He was not the tallest or the strongest, nor the most naturally gifted, but he had an unshakable determination to prove himself. And if proving himself meant adjusting to fit in, then so be it.
Perhaps that was because he had spent his childhood feeling as though he never quite fit anywhere. His father had left when he was four years old, walking out one evening and never returning. Peter had no memory of his face, only the absence he had left behind. His mother had done her best, but she was often tired, often distracted, and Peter had quickly learned that the world did not carve out places for people like him. If he wanted to belong, he would have to make sure he did, no matter what.
So when the owl arrived one morning, pecking insistently at the kitchen window, Peter nearly stumbled over himself to reach it.
His mother, a kindly woman with graying hair and a tired expression, had reached it first. "Here it is, Peter!," she exclaimed, pressing the envelope into his hands.
Peter examined the parchment, running a thumb over the seal before opening it. His eyes skimmed the words:
Dear Mr. Pettigrew,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry...
His heart pounded. He had done it. He was going to Hogwarts. He was going to be part of something at last.
The following week, his mother took him to Diagon Alley. Peter had been before, but this time, it felt different; more alive, more important. The narrow, winding street was a whirlwind of sights and sounds. The cobbled path was uneven beneath his feet, lined with bustling shops that stretched high above him. The air was thick with the scent of parchment and ink from Flourish and Blotts, mingling with the rich aroma of butterbeer from The Leaky Cauldron. Cauldrons of all sizes were stacked outside a shop, and a group of children huddled around a display of self-stirring whisks, giggling as they moved of their own accord.
Owls hooted from a pet shop window, their golden eyes blinking in the sunlight, while a wizard in emerald robes advertised enchanted quills that never ran out of ink. Everywhere Peter looked, something was moving, glowing, or bursting into color.
He tried to walk with confidence, taking in the towering shops, the enchanted window displays, and the sheer magic surrounding him. But underneath it all, he was nervous. Would he be able to keep up? Would he make friends? Would he fit in?
First, they stopped at Madam Malkin's for his school robes. He stepped onto the fitting stool, willing himself to look at ease. Nearby, another boy with messy black hair and round glasses stood on his own stool, chatting easily with the witch adjusting his robes.
As Peter stepped down, the boy turned to him. "First year?" he asked
"Peter straightened his shoulders and grinned. "Yeah, you?"
"Me too," the boy said proudly. "James Potter."
Peter hesitated for only a second before replying, "Peter Pettigrew." He said it with as much self-assurance as he could muster, as if his name should mean something.
James beamed. "Nice to meet you, Peter! Maybe we'll be in the same house. I'm aiming for Gryffindor!"
Peter gave a firm nod, pleased by how easily James included him.
They visited Flourish and Blotts together after their robe fittings. The store was packed with towering shelves, books stacked so high they seemed in danger of toppling. A few young witches and wizards browsed nearby, their arms piled high with spellbooks. Peter struggled under the weight of his own books, James had noticed and easily lifted a couple from his stack.
"Need a hand?" James asked, grinning.
Peter hesitated, then smirked as if the weight hadn't been a problem and he could have managed fine on his own. "Thanks," he said.
"No problem," James replied. "Mum says I should always help out mates. And since you're a future Gryffindor too, I reckon we're mates."
Peter felt a warmth in his chest at the word. He nodded quickly. "Yeah, mates."
They wandered into the Apothecary, where the strong scent of herbs and potion ingredients filled the air. Jars of slimy substances lined the walls, some filled with wriggling things Peter wasn't sure he wanted to identify. The shopkeeper scooped dried nettles into a pouch while a cauldron in the corner bubbled ominously. Peter wrinkled his nose as he watched a shopkeeper measure out dried nettles and dragon liver. James nudged him. "Bet potions is going to be awful, huh?"
Peter scoffed, even though he wasn't sure. "Yeah… I just hope we don't have to handle anything too disgusting." He let out a short laugh, mimicking James' casual tone.
Finally, they stopped at Ollivanders. The wand shop was dimly lit, the air thick with the scent of polished wood and old parchment. Narrow boxes were stacked to the ceiling, each containing a wand waiting for its rightful owner. Mr. Ollivander himself emerged from the shadows, his pale eyes twinkling as he studied Peter.
"Ah," he murmured, "another first-year. Let's find you a wand, shall we?"
Peter tried several wands, each one failing in some spectacular way: one sent sparks flying, another turned his hair briefly purple: but finally, he gripped a short, slightly knotted wand of chestnut with a dragon heartstring core. A warm feeling surged through him.
"Curious," Ollivander mused. "A wand suited for loyalty... and perhaps something more."
Peter didn't know what that meant, but he grinned, making sure James saw how pleased he looked. James clapped him on the back. "Nice one, mate!"
Before leaving Diagon Alley, Peter, James, and his mother stopped by Florean Fortescue's Ice Cream Parlour. They sat outside, their ice creams melting in the sun. James regaled Peter with stories about Hogwarts, though neither of them had been there yet.
"I heard the moving staircases try to trip you," James said with a grin. "And there's a poltergeist named Peeves who throws things at first-years."
Peter scoffed, pretending he wasn't worried. "Sounds brilliant," he said, though his stomach twisted at the thought.
James laughed. "Nah, it'll be brilliant! We'll have the best time."
Peter grinned, mirroring James' excitement. If he stuck close to James, maybe Hogwarts wouldn't be so scary after all. Maybe, just maybe, he could find his place.
After parting ways with James and his parents, Peter's mother gave him a proud smile. "Next stop, Hogwarts." she said, brushing his hair back affectionately.
Peter nodded, his heart pounding. He wasn't sure what awaited him, but he was certain of one thing; he would make sure he fit in, no matter what.
The evening before they left for the Hogwarts Express, Peter sat in his small bedroom, staring at his new books and robes. He thought about his father; where he might be, if he ever thought of Peter, if he had ever wanted him in the first place. The thought made his stomach twist. His father had walked away so easily, as if Peter had meant nothing. That wasn't going to happen again. At Hogwarts, he would be someone people wanted to be around. He would find friends who wouldn't leave.
Peter closed his trunk with a determined snap. Tomorrow, he would step onto the train, and the future would finally begin.
