A/n- First new story of the year! Goal is to try to get to 800k words this year. And finally another Rutger/Lilina story, it's been a while. This one is set earlier in their relationship, after the war but before they get married, for some sweet awkwardness. A bit of lore for this one too, when I first gave the idea to the artist on Skeb the pose reference had them doing anal but when I got the artwork they changed it. I was fine with it either way, but that is why I added the scene where they accidentally almost do it that way.

The Commission Files- File #1034 A Balancing Act

Characters: Rutger, Lilina

Based on: a commission by LambOic029 on Skeb

It was a nice and quiet evening in Ostia's castle and it's ruler and her future consort were sharing a warm and relaxing bath together. It had been about a year since the war with Bern had ended and the happy couple had been steadily progressing with their relationship, though of course there were some growing pains as you would expect. There were good parts as well, recently they had become much more open about being intimate with each other, though they were still finding their way in that as well. But all in all things were going well for Lilina and Rutger and tonight would be another small step forward for them, as they would soon see.

"Hmm, the water is starting to cool and get stale, it's probably time for us to get out." Lilina commented, though she didn't really make a movement to get up out of the bathtub, instead snuggling a bit closer to Rutger.

"I'm sure a few more moments won't kill us." Rutger replied back, trying his best to sound romantic. He was still learning of course, but he was getting better.

"You're right, and if we cuddle together like this we can stay warm just a little bit longer." Lilina agreed, taking Rutger's arms and wrapping them around her body. But eventually they did need to get out and they started to dry themselves off. Rutger didn't take much time at all but with Lilina's long hair it took a bit, especially to make sure it combed out straight. But then again Lilina was expecting it to get messed up again quite soon so she didn't make it look perfect, just enough to make it look presentable. The last touch as always was her red headpiece which she wore all the time as a reminder of the last gift her mother had given her before her passing. But it was a bit of a struggle to reach at the moment since the shelves were quite high in the bathroom since it's last owners were two very tall men.

"I really should get these shelves readjusted for my height before I end up hurting my-" Lilina said as she tried to reach for her headpiece, but before she could finish the sentence she started to slip on the wet floor. She put her hand on the wall to try and stop her fall, but thankfully Rutger was right there to catch her and the headpiece as it fell off the shelf from all the movement.

"I agree, we should get it fixed, or have a shorter one put in." Rutger said calmly as he handed Lilina her headpiece. She took it and quickly put it on her head adjusted it in the way she liked. She then looked in Rutger's eyes and could see a bit more concern than his voice had been letting on.

"Hey, hey, don't get so worked up, it was just an accident, everything is okay." She tried to assure him. "Plus I knew you'd be right there to save me as you always do." She added with one of her trademark bright smiles. And that seemed to work, the look in Rutger's eyes calmed down after he took a few breaths.

"Just be more careful." Rutger replied a bit gruffly, but Lilina understood that he was just saying that because he was concerned, not to be rude. After the excitement of that moment had passed though the two of them realized that they were in a bit of an awkward position. With Lilina's hand against the wall Rutger caught her in a way where only one of her feet were on the ground and her other leg was up in the air, almost right over his shoulder. But what they both really felt was Rutger's erect dick throbbing right between Lilina's thighs, any small movement between them possibly causing penetration. Both of their first reactions were to blush in slight embarrassment, but Lilina was the first one to break the tension between them, as she usually did.

"This is quite the predicament I've put us in, isn't it?" She teased Rutger slightly. "Though it would be a shame if we didn't… take advantage of it in some way. Don't you think?" Rutger was getting more and more used to Lilina openly and confidently flirting with him like this by the day, but this still took him back slightly. That and the fact that they were still on some slippery ground caused him to pause slightly.

"Are you sure, we could move out of the bathroom onto some better footing." He wondered.

"That's what makes it more exciting." Lilina replied with a bit of a smirk. "Besides, I've got your big, strong arms to keep me in place right?" Rutger was also slowly relearning a fact that he had known since they were children, when Lilina wanted something she was going to get it in one way or another. She might not be as stubborn as her father, but she did inherit some of it to be sure. Rutger could tell it was one of those times so he wasn't going to fight it. Besides Lilina knew what she was doing a massive majority of the time and honestly he really did just want to stick himself inside her right here and now, he just wanted to make sure she knew what she was getting into.

"Well, when you put it that way, how can I argue?" Rutger asked rhetorically. "Besides, who am I to deny the woman giving me my room and board?" That was more of a joke, something Rutger was getting better at doing, and Lilina understood what his tone was telling her so she smiled back at him confidently.

"I knew you'd come around to my reasoning." She told him just as confidently. "Now if you'd be so kind as to get started before we dry off completely, I think that would make things much smoother to start out with."

"As you wish." Rutger replied before taking hold of her side with his left hand, keeping her leg steady with his right hand, and lining himself up perfectly before sliding right on into her body. Lilina gasped in pleasure as she felt Rutger's dick slip inside her and she was right in thinking the wetness of the bath would keep things smooth as they started because he slid all the way in on the first stroke and it didn't hurt at all. "Everything still feeling good?" Rutger asked, as he usually did at this point. It wasn't getting too annoying to Lilina just yet, but eventually she would want him to stop asking and just do what he knew would make the both of them feel good.

"Everything is perfect, keep on going, you know I can take it." Lilina replied, still full of confidence but now a bit pleasured as well. Rutger nodded and started doing his best to start slowly thrusting in and out while still keeping his and Lilina's footing secure. This was the first time they were having sex standing up like this and even though Rutger's parents taught him a bit about how to be intimate most of that knowledge had fallen to the wayside during the war so he was basically starting fresh. He slowly figured out that it was much easier to use his hands to push and pull Lilina's body back and forth instead of him using his hips to thrust, so he started doing that more instead.

"Tell me if my grip gets too tight." Rutger panted as he could feel a slight layer of sweat starting to form on his body. Good thing they just bathed so the smell wouldn't be too bad.

"I will, but I have to say, I'm actually enjoying you being a bit more forceful." Lilina breathed as she used her hand to steady herself. "I wish you would do this more often."

"I'll keep that in mind." Rutger grunted slightly as he pulled her back a bit harder this time. He knew that he was still kind of treating Lilina like she might break if he went too hard and he knew that was the wrong way to think about things, but things like that took time and practice to grow out of. Thankfully Lilina was very willing to give him both of those things. But given it was the first time they were doing something in this position, there were bound to be mistakes along the way as well. As he was trying to find the best way to continue pushing deeper Rutger's dick accidentally slipped out of Lilina and the two of them didn't notice for a few moments because of all the pleasure and passion they were sharing. It wasn't until his dick started to slide between Lilina's butt cheeks and prod her other entrance that things got a bit testy.

"Ah! Rutger! Stop! Don't do it there!" Lilina gasped as she felt the tip of his dick press a bit harder onto her rear. Thankfully Rutger stopped himself before he went in any further. He pulled his hips back and there was a bit of an awkward silence between them for a moment as they looked at each other and just caught their breath.

"Sorry, I should have realized sooner I had slipped out." Rutger finally said, a little disappointed in himself that he didn't catch on before things got to where they did.

"Hey, it happens right?" Lilina assured him softly. "At least you stopped before anything bad happened like you always say you will. Honestly, that just makes me trust you even more. And to be fair, eventually I would like to try it there, but not tonight. So don't beat yourself up about it, I still love you." She added reaching up and doing her best to give him a kiss.

"You sure you're not mad at me?" Rutger asked, just to make sure.

"No, of course I'm not." Lilina replied confidently. "You did the right thing and I appreciate that. But now that we've gotten past that I'd appreciate if you'd stick yourself back inside and finish the job you started. It's never the right thing to keep a woman wanting more when you can give her what she wants." She teased him, reaching down and putting his dick back into the right position to slip into the right place.

"If you say so." Rutger said slightly sarcastically before thrusting back into her powerfully, earning another long gasp and moan, music to his ears. Soon enough the pair got right back to where they left off and even further as they continued to keep their bathroom hot and steamy with just their breath and movements. Eventually though they started to reach their limits, though they were starting to last much longer than they used to.

"I can't last much longer, where do you want it?" Rutger breathed heavily as he tried his best to hold on so he could hear Lilina's response. It was a safe day by her calculations, but she wanted to try something different given the position they were in.

"Spray it on my stomach, please!" She moaned back and that's all Rutger needed to hear before he slipped his dick out of her and pressed it against her stomach as he continued to thrust a bit. Moments later they both had their orgasms and Rutger's seed spilled all over Lilina's stomach, some of it even reaching past her navel and one bit even landing right on the underside of her right breast. Slowly and steadily Rutger's thrusting slowed and came to a stop and he slowly let Lilina's leg that had been in the air this whole time down so she could stand on her own two feet. Once she was stable she looked down to her stomach to see how it looked.

"Well, that almost defeats the purpose of taking a bath, but I think it'll be fine." She commented before giggling slightly. "Some might even call you an artist with how it splattered on me."

"As long as it felt good for you." Rutger noted simply, though he had a noticeable smile on his face. "That was certainly interesting though. Another good idea from the amazing mind of Ostia's ruler."

"Oh please, it wasn't that impressive, I'm sure you've heard stories of your parents doing more." Lilina commented with another laugh.

"Is that why you keep trying to push our boundaries together?" Rutger wondered, his bluntness piercing right through to the point of the conversation. "Because you want to do all that stuff they did?"

"Ummm, kind of?" Lilina answered, not expecting to have to be having this conversation right now and being a little embarrassed about it. "It's that a problem?"

"No, not really." Rutger admitted, which was true. "I guess I just wish you would have told me sooner, so I could be on the same page."

"I was going to tell you eventually, I just didn't know when the right time would be." Lilina told him. "I'm sorry if that makes you upset, I didn't mean to."

"I know you didn't, and I know it's just because I have a complicated relationship with my feelings concerning them at the moment." Rutger noted. "But please, I'm not going to get angry at you for talking about them. You knew them too, you lost them too, you understand more than most people do and I want to be able to talk to you about them, so don't think you have to hold back on my account."

"Rutger…" Lilina said softly before wrapping her arms around him in a firm hug. "Okay, if that's how you feel, I'll be more open about talking about your parents with you, I promise."

"Thank you, I know you'll try your best and that's all I'm asking for." Rutger said as he hugged her back. They stood their together in the embrace for a long while until they broke apart again and Rutger helped clean his seed off of Lilina and off himself since they had been hugging.

"You know, we kind of skipped the kissing and making out part of everything." Lilina noted once they were done and had gotten into their sleeping clothes. "You think you'd be up for some before we fall asleep? Nothing too rough, just soft and slow to finish the night off."

"That sounds lovely." Rutger replied with a warm smile. And that was the perfect way to cap the night off. As the two of them shared a last few, soft kisses before they fell asleep they both were grateful that they were learning to have a healthy and balance relationship, both emotionally and physically.