Author's note: description of sensuality

Chapter 16

For the first few days, the infection was bad. James had a high fever, was on continuous IV antibiotics and was in and out of it most of the time. I only went back to my room to shower and change clothes. I insisted on being in charge of his care and oversaw all his treatment. Not that I did not trust my colleagues. I just had to look after him.

When he was through the worst of it, I finally relaxed a bit.

- Thank you, nurse– he said grinning after I changed his bandages. I just gave him a look.

- How are you? – I asked him.

- Much better under such good care – he pulled me down and kissed me. I felt happiness like never before just to be able to kiss him and hear his voice again.

- What I want to know – he started after I sat down next to him – is how are you doing?

- Me? I am not the one on a hospital bed recovering from being shot.

- From the way you look, you could be on a hospital bed next to me.

- Excuse me?

- No offence but you look like the walking dead.

- Offence taken.

- Seriously. When was the last time you ate or slept?

- A while ago… - he sighed – I am sorry, I was just so worried.

- I know you have been through hell, and I am sorry I put you through that – I wanted to interrupt him but he lifted his palm up – Believe me, I would have been the same if I thought I lost you – he took my hand before he continued – but I need you to rest and eat something. I am worried about you.

- You don't need to be worried about me – he just gave me a look and I sighed – okay fine. I will sleep and eat something. By the way, I talked to your parents. I told them that you are doing much better, and they were so happy. They say they love you and can't wait to see you – He gave me a happy smile.

- I can't wait to give them a hug – when he said that, my heart melted. I loved the way he treated his family, he has always been so respectful and loving towards them. I could see him treating his own wife and kids the same way. Our kids, I thoughts and felt giddy. I never really thought about having kids, but I was ready to give this man some babies. It is crazy that we have only known each other for like 5 months. I just hoped that he wanted that too. We never really talked about marriage and kids yet.

- Okay, I am going to get you something to eat and then I will go the canteen after and back to my room for a nap.

- No, you are going to get yourself something as well because we are going to eat together.

- You don't believe that I will eat later?

- Nope. You will be fussing around in the nursing station, bossing people around – I rolled my eyes, and he grinned at me. I mean he was not entirely wrong. I felt like I could not focus on myself until he fully recovered. I would have done anything to make sure that he was okay. I knew what I was doing was not healthy but for the first time in my life, I found a person whose needs I was willing to put above my own, and I would do it again anytime without even blinking. But yeah, bottom line is he was right. I got some food for the both of us and we ate and talked. As soon as I started to eat, I realized how starved my body was. Suddenly I felt absolutely exhausted, to a point where I was not even sure if I could make it back to my room. Nevertheless, I still hesitated to leave his side until Eve came in. This made me feel reassured that he will be in good hands, and I finally dragged myself to my room and collapsed on top of my bed.

It has been two and a half months since James got shot and he was healing very well. In fact, he has been declared medically fit to go back to his 'usual physical activities' which we all know what it means. Well, technically, it meant that he could go back to his SEAL duties. In reality, it meant sex! At the beginning that was the last thing on my mind. But as he was getting better, it became harder to control myself. The only thing left to do was talking to Karen.

- Hey – I went up to her at the staff accommodation.

- Hey pet*.

- Can I ask for a favour? Could you swap my night shift with me? If you can do mine tonight, I will do yours tomorrow.

- So, tonight is the big night huh?

- I don't know what you mean? – of course I did.

- The boy has been declared medically fit today. Even before his injury, you two could barely keep your hands off of each other. I can only imagine after two month – I opened my mouth but could not say anything.

- Don't worry love. I'll take your shift. And by the way he has been looking at you, you are in for a treat.

James was supposed to arrive any minute now. We never had sex in his room as he was sharing it with Silk. When he came into my room, I almost squalled from excitement.

- How are you? – I went up to him.

- Better now – he said and kissed me. I grabbed him by his jacket collar and pushed him against the wall. I separated from him slightly, gave him a cheeky smile and slowly went down on my knees. I undid his trousers and pulled them down.

- I can see you are ready.

- Been ready since I woke up from surgery - I grinned and did what one does kneeling in front of a man. His breath became shaky, and he closed his eyes. I felt him slowly tangling his fingers in my hair.

- Yes, that's it baby – he moaned when I took his full length in my mouth. When he was getting closer, he held my head still and started to move himself in and out of my mouth. When his pace quickened, I gagged a bit, but I was really enjoying myself.

James has been an amazing lover. He was very attentive and made sure that I always had a great time and felt comfortable. We never finished until he made me come. And he always made sure that I came before him. But tonight was all about him and all I wanted to do was to pleasure him. I felt so empowered and content by kneeling in front of this fearless and strong man, watching him becoming completely undone. After he came, I slowly pulled myself off of him and sat back on my heels. When he opened his eyes, he put his hand under my chin and gently lifted me up.

- Damn girl – he breathed. I just grinned. We undressed each other while kissing but when I tried to lead him to the bed, he picked me up and placed me on the small table in my room.

- James, baby, tonight is about you – I said when I saw him getting down on his knees.

- Oh, this is about me too. Seeing your body shake with pleasure under my tongue is one of the things I enjoy the most – with that he grabbed my hips and pulled me to the edge of the table. He placed my legs on his shoulders and when I felt his tongue, I leaned back on the table, closing my eyes. I was running my fingers through his hair when his tongue started to go in and out of me which made me arch my back and moan louder. In response, he hummed contently. When I came, my legs were shaking on his shoulders, and I clawed the table. He stood back up and kissed me. When I finally caught my breath, I looked him deep in the eyes.

- Get on the bed sailor - he gave me that naughty grin and said: 'yes ma'am' in a low, husky voice which I simply called his sex voice. And believe me girl, it was sexyyyy. I slowly followed him to the bed, and when he saw me get on top of him, he swallowed hard. I started to kiss his neck and chest and suddenly bit into his pecks. He inhaled sharply from the sensation and put his hand on the back of my head. I continued to kiss him and bit him again. When I finished with the teasing, I very slowly sat down on him. The feeling made both of us moan. I was going very slow first, then started to go faster and faster and not long after I came, he followed me. He sat up and wrapped his arms around me while I was still sitting on his lap, my legs around his waist. We were gently kissing each other.

Later we were laying on my bed and I was leaving small kisses on the healed bullet wound. The memories made me sad, and I wanted to kiss all the pain away.

- What's wrong baby? – he asked lifting my chin up. I realized I was crying, and my tears were dropping onto his bare skin.

- Nothing it's just…I am sorry, I don't know what's going on – I felt embarrassed.

- Minty….

- It's just that the past two month I was so happy and tried to think about what happened as a horrible dream. But now looking at your wound just makes it become a reality again. And I know it's stupid because you are here but…- my lower lip started to tremble.

- Come here – he pulled me into his chest tight and let me cry it out while caressing the back of my head.

- I am not going anywhere. I will always come back. I promise – he whispered and started to hum a melody. It was so soft and relaxing that I could feel myself falling asleep.

*Pet is an affectionate term, used especially in Northern England.