Chapter Twenty Six
My fingers were aggressively moving as I sat with the yarn to my side and hook in my hand. The mess of yarn was looking like a blanket. I tried to keep my hands busy to distract myself. My mind stayed fierce as the baby bounced in my belly. My anger was harsh and openly attacking anything or anyone.
Refusing to answer calls or texts, and shutting Jason out. I've spent the past 3 weeks cooped up in my home with nothing more than my thoughts. The voice in my head screamed at me, on how stupid I was. How I should have never fallen in love with Richard Grayson. It also screamed at me for how much I can't stand Jason Todd for making me fall in love with him and then the path after.
My little Junie, had been steering clear from me as well. I suppose my aura is anger. Anger is all I felt. Anger at myself. At Dick. At Jason. At the stupid YouTube lady for teaching me how to crochet, so I could do something with my hands. "Fuck" I stood up storming into the bathroom to Pee for the 5th time in the last hour.
Stepping over the mess of my home, I glare at Dicks stack of boxes next to the front door. Oh how I hope he gets his shit while I'm asleep. I don't think I could even look at him right now. A knock on my door grabs my attention. Well, can't be Jason, he would just walk in. Going to the door I feel a sense of home as the cybernetic human stands on the other side. I bet Jason called him though. I roll my eyes, ignoring the door as he knocks again. I sit on the couch looking to Junie on the other side of the couch.
"I know you're home." He yells
"Doesn't mean I have to talk to him." I whisper to Junie.
"Either open the door, or I'm busting it down." He yells louder.
"Bet he won't." I smile at Junie grabbing a Cheeto and popping it into my mouth.
My house was usually kept clean, but it my recent moods, the place had became a mess. Empty dishes, and trash scattered on my coffee table and kitchen counters. Laundry thrown on the floor undone. I can't even tell you the last time I made my bed. It's been 4 days since I had a shower, but I'll do it tonight.
"Rachel!" He yells annoyed. Suddenly the door comes inward. I turn sharply as a scorch mark is on my door. I glare as he walks in. "Hey, I warned you." He crossed his arms.
"You're going to fix that." I point with a Cheeto in my hand
"Of course." He huffs, "I wouldn't have tore it down, had you opened the door."
"Didn't want company." I turn away looking at the ending credits of the stupid movie I half heartedly watched.
"Well you need it." He lofts the door up, quickly putting it back in place.
"Nope." I sit a hand on my bump
as the baby kicks hard.
"What happened to this place?" He looks around the mess.
"Just go home." I grumble as I close my eyes leaning back on the couch.
"Well it's been 7 weeks since Your last check up." He sighs, "I need to make sure they're okay."
"They're kicking the hell out of me." I sigh. "It's fine."
"No it's not." He sighs. "That 18 week ultrasound you missed was important to make sure it's growing fine."
"I'll reschedule it." I groan.
"I brought the portable with me." He says slyly.
"I don't want you to touch me right now." I glare at him, "I haven't showered and I feel gross."
"Then go shower." He smiles crossing his arms.
"I don't want to." I roll my eyes and look at the TV.
"What happened." He walks closer to me.
"Nothing." I grumble.
"Something." He huffs, "I can't get you to answer the phone, or Dick. I had to call fucking Jason. And the ass just told me to come see you."
"Oh so that's why you're here?" I whip my head around fast glaring.
Standing I storm to the balcony, looking at the newly installed spiral staircase. Storming up them I watch as Cyborg follows out onto the Balcony in confusion.
Making it to his patio I open the sliding door.
"Jason!" I scream as I look around his bachelor pad. It's set up like mine. The large dinning room table is a pool table and the TV displays multiple camera screens. I hear him grumble in one of the spare rooms. I follow the noise and walk to the open door. Stumbling into the room my anger pauses as I see the man in just jeans, painting. His muscular chest is exposed with a few slabs of paint. Holy shit, did I just now realize how much of a brick shit house he is?
"What's up dark girl?" He looks annoyed, "come to ignore me some more?"
"You told him to come here?" I cross my arms looking over the room.
"Yup" he places the paint brush to the wall. I look at the drop cloths on the floor and see the object in the middle of the floor. The dark brown crib sits with a plastic sheet over it. "Someone has to get through to you, and obviously it's not me."
"Get through to me for what?" I cross my arms as I see Cyborg enter the balcony door.
"To get your shit together Rach." He turns sharply. "To get you out of your fucking pitty party."
"I'm not throwing a pity party!" I retort.
"Refusing to talk to anyone, not taking care of yourself. Sounds like a fucking pity party. Oh boo-hoo he broke up with you. That doesn't stop the baby growing inside of you." He yells sitting his paint down.
Something in me snaps and I can barely contain myself. My temper flares and I lunge for Jason. My fist hits his face so hard as I go to kick him in the groin he blocks me. Quickly he grabs my wrist turning my body into his. I stand with my back against his bare chest. I huff as he holds both of my wrists.
"Raven!" Cyborg yells as he makes it to the door way.
"Quit being a brat." Jason mumbles in my ear as I struggle to loosen my wrists.
"Fuck off." I throw my head back catching him in the mouth. He grumbles as his grip loosens on my wrist. I get free and go to move but trip over a paint can. Falling flat on my back, next to the crib, on a mattress covered in plastic. I look up as Jason covers his mouth.
"Shit." He grumbles, "you okay?"
"No." I look up at him sighing.
"Why do you have a crib?" Cyborg blurts out.
"Why wouldn't he have a crib?" I sit up slowly as Jason takes my hand, helping me up. "I don't even have a crib yet." I sigh. "Let me see your mouth.
"It's fine." He smiles softly. "I'll get you a crib when you tell me what you want."
"I'm so confused." Cyborg crosses his arms.
"Aren't we all." I sigh.
"We're not going to live together to raise the baby." Jason looks to him, "so I'm upstairs and the baby will go back and forth."
"Why would you be raising Dick's baby?" He blurts out.
Jason and I both jerk our heads up and then look at each other. "What?" I look back at Cyborg.
"I ran the DNA through multiple systems, including Batman's. It's Dicks baby. I just wanted to be 100% sure." He looks at both of us. "When you said you already knew, I didn't know you thought it was Jason's."
"Bruce ran it through." I mumble in confusion.
"It's not mine?" Jason looks shaken.
"No, I'm sorry." Cyborg looks sympathetic.
My eyes gaze over to Jason's as I feel his heart break. His pain radiates to me. "Let's go see Bruce." I mumble walking out of the room.
"Shower first." Jason says as he follows me out, "you stink."
"Okay." I rush out the door and down to my home. Walking in Junie watches me rush to my bedroom. Quickly grabbing a handful of clothes, I throw them into the laundry basket and start my shower. Stripping down I hop in and start to scrub the grime from my scalp and skin.
How the hell could this of happened? How could the Bat cave computer say Jason? My head swirls with emotions both mine and Jason's. Quickly it becomes overwhelming and I stop mid shower to puke in the toilet. What the fuck. This feeling was so overwhelming and heart wrenching. Finishing my shower the nausea holds still as I wrap myself in a towel. Walking into the bedroom Jason stands at my large window looking out.
"Did you puke?" He turns slightly.
"Yeah, I feel like I could again." I groan as I grab a pair of leggings and a tee out of my closet.
"I'm sorry, I'll try to keep my emotions in check." He sighs as I dress.
"How the hell could this have happened?" I sit on the bed pulling my socks on.
"No idea." he runs his hand over his face. "I'm still always going to be here for both of you, you know that right?"
"Yeah." I smile. I stand and walk to him. I lean in hugging him. He accepts my embrace pulling me in. The baby kicks hard and Jason freezes. "Did you feel that?"
"Yeah." He squeezes me tighter. I feel his body relax as he holds me. "You've scared the hell out of me lately."
"I'm angry." I sigh, "he fucking broke me." I release Jason. "And the bad part is, he fucking acted upset about it."
"I still feel like something isn't right." He sighs, "it's unlike him."
"No matter what, Dick wouldn't have ended things with me if he didn't want to." I cross my arms
"You gonna cal him and tell him the news?" He swallows.
"Fuck no." I fold my arms, "I don't want to fucking see him. He doesn't get to come back just because it's his."
"I can't believe it's not mine." He mumbles visibly upset.
"You would have been a great dad, Jason." I look down. "I'm so sorry. Now both of you have went through this awful pain and it's all my fault."
Jason nods. "Let's go see Bruce."
Walking out we are greeted with Cyborgs computer set up. He steps back and points to the computer showing us the results he got ran from multiple sources. Jason sighs shaking his head at the screen. "I don't need to see Bruce. Can I do your scan before you go?" Cyborg stiffens.
"Yeah, since I couldn't go to the watch tower. I'd love to see them." Jason smiles. "My uh niece or nephew." He strains saying it.
"Can I not just reschedule." I roll my eyes.
"No." They both say in unison.
"Fine." I grumble as I lay on the couch. Jason smirks as I lift my shirt up revealing my round belly. "Let's get this over with."
"You sound so enthused." Jason shakes his head with a smile.
The gel is cold on my belly as Cyborg spreads the wand across it. Flicking on the screen all three of us watch it. I watch as the static clears and I see it. The tiny hands and arms moving. The little head and body, swimming in my womb. Suddenly I feel a flicker. I've been so caught up in everything, I haven't focused on what life will be after this pregnancy. A light smile plays on my face as I see them. As I fall in love with them. My baby girl.
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