I'm a couple of chapters ahead with writing this now so hopefully it won't take long between uploads now.
"Come on Jayme you've got this" Adam encouraged as I stood on the top rope, we'd been playing around in the ring for a month meeting most days to practice. Today we had arrived, and Adam had sprung it on me that he wanted me to try and do a few things on the top rope. My confidence had grown and my fitness along with it, we had spent a lot of time together and fast become good friends, so I trusted him not to let me get hurt. I stood straight and launched myself towards Adam stretching myself out before he caught me mid-air. "That was great" He beamed placing me on my feet.
"Thanks" I grinned up at him. I'd been smiling a lot more recently and as days went by I felt myself healing a little more, I was sleeping better now and the heavy feeling in my chest had lifted, for the most part. I still thought about Gavin and wanted him back, but I had finally come to terms with the fact that what I was doing was for the best "I really enjoy doing this" I told him taking a sip of water.
"You're really good actually" He laughed taking the water from me and having a sip himself "You pick things up real quick."
"There's something about it you know" I shrugged laying down in the centre of the ring "Like I can be someone else when I am in the ring…I don't have to be Jayme the hopeless heartbroken girl with no future" I told him as I played with my wedding ring, despite all of the progress I had made I still wasn't ready to let go.
"Yeah, I get that" He nodded as he lay next to me "Edge is this arsehole guy that does whatever he wants and gets whatever he wants" His smile was huge as he spoke about his wrestling persona "He's the complete opposite of me" he added.
"Do you miss it?" I asked.
"Yeah…It was my life for a long time" He looked lost in thought as he spoke "I've been thinking about speaking to some doctors and seeing if I can go back in any capacity" my stomach dropped as I pieced together what he might be saying.
"So, you'd be gone" I took a breath. The thought of having to do this without Adam was a lot to digest I'd learnt to depend on him a lot and the fact that I might have to try and continue rebuilding my life without Adam by my side. He was my best friend.
"Yeah…I guess" He told me "I'd be back when I'm not working though" He added "This is my home and I want to be here as much as possible" he turned to look at me.
"Right…" I swallowed the lump in my throat trying not to show my upset.
"Hey, are you ok?" he asked concern etched across his face.
"I'm fine" I said sitting up "Come on we should go Katrina wanted me to start looking for jobs today" I told him rolling out of the ring.
"Jayme, are you sure you're ok?" He asked again rolling out after me.
"Of course I am" I plastered a smile across my face "I hope you can go back to doing what you love" I said giving him a quick hug. I grabbed my bag and started walking back to the truck Adam followed me silently and jumped into the drivers' side.
"Ok Jayme there's something not right" Adam shook his head has he spoke "What's going on?"
"Adam seriously there's nothing wrong" I sighed, he shook his head in response and began driving.
"This is about me going back to the WWE isn't it?" He finally said as he pulled up outside the house.
"Adam" I exhaled "I have known you a little over a month I have no business having an opinion on this" I smiled at him.
"I value your opinion Jayme" he stated.
"I appreciate that" I spoke before exiting the truck and going into the house without so much as a glance behind me. A few moments later I heard Adam pull away.
"Hello sweetheart, how was your morning?" Katrina asked as she exited the living room.
"Yeah good" I nodded leaping up the stairs missing every other step. I had a shower and changed into a pair of black tracksuit bottoms and a black vest top.
"I wanted to talk to you about something Jayme" Katrina told me as she sliced vegetables for dinner.
"What's up?" I asked taking a seat at the breakfast bar.
"I have a friend in marketing" She turned to face me "He has said he can offer you a job at the company he works for" She told me with a smile, I sat for a while mulling over the news, it was definitely another step in the right direction for me, I couldn't stay out of work forever but was this what I wanted? "Jayme? This is a good thing" she assured me.
"Yeah I know" I smiled. I sat for a moment convincing myself that this would be a good thing, getting a job was a good next step in piecing things back together and if Adam was going to be gone soon then I needed to start thinking about life without having him around almost every day.
"Great, you start on Monday" She beamed turning back to preparing dinner.
"Wait did you already accept the offer for me?" I asked.
"Love, you need to work and get back into adult life…you've moped for long enough now" She told me.
"Still…I'd have liked some input" I mumbled walking out of the kitchen.
"Darling, please don't make a thing of this" She huffed. I took a deep breath and turned back to Katrina.
"Thank you for getting me a job" I said before going to sit with my uncle John in the living room. I plopped down into the armchair across the room from John who was sat reading a newspaper, his glasses placed on the end of his nose.
"I take it your aunt has told you the news" He said non-chalantly without lifting his gaze from the page.
"Yep" I grumbled twisting my wedding ring around my finger.
"Are you not happy?" He asked.
"Of course I am" I mumbled.
"Then what?" He asked.
"Adam is thinking about going back to wrestling" I told him "He wants to go to see a doctor and see if there's anything they can do for him" I explained.
"Oh…And that's a bad thing?" He finally took his gaze from the page and looked at me.
"No…Well yeah…No" I stumbled rubbing my face "I have no idea" I sighed.
"You'll miss him" He stated.
"I guess" I shrugged again twisting my ring.
"Tell me something Jayme" He sat forward folded his newspaper and placed it on the coffee table in front of him "What did you expect from him?" He asked. "Did you expect him to stay by your side forever and not go anywhere?" He added.
"I don't know what I expected" I groaned "I guess I didn't think about him going anywhere"
"Jayme, Adam is great but this isn't how it works" his stare was firm "he has a life and so do you, you're rebuilding everything and I am happy that you have connected with Adam and become such good friends with him but you need to move on from this now. He has a life outside of you and now you need to get a life outside of him. This job will be a good thing for you" I knew he was right but Adam was my best friend he had brought me most of the way out of a dark hole I had been in, he'd given me something to focus on and enjoy with wrestling. Now I guess it was up to me to climb the rest of the way out of that hole. "Does Adam know you're upset?"
"Yeah"
"Right…then I suggest you go and reassure him that whatever happens you're still friends" I huffed as I slumped down in the armchair I was currently sitting in. John picked up his paper and resumed reading. "GO Jay Jay" He commanded, I sat for a moment thinking about my next step.
I took a deep breath as I walked up the driveway to Adam's house trying to think about what I would say to him, I felt stupid for how I had reacted to the news Adam wanted to go back to wrestling, what if he thought it was weird? I stood at his front door took one more deep breath and gave it a quick knock.
"Jayme?" He said, confusion written across his face as he saw me standing there.
"Hi…Look" I sighed "I'm sorry for…" I started before being interrupted.
"Who's that at the door?" Came a female voice. I took a step back "Hi" A well-built beautiful blonde woman smiled as she came to the door "You must be Jayme…Adam has told me so much about you" she beamed bringing me in to a hug.
"Jayme this is Beth" Adam told me "She used to wrestle with me" He added.
"We did a little more than just wrestle together" She giggled giving his arm a nudge.
"I…umm…yeah...Hi" I nodded looking at Adam who was currently looking awkwardly down at his feet "Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt" I shook my head before turning away from the house.
"Hey Jayme" Adam called walking after me "What was you saying?" He asked turning me to face him.
"I just wanted to apologise for the way I acted earlier" I told him "I guess I just panicked at thought of not having you here…but I'll be fine you have a life away from here and I wouldn't want to get in the way of that…I'm happy for you" I told him, but the truth was I felt as if I had punched in the gut and had all the wind taking out of me. I didn't want him to go anywhere and I certainly didn't want another woman coming in and taking him from me. I knew it was a selfish way to think but he was my best friend, and I couldn't bare thought of him being gone.
"Look Beth is…" he began.
"Hey, Adam it's none of my business who you sleep with" I tried to smile "I should go anyway, my aunt has got me a job and I start on Monday" I added "Best be able to afford that phone soon if you're going to be gone…no one gets rid of me that easily" I added before turning and making my way back to Katrina's and John's.
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