I've got a busy weekend ahead with work so theres a good chance I wont be updating until at least Monday and then I'm in to my last week at this job so will have some time to write before starting my new one.

I groaned as I slowly came around to consciousness, my mouth was drier than the Sahara desert, my head pounded like someone repeatedly hit it with a bat, it was still dark out so must have been early. I tried to sit up but something…or someone's arm was over me almost pinning me down with the sheer weight of it. I blinked trying to get my bearings and remember what had happened last night, the person behind me pulled me closer to them tightening their grip. I took a deep breath, I knew that scent anywhere, it was Adam. The memories of the night before came flooding back, Tequila, Gavin turning up, Adam punching him and then his gentle touch, the feel of his hands on my body. I blinked hard trying to clear my vision and found a bottle of water and two pain killers sat on the bed side table, I sat up freeing myself of Adams tight grip and sipping the water alongside the pills.

"How's your head?" Adam asked sleepily sitting up behind me.

"Like a trains hit it" I replied rubbing my temples "Thanks for the pain killers and water" I smiled weakly at him.

"Thought you might need them when you woke up" He chuckled examining his hand that he had use to punch Gavin.

"Is it ok?" I asked taking it in mine to have a look, there was a little bit of bruising but other than that there wasn't much to imply any damage had been done.

"Yeah…Just bruised" He said flexing it out "How are you feeling about everything?"

"I think I'm ready to let him go" I admitted, and for the first time I didn't feel like crying over Gavin, I was hurt but I knew I only missed the idea of the future I wanted with Gavin, not the relationship and future we would have had. Through all of the confusion regarding Adam he had really shown me how two people could connect and enjoy each other's company without there being more to it than that. That was until he kissed me and he had become my all-consuming thought and just when I thought I had got past it last night had happened and I knew I was falling in to a hole I would struggle to get back out of.

"Proud of you" He said pulling me close to him and kissing the top of my head.

"Adam…" I began before he interrupted me.

"Yeah I know" He whispered, I didn't even have to say it for him to know where the conversation was heading "My heads frazzled" He rubbed his face with his hands pulling his hair back as he turned to look at me even in the dark I could his stern facial expression, my stomach twisted in knots.

"You're head's frazzled?" I chuckled in disbelief "You're the one who keeps making the first move" I pointed out "What happened to friends?" I asked.

"I never made a secret out of the fact I was attracted to you" He responded with a smirk, my stomach flipped in nervousness as he said the words "You're the one who has never overstepped the boundary"

"You always made it clear that that's all it was and that we were friends Adam…You laid out the boundary yourself" I spoke "You the smashed that same boundary down 5 days ago when you kissed me and then again last night" As I spoke I could feel Adam creeping closer to me in the darkness, our foreheads were now together as he placed a hand on the back of my neck, all I had to do was move my head up ever so slightly and we would be kissing again. Our noses brushed as we both moved, my head was lost in thought as our breathing became laboured.

"I'm still with Beth" He sighed letting go of my neck and placing his head on my shoulder.

"Yeah…I guess you figured out the things you needed to" I looked down at him as I picked at my nails nervously it hurt knowing that given the choice Adam hadn't chosen me, but how could I blame him? Beth was blonde and beautiful and despite the fact Adam had said he was attracted to me I knew that compared to Beth I didn't even come close.

"we'll talk about it another time….You should sleep off this hangover" He said pulling me to lay down next time, my head on his shoulder, his hand resting on the small of my back.

"Christ" Isabelle said a stunned look on her face as she sat opposite me. We had decided to grab lunch together during our break from work, ever since the night out we had become good friends and I felt as though I was able to confide in her a little. I had just finished telling her about everything that had happened between me and Adam. "Sounds like he's got it bad for you girl" She said eating a mouthful of noodles.

"Don't be stupid" I said brushing it off.

"Jesus Jayme guys don't just randomly go around kissing girls that they don't like" She said "Or groping them for that matter" she added.

"Yeah, you might want to tell my ex-husband that" I joked with a small chuckle.

"Have you spoken to Adam since you were drunk?" She asked. I shook my head in answer. In truth I had text him a couple of times, but he had never answered, when I woke up he was gone and when I went to his house he wasn't there. It had now been over a week, and I couldn't help but wonder where he was and what he was thinking. "Well, you guys obviously have a lot to talk about, but he definitely owes you a good explanation for kissing you like that and then completely ghosting you"

"I'm pissed at him to be honest" I told her pushing my sandwich away "I knew I kinda liked him more than I should a good friend, but I was completely ok with the way our friendship was and now he's thrown a spanner in the works" I sighed.

"Hey…" She laughed "Friends don't cuddle in bed together Jay" she told me as we walked back into the office.

"HI Jay, a guy came and dropped this off for you" Jason one of the guys who worked in the same office as me said handing me a small box from a local donut shop with a note attached to the top.

Jay,

Please let me apologise for the way I have behaved.

I'll pick you up from work tonight.

Enjoy these donuts until then

I never got to show you my favourite donut place

Adam xx

"Just friends?" She asked opening the box and picking a donut out of the 6 that were in there.

"Yeah…Just friends" I muttered to myself as I sat down and got back to work with a donut. I tried not to dwell on the fact I was seeing Adam for the first time sober since we had kissed but my brain couldn't help but keep going back there. I was grateful for the lift if anything as I hadn't been able to use Katrina and Johns spare car for the past few days as they both needed vehicles.

"So where's your head at?" Isabelle asked after a few moments of silence.

"Space" I sighed eating the last of the donut I had chosen "I still love Gavin but Adam is just there in my head…when I first moved here it was to get over Gavin not meet anyone else"

"Sometimes the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else" She winked.

"I hardly think that's helpful" I laughed "Besides, I'm the last person he would be interested in…you haven't seen his girlfriend…I'm not his type"

"Jay…he kissed you…you're SO his type" I blushed at the reminder of our kiss, in all honesty I hadn't stopped thinking about it since and the way his hands felt as they ran over my sides the night I was drunk.

"Hi" I said getting into Adams' truck.

"Hey" He replied awkwardly.

"Where are we going?" I asked as he pulled off.

"The gym"

"Really? That's your idea of an apology?" I asked in utter shock "I don't even have my gym stuff"

"Yeah" He nodded "Just wait" He told me "I grabbed your stuff from the house your aunt was very happy to see me as usual" He joked as he stopped the truck, it was no secret that Katrina loved Adam. Adam went to get out but I leant over and shut the door stopping him from exiting the vehicle.

"No" I snapped "You owe me an explanation" I told him.

"Yeah…I do" He sighed rubbing the back of his neck "I went to see my old boss Vince"

"You kissed me…" I whispered.

"Yeah…I shouldn't have done that" He admitted "You're dealing with a lot right now and the last thing you need is for me to throw any more confusion in to the mix" I felt my stomach drop a little in disappointment, despite my confusion about what had happened and how I still felt about Gavin I knew Adam was right. I just couldn't get my head around how just over a week ago he was kissing me in a way I had never been kissed before and now it was as if it was nothing. It certainly didn't feel like nothing.

"I've missed you" I sighed looking over at him.

"I've missed you to" He smiled "Now get out and give me a hug" We both laughed as we got out and shared a tight embrace, I nuzzled in his neck as he held the small of my back and buried his face into my hair. "Come on let's go in" He winked pulling away.

I stepped into the ring as I had done a few times with Adam now, it had been a while since the last time to between Gavin turning up and the kiss we hadn't had time to be at the gym together. I began stretching as I waited for Adam to get changed and join me.

"Present for you" He smiled handing me a box "This was the real apology" He chuckled stretching with me. I stopped and grabbed the box from him.

"You didn't have to" I told him sitting on the floor and slowly lifting the lid "Oh shit…" I said in surprise "You really didn't need to do that" I said pulling a pair of knee-high purple wrestling boots out of the box, Adam hadn't let up about how good he thought I was at wrestling and that he thought it was something I should pursue.

"I leave in a week" He announced. My stomach sank in disappointment.

"That soon?" I asked looking up at him with sad eyes as I laced up the boots.

"Yeah I'm making a big return on RAW in two weeks" He explained "I'll be away until after new year" He announced.

"Oh…" I uttered looking down at my new boots. With Christmas only a couple of weeks away I thought he would at least be around for the holidays it was my birthday soon to and I'd hoped we could do something to take my mind off of the fact it was my first in a long time without Gavin by my side.

"Come with me?" He asked "You could be great Jay" He told me his beautiful green eyes full of hope.

"I…I…I can't….I have to work" I pointed out as I stood up.

"Quit Jay…come on you hate that job anyway"

"That's not how these things work Adam" I told him "I am trying to save to buy my own place, and do you really think my aunt Katrina is going to allow this? I might be old enough to make my own decisions but it's really not going to go down well with her"

"Please just tell me you'll think about it" He asked placing his hands on my face "I'd miss you too much"

"Adam" I cleared my throat and took one step back "You said you didn't want to throw any more confusion in to mix right now but that's exactly what you're doing" I took a deep breath before continuing "I'm really confused right now" I felt proud as I spoke up for myself if Adam didn't want to confuse me he was doing a really crappy job of it and he needed to know.

"Ok…" He stuttered "Here's the thing…You know I think you're beautiful, but this just wouldn't work" He said gesturing towards us both "I think we both know that…I think we are probably better off as friends"

"Yeah" I nodded my heart broke as I did but I knew he was right, there was a 20-year age difference between us and realistically what would a guy like Adam want with a girl like me? Especially when he had someone like Beth wanting to be with him.

"Great" He grinned that signature beautiful grin "Now the boots aren't the real reason I brought you here Jay" He gestured behind me towards the entrance to the room, I spun round and looked at the big buy walking towards the ring wearing a tight-fitting suit. He had a shaved head and a light brown beard.

"Hi…Paul Levesque" He smiled climbing into the ring and shaking my hand.

"Hello?"

"Paul, how are you?" Adam asked shaking his hand. The two stood making idle chit chat for a while as if I wasn't even in the room, I stood watching them as they caught up completely confused as to why this guy I had never met before was here and why Adam thought me meeting him would be a great way for him to apologise.

"So…Adam tells me you've got great talent" Paul said turning to face me again. I stood rooted to the spot unable to answer his statement, what was going on?

"Jay, this is Paul" Adam told me "He is possibly one of the best wrestlers of all time and he now helps run the WWE…I asked him to come in whilst in the area to see what you can do"

"R…Right…" I stammered, my mouth suddenly bone dry.

"I think you'll be great in the WWE and it's not like you're happy in your job" Adam explained, I stood stunned for a moment before shaking my head.

"I really don't think that's true" I stuttered "Besides I definitely couldn't be Infront of that many people" I said horror coming over me as I thought about how many people would be watching me.

"Let's just see what you can do before we panic about any of that" Paul nodded stepping out of the ring and proceeding to wait expectantly.

"Adam what have you done" I said to him through gritted teeth.

"Trust me" He smiled his signature grin which always reassured me.

"Fine" I conceded as we proceeded to do exactly what we had over the past few months together, after a minute or so I completely forgot that Paul was even in the room never mind watching us wrestle. I made my way to the top rope and steadied myself, Adams eyes glittered with delight as he watched. I stood up straight and launched myself across the ring at Adam but as he caught me mid-air, he lost his footing slightly and we both fell to the matt in a pile.

"Shit" He snapped "Are you ok? I'm so sorry" He said sitting up concern and panic written across his face.

"You dick" I said as I began to laugh, as soon as Adam see I was unhurt he began to laugh to, we both sat laughing over what had just happened for a moment before I playfully slapped his shoulder. Without missing a beat Adam grabbed my wrist and flipped me over on to the matt so I was laying down with him hovering over me, his face inches from my own.

"1…2…3" He whispered, his eyes flickering to my lips as he counted "I win" He winked. Ahem Paul cleared his throat to remind us he was there; we both snapped our heads round suddenly remembering his presence.

"She can start training in the new year" He nodded before turning to leave "But leave the sexual tension behind yeah? The last thing we need is drama between Divas" He said without even turning to look at us.

"We're just friends" Adam snapped looking frustrated.

"Doesn't look like it to me" Paul shouted back before leaving the room completely.

"Wow" I muttered in surprise.

"It'll be fine" Adam reassured me rubbing my back a little.

"Yeah probably don't do that" I said standing up "I best get home" I told him going back to the changing room.

"Don't let what Paul said bother you Jay" Adam said turning to me as he stopped the truck outside the house to drop me off.

"I don't want any drama Adam…Does Beth even know what happened between us?" I asked.

"Well…." He began but I could tell by his face that he hadn't.

"Oh my god" I whispered in realisation "You haven't told her have you?" I asked.

"I didn't see the point" He told me "It's not like it meant…" He began before stopping himself at the realisation of what he was about to say and the clear look of hurt on my face. He let out a deep breath in exasperation and placed his head on the steering wheel.

"Well shit Adam just slap me in the face next time it might hurt less" I seethed before getting out of the truck and going into the house without so much as a look back, after a moment I heard him pull away.

"Are you ok Jay Jay?" John asked.

"Fine" I plastered a fake smile on my face, I don't know why I ever othered lying to him because he always knew when something was up with me, even when I was a kid, it was like he could read my mind sometimes.

"Don't let him hurt you like Gavin did Jay"

"Too late" I said my eyes filled with tears "I should have known I would never be good enough for someone like him" I said as tears ran down my cheeks.

"He's a fool" John said pulling me in to a tight hug, Johns hugs took me back to being a little girl before my parents died, before I met Gavin, before everything got bad. I quickly excused myself before Katrina could see me and start asking questions, I wasn't sure I was in the right state of mind to answer all the questions I knew she'd have. I quietly entered my bedroom all the while still trying to hold the tears back, I had shed so many tears over men recently that I just couldn't bring myself to do it anymore. I sat on the end of the bed contemplating what to do next, should I go to the WWE? I barely knew anything about wrestling so how was I going to become a wrestler? Was it a good idea to go with Adam? Was I just putting myself in harms away at risk of Adam playing with my emotions again?

Buzz Buzz –

My phone vibrating pulled me out of my thoughts, I leant across the bed and picked it up, my heart sank as I read the name on the screen Adam.

Nothing I ever say will prove to you how sorry I am.

Adam x

I have nothing to say to you

Just keep away from me.

Jayme x