When Jay returned in the morning, I was sitting on my bed drying my hair having not long got out of the shower after my breakfast that didn't get the chance to fully digest thanks to a horrible wave of morning sickness.
As he walked in I grinned at the sight of such a handsome and sexy man that I had the luck of having love and the I loved him. "Good Morning Beautiful!" As he walked over to me he leaned into kiss me gently. "And Good Morning to you Baby Halstead's, I hope you were been good for your Mommy last night and this morning." He said gently kissing my stomach again as he placed a hand on there as well.
I Immediately shook my head "Nope they haven't, they decided to not let Mom eat breakfast this morning. I barely got it down before having a wave of morning sickness hit me!" I answered grumbling as I finished with the towel and threw it onto the chair beside the bed. He glanced at me trying to keep an amused look off his face as he did before turning back to my stomach.
"Oh you two come on now, you need to let your Mom eat so she can help you grow big and strong." He said pretending to growl even though a big smile was forming on his face. I laughed and grinned at him like a Chesire Cat as I listened to Jay talk about me to the babies. He then stood up, took his jacket off before tossing it onto the chair on top of my towel and leaning back towards me with a sexy smirk on his face.
Suddenly I couldn't control myself and I leant forward to grab his face so I could kiss him deeply, pausing for a second to lock my arms as best as I could around his neck as he joined in and our tongues were soon fighting for dominance as they always did and just as things were getting heavier and Jay moved from my mouth to my neck where he had begun softly kissing, nipping and sucking which like it always did caused me to moan and pull him closer, as yet another moaned escaped my lips Jay pulled back sighing as he growled at who I could only imagine was himself, I could tell he didn't do this lightly and he looked at me apologetically as he did before explaining why.
"Mmm Shit I'm meant to call Voight and the team now that your ok... he wants to talk to you about something... Him and your boss Amelia is it?" I lowered the eyebrow I had raised as he began talking about my old boss and father figure as a reason to break our moment.
Shaking my head and letting out a groan of frustration I sighed trying to get my brain fog to lift so I could think.
"Uh Amanda and that's a way to kill the mood Jay!" I said grumbling just a little bit.
"Sorry but he said it was urgent, especially now.." He said looking apologeticly again before kissing my forehead softly.
"Okay, let's do it!" I said trying to sound enthusiastic about something that could possibly be more important than what we were just doing and covering my face as I heard Jay chuckling at me as he pulled out his phone and started looking for something on his phone.
I quickly took my phone which he had grabbed for me and brought up my boss's number and hitting call.
"Uh hey Amanada, it's Lindsey." I said as I waited for her to call as Jay grinned barely looking up from his phone as I spoke.
"Oh Erin it's so good to hear your voice, are you alright?" She asked sounding relieved.
"Yes, they managed to get both bullets out. How's Jane and the victim?One minute Sarge.." I said pausing to listen to Jay whisper "We're going to confrence Voight in to your call with Amanda, should be in about 10 minutes." He said brushing his face against mine to make sure I heard him. I nodded and returned to my call with Amanda.
"Sorry Sarge, just getting an up date from Jay my ex partner from Chicago about a confrence call with you and my old Sargent from Intellagence?" I asked hoping for some clarrification on what was going on as I moved over so Jay could be in the frame on my annoyingly small phone that I had now popped up against my jug of cold water on my table currently sitting across my bed.
"Yes we are I'm just inviting them to our conversation now!" She explained as she waited for the screens to change and I popped my phone against my glass on the table in front of us.
"Glad they got the bullets, Jane is a little banged up- a few bumps and bruises but fine so is the victim is completetly unhurt all thanks to you!" She said gratefully.
"Glad to hear it Sarge, can you let Jane know I'll give her a call tomorrow." I asked hopefully.
"Of Course, now on to a rather important bit of information, it's about what we spoke about before our last case broke Erin but before I get more into that I'll just confrence your Sargent in hold on..." I chanced a glance at Jay who was sitting next to me still and holding my hand rubbing circles with his thumb as we waited to find out what was happening and after what felt like hours I heard Amanda's voice again.
Relieved slightly I took a deep breath and tried to focus on what was about to come out now remembering what I had said to Amanda before this case and Jay and Hank turned up to help.
"Hi Sargent Voight? Amanda Carmical from New York's FBI Counter Intellegance Unit here I'm on the line with Detective Lindsey and.." She stopped unsure of who Jay actually was.
"Uh Jay Hallstead I'm a Detective in Sargent Voights Unit in Chicago Maam, I'm I mean I was Erin's I mean Detective Lindsey's old Partner." He explained clearing his throat akwardly.
I chuckeld at his akwardness in front of my boss and winked at him.
"Good to have you with us Detective Hallstead." Amanda replied acknowledging Jay breifly as we heard Hank chuckle from his end.
"Hello Sargent Carmical, it's an honor to meet you. Thank you for all your doing for Lindsey it's great to know she's in such good hands with your unit. I have my Intellagence Unit with me so we can debrief you all at once, with me are Detective's Antonio Dawson, Alivan Olinkskey, Hayley Upton, Officer's Atwater, Ruzak and Burgess and Sargent Trudy Platt." Hank said proudly as he introduced his team.
"Hey guys!" Jay and I both said together and grinning as the team greeted us back.
"Sargent Carmical as I understand it you have a situation regarding a Bunny Fletcher.." Antonio asked begrudgingly as he flipped through my mother's file.
I sighed and leant against Jay slightly trying to contol the anger I felt towards my mother as we all waited for Amanda to fill us in.
"Yes, when Detective Lindsey joined our unit from yours, there was a deal made that helped keep Miss Fletcher out of jail for Fraud and Murder." I took a deep breath and glanced at Jay wanting to see his reaction at this bombshell that was about to drop.
"However, it has been recently brought to our attention that she has vacated the apartment set up for her and has been seen around Chicago where she was expliciately told she was NOT allowed to return to, as I understand it Erin has broken contact with her since this incident and is prepared to surrender her mother to us.." Amanda said and as she did so I felt Jay move closer and rest his arm on my shoulder gently squeezing to not only acknowledge this move but comfort me in it as well.
This was a non verbal way of letting me know he was proud of me.
"Lindsey do you have anything to add?" Antonio asked before continuing knowing me too well and that such a big step they wanted to make sure it was my choice and sure enough he proved me right..
"Because from where I'm standing and I think that Sargent Voight and the rest of the unti would agree that this is a big thing for you and the last thing I want to do is make you feel like you have to do this for any reason but I just want to make sure you're 100% on board with this!" He asked me sounding slightly worried I was being pressured from somewhere for some reason unknown to me.
"Thank you Detective for your concern but this has gone on long enough, me getting my mother out of bad situations. I have been doing it all my life and I don't have the energy to do it anymore and especially now, for various personal reasons I am done with Bunny so no there is no doubt in my mind that this is what is best for everyone involved." I said subconciously placing my own hand ontop of Jay's where it was resting on my ever growing stomach.
"Alright, thank you Detective's, Sargent Voight I will send some of our people to collect Barbara Fletcher once you have her in custody I have just now sent you the warrant for her arrest, should you need anything else please do not hesitate to reach out." Amanda said determindly.
"We will, thank you Sargent Carmical. I'll be just a monent." He said and suddenly as both he and the team moved out of frame.
Placing our end on mute and turning off our video I looked at Jay suddenly needing to know how he felt but somehow already know he would be happy.
"Babe I'm so proud of you! When did you decide this?" Jay asked me leaning into kiss my forehead and rest his head on mine still holding my hand.
"Uh just before the case broke, and now I know I have made the right choice Jay, to protect our family she needs to be in jail where she can't get her hooks into anyone close to us again." I whispered as more unwanted and unshed tears fell down my face ignoring them I placed our joint hands on my stomach as I spoke.
Jay was grinning like a chesire cat when I glanced at him and I couldn't help but smile back as I leant into kiss him gently which didn't last that way and as we heard movement again on the line we reluctantly broke apart and moved away slightly from each other so we were less tempted by the prescense of each other until we were once again alone.
"Are you still there Lindsey?" Amanda asked making sure we hadn't been cut off.
"I'm here Sargents!" I said as calmly as I could as I unmuted us and put the camera back on.
"Ok good, sorry Erin, I needed to get that bit done before I share this next bit of news with you." Amanda explained as I heard Hank clear his throat on his end.
"Ok so what else are you not telling me?" I asked more directing at Hank than Amanda especially as I chanced a glance at Jay who was trying to hide a smile on his face as we both waited for this next bit of news.
There was another clearing of throats before anyone spoke
"Erin, as I understand it Sargent Voight has been working with IA on his end to clear your name and keep your job and I know that we value your work here, and that your mother remaining out of jail was a condition to you coming to work with us, and I believe Sargent Voight has managed to not only clear your name but has also managed to secure your job in his unit as well am I correct Sargent Voight?" Amanda asked Hank as my mouth flew open in suprise suddenly overwhelmed with grattitude for Hank.
"That's correct! Internal Affairs and the Ivory Tower have agreed to let Detective Lindsey return to and remain as a member of Intellagence. You're able to start back next week kiddo!" Hank said unable to keep the excitement out of his voice and a proud grin off his face.
Jay was instantly hugging me and kissing my hair as I gasped and tried to form words in my head.
"Thank you so much!" I cried clinging to Jay as I did.
"I'm so grateful to you and the team Amanda forever grateful for taking me on. It's been an honor to work with you these past few weeks." I said still clinging to Jay as I spoke.
"It will take a few days for us to get things finalised and in order here on our end but as I understand it you aren't able to leave hospital yet?" She said satisfied in my reaction and answer.
Clearing my throat a little I nodded reluctant to admit this piece of information.
"Uh yes, my blood pressure is still a bit higher than they would like given my condition they would me to remain here until the end of the week so they can continue to monitor it while I recover." I said wishing that I could disappear into the bed with slight embaressment to both of my conditions we were speaking of.
"Understandable of course, and by the way Congratulations Erin, there is nothing better than being a Mom!" Amanda said gently I chuckled wondering and almost knowing that either Olivia would have told her and Hank last night when they rung to give her an update.
"Thank you Amanda, I'm still processing it mostly because it's twins but I am happy especially that I get to do this with my amazing partner by my side." I said knowing that this comment would remain confidential.
"That's great, Congratulations Detective." Amanda said to Jay who was yet again grinning like a chesire cat.
"Yes, Congratulations Erin- Halstead!" Hank said as well.
"Thank you- both of you!" Jay managed as he pulled his face away from my shoulder where it had been sitting after my compliment about him.
"Well, if that's all Sargent, if that's all then I need to go and check in with my team. Thank you for your assistance, co operation and again for all you have done and are still doing for Lindsey." Hank said clearing his throat I could tell he was a little uncomfortable especially after what I said about Jay.
"I will keep you updated on how things go down and see you both when you get back to Chicago. I gotta go Alvin needs me. Talk soon!" Hank said hanging up and leaving us with just Amanda.
"Like wise Sargent Voight and it's been a pleasure. Good Luck!" Amanda said to Hank as he grunted his acknowledgement at something and hung up.
"Well Erin like I said I will keep you updated. You get some rest and I'll check in tomorrow." Amanda said and also hung up.
"I think Hank got a bit uncomfortable there at the end.." I said laughing as Jay let go of me and I kissed him gently.
"Yeah well you getting all mushy about me would make him uncomfortable, it's not like we've been around him much other than at work as us." He said chuckling at the image of an uncomfortable Hank sitting in his office not really able to get away.
"Alright, Enough about Hank and Work!" I said softly as I pulled him back down to me where I kissed him a little less softly this time only pulling back when I needed to breath.
"Wow!" He whispered against my lips grinning and chuckling a little bit.
Mhm. I replied grinning as I nuzzled his nose happily as I closed my eyes contentally.
I sighed kicking myself mentally as I opened my eyes again and rested my forehead against his.
Jay pressed his gently back against mine as he looked into my eyes before asking 展hat's up Er?
Reluctantly I lay back still holding his hands.
I so want to continue but not in a hospital bed Jay, I'm sorry I guess I just wanted things to stay the same way they were before all of this and just be in our own bubble but we can't Jay.. I paused tears spilling over 展e can't until we talk, not just about the babies but about everything... I cried taking a huge and steadying deep breath.
Er all I want is for us to be in that bubble you mentioned but your right, we do need to talk.. He said reluctantly pulling me closer and reaching up to place his hand on my cheek clearly feeling something he was having trouble expressing.
When I returned the action he smiled softly as he leant into my hand.
I took a deep breath before asking 展hat are-What's going on in there Babe? I asked softly trying to sound encouraging knowing by look on his face it was scaring him and that broke me so bad.
Is this all too much- too soon? I asked trying not to let the tears fall as I waited, relieved when he shook his head.
No, NEVER Baby I couldn't be more happier TRULY Erin! He said kissing my forehead as tears began falling down his face as he leaned into kiss me.
When Voight told me where we were going and why I couldn't help but pray I would get to see you again so we could talk or at least I could tell you that I'm still crazy about you and I regret walking out on you and not staying and fighting for us! He said with such passion and determination I couldn't help but chuckle a little wondering to myself knowing he probably had been rehersing that for a while.
I nodded greatfully but I couldn't help but think that maybe this wasn't it, that there was something more.
I can't tell you how relieved I am to hear that Jay, truly I am! I- I said swallowing hard as I kissed him once just as Jay's phone rang from the chair.
Dam it! Sorry Baby it might be an update from the team, they were going after her as soon as we got off the call! he explained looking apologeticly at me.
Take it! I said letting him go eager to hear from our team in Chicago and more importantly to get this dealt with so everyone could move on.
Halstead! Jay answered winking at me before I could respond there was a knock at the door.
As I looked to the door I smiled and waved the people standing there.
Amanda, Jane Hey! I said friendly despite the feeling I was getting in the pit of my stomach.
Lindsey! Amanda replied nodding as she sat down and Jane my partner moved to hug me.
As I hugged Jane back I couldn't help but notice that Jay has briefly slipped outside still on the phone as I smiled at Jane I couldn't help but feel worried something was up.
It's good to see you Jane, I'm so glad your okay! I said forcing myself to focus on Jane rather than Jay who was now pacing and holding his head. Classic signs that he was getting bad news from the team.
Me too, Thank you for having my back as always, I'm so guttered we're loosing you back to Chicago! Jane said trying not to sound grumpy.
I laughed a littl at my partner's reaction just as Jay came back in and sat on the chair opposite my boss and other partner immediately reaching for my hand. 笛ay? I asked but he shook his head and montioned to Amanda and Jane.
I sighed shaking my head a little angry before looking at the ladies on my left.
Someone PLEASE tell me what is going on? I said squeezing Jay's hand as he squeezed mine reassuringly.
Did something happen during the raid? I asked knowing this could be the ONLY reason for the reactions from them. I sighed again 妬s she? Did someone get hurt? I asked unsure on how to ask if my mother was dead or not. Amanda cleared her throat as Jane moved to sit on the bed beside me and took my hand just as Jay did the same on my other side looking at Jay breifly as he too cleared his throat.
It's going to be okay Erin! He promised reassuringly.
It became a stand-off.. Amanda explained 添our mother was high out of her mind and she shot at your team first! she continued I swallowed hard. 釘unny shot at Sargent Voight directly! Amanda said plainly.
Is Hank ok? I asked looking from Amanda to Jane before resting my eyes on Jay.
Jay nodded a small smile crossing his lips as he explained. 滴e took two in the vest and one in the shoulder! He said squeezing my hand again.
Nodding I tried to take a deep breath and let it out releived that Hank was ok.
As Voight went down though, he managed to get two shots off as the other members of the team also fired. Amanda said and I looked back to her.
Your mother as a result, was pronounced Dead shortly after CPR didn't bring her back. I nodded suddenly not wanting to picture my mother in any way so I focused on someone else more importantly.
Is Hank the only one that got shot? I asked as unwanted tears ran down my face.
Uh Olinkskey, Ruazk and Antonio caught one each in the vest but Will said they are fine! Jay said rubbing his thumb over my hand trying to reassure me as I made to open my mouth.
They will have a good bruise to show for it but that's it! He promised kissing my hand. 展ill checked them out along with Doctor Marcel. He said firmly.
Nodding I continued to try and breath when I suddenly asked 滴as anyone spoken to Teddy? I asked as Jay now moved back to sit beside me and I leant back against him for comfort as I waited for someone to answer.
Teddy is Erin's brother, he uh lives here in New York! Jay explained to Amanda and Jane who immediately nodded.
He is down as an emergency contact in my file. I said gently sniffing as I rested slightly harder against Jay.
Alright, we will reach out, do you want us to tell him or just pick him up and bring him here? Amanda asked reaching over to touch my sympathetically.
Uh no, Jay pass me your phone. I'll text him to let him know you're picking him up to bring him here. I said firmly knowing if Teddy had the FBI turn up on his doorstep he might worry more than needed and with the news I had to drop on him he needed as much of a clear head as possible.
Alright, we will go and get him and drop him off. Jane said looking to Amanda who nodded putting her phone away as they both stood and headed to the door. Amanda paused as they reached the door moving slightly to let a nurse come through Amanda spoke trying to give words of comfort while still trying to remain my boss.
Once you are discharged, we will need you or Teddy to formely identify your mother and make any arrangements. Thank you Detective's and I'm sorry for your loss Lindsey we will keep in touch! She said giving us a small smile which I returned as calmly as I could suddenly feeling like I was about to break down fighting to breathe.
As the nurse did my blood pressure and gave my my anti nausea I shook my head still trying to get a good solid gulp of air in my lungs just as I manged one or two Jay kissed my head gently. I'm sorry Baby but I shook my head refusing to feel anything for my mother after all she had put me through.
She dug her own grave Jay, shooting at cops! She always hated Hank so I'm not surprised she aimed at him mainly and in so many ways I'm also glad it was him and not me that took her out! I said feeling a huge weight off my shoulders as I continued 的'm more relieved than anything I mean we're finally free of her me and Teddy are free from her crap! I managed to whisper but unfortuately this was too much for my body to handle and I began hyperventilating.
Panicking slightly I clung to Jay trying to slow my breathing down just as Jay was trying to help me. 滴ey Erin, look at me Honey that's it, in and out Er good! He whispered in my ear rubbing my back as he said something to someone behind us.
Babe, they're going to give you something to help calm you down.. He said still rubbing my back and holding me tightly kissing my head as he did. I Immediately shook my head not wanting any medication that could harm our children.
I know Baby, but this is not good for you OR our babies okay. He said now moving so he could cup my face and look at me.
Closing my eyes tightly I cried against him for a monent before noddding reluctantly knowing he was right and as I did I immediately felt a mask being placed on my face and another pair of hands along with Jay's helped me to lye back. As I let all this happen I reached out for Jay not wanting to be away from him right now.
I'm right here Baby the nurses are just getting Doctor Montgumery so she can give you something that will help ok. I'm not going anywhere I promise! He said scrunching his eyes shut as he kissed my head again and again.
Erin, it's Doctor Montgumery I'm going to give you something to help you calm down okay, it's completely safe for the babies ok it will help you rest ok sweetie! That's it good job! She said as I felt my arm that had the IV in it move slightly and something cold going through it.
Still trying to cling to Jay I suddenly began to feel like I could breath again but was feeling extremely sleepy in the process.
Jay.. I whispered softly as my I let my eyes reluctantly close.
I'm right here Er, I'm right here. He said kissing my forehead again just as sleep began to take me I heard him ask something and say 典hank you in response but before I could ask I was consumed by sleep.