AN: Seven days! Who's excited!
~Grief~
She was gone.
After all this time, the reality was only just starting to hit him.
His Miss was dead.
And he would never see her again…
She'd given him a chance at life, at making his own choices, an undeserved one at that, she'd saved him.
But when she needed to be saved all he could do was just stand by and watch. He could have done something, interfered in some way, but no, he couldn't, he didn't.
Grief hits at the strangest times; months, years after the fact, only now was Ren feeling the weight of her loss.
And that loss hurt, more than any Hell fire ever could.
Memories, moments, coming back, suddenly, her face is all he can see; the beauty, the wise eyes that could always tell the difference between truth and lies.
Ren never could do that.
With her face in his thoughts, clouding out everything else; Ren doesn't register the tears, until a sudden sob warms its way out of his mouth.
Face in hands, he allows himself to break – finally.
He's never allowed himself to do that before, not really. But now, there's no point in holding back.
Why not?
He has nothing to loss.
His chest ached…
His heart felt like a bolder, crushing him into bits.
Ai… Ai I miss you, I'm so sorry…
Ren knows of course, that his anger, his self-loathing, is useless. Fate is unavoidable, it can't be stopped. He knows that Ai herself would be the first one to agree.
But still…
He can't stop his feelings.
He doesn't want to. His Miss had awakened something within him, and despite the overwhelming pain that came from thinking of her, Ren wouldn't allow himself to be a coward.
He'd done that already once before.
Not now.
He could honor her by living with his decisions, by facing the pain, and not letting it destroy him.
He'd live for her.
He vowed it.
AN: Set after Futakomori, but before Mitsugane. Hope you enjoyed and reviews are very much welcomed!