Chapter 19

Warning Mature Content*

The first place she checked was his study, but he wasn't there. Rin guessed he wasn't going to be for the rest of that day. Rin was upset beyond belief at the fight, the fact that his own mother attacked him, set her off.

Rin didn't want to interfere, but she wouldn't let her get in another strike. It was horridly unfair, Inukimi had to have known Sesshomaru wouldn't strike back, and she went after him anyways.

Rin made her way to his bedroom hoping to find him in there. Rin opened the door and didn't see him, but the balcony door was wide open.

With cautious steps she walked over that way and saw him sitting in the same chair as the other night. Eyes closes with one of his tobacco sticks between his fingers, he still had a blood trail under his nose and some on his white kimono.

Rin went back inside looking for something to wash it off but couldn't find anything. In haste she opened a door, thinking it was a closet but instead found a luxurious washroom.

Mentally, she cataloged that for a later date. To her left she saw a washcloth and bent down to the water, soaking it. She wrung it out before exiting the room and headed back out towards the balcony.

Sesshomaru didn't acknowledge her or send her away, so she made her way over to the volatile Lord and held up the washcloth.

He didn't acknowledge that either and brought the tobacco stick back to his lips. Frustrated Rin stepped between his legs and grabbed the stick from between his lips, roughly throwing it over the balcony ledge.

That seemed to get his attention as glanced up at her face with calm eyes and leaned back to address her.

"Your eyes are black." he stated.

Rin felt her eye twitch, "I imagine they are my Lord."

He said nothing and she brought up the washcloth, again he said nothing. Sesshomaru didn't even bother to look at it, only kept his golden eyes on her.

Rin sighed and with a hint of doubt, placed her cool hand on his cheek and began to clean the blood from his face.

Faintly, she saw his eyes go wider with her brazen action, but she paid it no mind, continuing with the task at hand. When one of her fingers grazed his soft lips, he nipped lightly at her. Rin followed his earlier action and ignored him as she worked.

Once done, she tilted his chin up to make sure she got all the blood and once satified she nodded.

"Better." she said before dropping the bloody cloth on the table and sitting down in the chair opposite of him.

They sat in silence and Rin was still livid from earlier events and starred down at her lap as more angry thoughts bubbled to the surface of her mind.

"Speak." he said tersely.

Rin's head shot up to look at him.

Sesshomaru glanced at her, "I can feel your thought running wild in your head. So, speak Rin."

"I don't like your mother." she hissed.

Sesshomaru nodded, "I don't either."

"She's crazy!" Rin remarked.

Sesshomaru nodded again, "Yes."

"And I'm sorry." Rin said quietly and looked back down at her lap.

Sesshomaru 'tsk', "Whatever for."

"I got involved in your business. I threatened and almost fought your mother." Rin replied angrily.

"I would've liked to see that." he said honestly.

"I-I…" Rin stuttered out aimlessly.

Rin straightened her spine out and looked him in the eyes, "I thought you'd be angry."

Sesshomaru looked at her earnestly, "I am but not at you. You seem angrier than I do."

Rin huffed at him, "And that more concerning! How often does this happen for you to be so unfazed by it?"

Rin continued, "I'm angry because your own mother tackled you, struck you, more than once! You didn't strike her back either, she knew this and still went after you. Made you bleed. I'm upset because I didn't make her bleed!"

The demon Lord made a face, "Why didn't you?"

Rin breathing was erratic just thinking about, "I would've if Juuki didn't grab her. I probably would kill her. Why didn't you?"

He gave her a grave look, "Because I promised my father I wouldn't kill her."

Rin looked at him in confusion, "Technically you wouldn't have to kill her."

Sesshomaru muttered, "…I would've. That why I did nothing but restrain her because I know my limits."

A look of understanding passed over her, Rin couldn't honestly say if she'd fought Inukimi she'd let her go alive and perhaps he was the same. It bothered her that his father would make him promise not to kill his mother when she's so abusive. Toga had to of known this to ask Sesshomaru to make that promise to him.

Rin crossed her arms and looked to the side, "Well I didn't promise that."

Sesshomaru smiled and chuckled at her, Rin was just grateful he seemed in better spirits.

"Will she be back?" Rin asks icily.

"Yes, Tomorrow," he responded.

Rin ran a hand through her long hair and sighed deeply.

Rin woke up with a start and couldn't see anything, she reached out her hand blindly and felt another body next to hers. Sesshomaru's golden eyes opened and sat up quickly, Rin placed a hand on his chest and blushed upon realizing his top was open.

Rin's hand was flush with his muscled chest and felt something in her stomach at the contact but didn't pull away. Lightly, she added pressure to push him back down and he complied, bringing his hand over hers.

Acutely, aware of his eyes on her, Rin mumbled out a 'I'm sorry.'

Using her hand, he pulled her to him causing her other hand to connect with his bare chest too, she steadied herself

"What's wrong"

"Nothi-I Just woke up quickly-" She muttered.

"Rin," He tightened his hold on her hand, "I hear your heartbeat. What is wrong?"

The nightmare is still fresh in her mind as she begins to panic, breathing heavily with her eyes shut tightly. Trying desperately to will herself to calm down as tears began collecting in her eyes.

"Show no weakness girl."

"Hit harder"

"Stop crying!"

"Kill HIM!"

Blood, more blood, so much blood. Some her own.

"Stop it." she muttered to herself, losing sense of where she was.

Sesshomaru sat up as she began to mutter incoherently. Feeling her tears as he grabbed her face.

"Rin." he said with worry. Yet, it was as if she couldn't hear him anymore. Muttering and crying to herself, Sesshomaru lifted her up onto his lap and put her face to his neck. Lacing his finger into her silky hair at the base of her neck.

Leaning close to her ear and whispering softly, "Rin, you're not there anymore. You are here with me. Come back to me Rin."

A pained sound left her lips, and he rocked her slightly, "I'm here Rin, come back now."

Sesshomaru continued to mutter these words to her until she gradually calmed down from her induced panic.

Sesshomaru kept his hand wrapped in her hair, the other wrapped around her hips. Continuously rubbing soft circles on the exposed skin there.

Slowly, he felt her pull back slightly and look up at his eyes with her own glassy ones.

Rin reached up her small, shaking hands and touched his cheeks to ensure he was actually there.

"I thought I'd lost you again." her voice said shakily.

Rin jumped up unexpectedly and connected her lips to his, Sesshomaru made a sound surprise but didn't push her away from him.

When the small kiss ended, she still gazed up at him lovingly, "I was so worried I wouldn't see you again."

Sesshomaru bit his bottom lip tightly as she brought her nose up to caress his.

To be Continued...