"Jay" Stu let out a sigh of relief as he saw me and walked over to me grabbing my hips and planting a hungry kiss on my lips, I stepped back wanting to create some distance between us. "Jay I'm so sorry" he apologised "I shouldn't have made you feel like you had to choose between me and Adam, I know you don't feel that way about him I shouldn't have listened to whispers from the others" he admitted, I stood silently unsure what to say "Jay?" He questioned registering my silence.

"It's ok" I said plastering a smile on my face and leaning up to kiss him, everyone in the room drunkenly wooed as we kissed earning a laugh from Stu as he planted more kisses on me. I looked up at the man in front of me blissfully unaware of what had taken place between me and Adam just moments before he had arrived. I was attracted to Stu there was no denying that I liked him and if Adam wasn't in the picture, I would have no reservations in taking things further with him. Stu pulled me to his side as Drew came over and began speaking to us both, I watched as Adam came back in through the back door his eyes red, I wanted nothing more than to run to him and hold him, but I couldn't, he didn't want me to, or he did, but for whatever reason he couldn't. I rested my head against Stu's torso, his shoulder too high for me to reach and laughed at whatever Drew was saying feigning interest, Adam was officially out of the picture, and I had to preserve my feelings and move on.

I didn't see Adam for the rest of the night, he had walked straight through to the living room sitting with John and Randy, Isabelle sat opposite him talking to Finn Balor scowling at Adam whenever the opportunity presented itself, I couldn't help but smile she really was an amazing friend. Five to midnight came everyone gathered round the TV to bring in the new year, excited drunken chatter filled the room, I hadn't drunk much more so I was perfectly sober, I was almost terrified of what I might say or do if I was drunk around Adam right now. He'd hurt me with what he said tonight, he may have said he wanted me but to hear him say it wasn't going to happen had been like a knife to the gut, I stood with my back to Stu watching the TV screen, his arm wrapped around me resting under my chest. I could see Adam watching us out the corner of my eye as he leant against the door frame.

"10…" Stu whispered in my ear as we all began to count down to the new year.

"9…" I shouted looking over at Adam mouthing the number 8 at me, his eyes sad. I looked at him wondering what it would be like if he had have stopped talking after he had told me he wanted me, would I be in his arms now as we counted down? I closed my eyes for a second letting myself get lost in what ifs and maybes.

"3" Stu said kissing my neck gently, Adam's jaw moved in annoyance, I raised my brow at him, how dare he be annoyed? He had every opportunity earlier in the night to change things, he was the one who had shut it down without even letting me speak. He had no right.

"2" I said staring Adam down.

"1" Stu spun me round and kissed me hard as the clock hit midnight and everybody cheered shouting happy new year "happy new year" he breathed pulling away "you're amazing" he smiled before kissing me deep again, his hands rested on the small of my back and he pulled me close to him, I felt his erection through his jeans making me draw a deep breath in. I stepped back and turned to Isabelle giving her a hug and saying happy new year.

"I kissed John Cena" she giggled in response, I laughed out loud at how she had just turned into a 13-year-old little girl. "Are you ok?" she asked with concern etched on her face.

"Course" I smiled, brushing it off.

"Stay with me tonight" Stu uttered in my ear, wrapping his arms around me from behind, I sank into his grasp holding his hands that were resting on my stomach. I wanted to I did but I knew it wasn't fair on Stu for me to do that to him, I stepped out of his clutch and turned to face him.

"I shouldn't," I told him.

"No" Stu panicked "I don't mean for that, I mean we just haven't spent the evening together before and I would like to do that" I smiled as he became flustered trying to explain himself, to the side just behind him I caught sight of Adam leant against the wall talking to Carmella, she was leaning against the wall in front of him giggling and playing with her hair. Adam was being receptive to her advances, smirking at her and flirting, she flirtatiously touched her arm and Adam leant in whispering in her ear as she did. My jaw clenched at the sight in front of me, looking back to Stu I let out a breath and smiled.

"Sure" I told him "Maybe we can take things a little further" I whispered leaning up and kissing the skin just below his ear, he let out a low breathy groan and closed his eyes.

"Now" he growled. I turned to tell Isabelle I would be leaving but she was occupied with John in the corner, and I didn't want to interrupt grabbing Stu's hand. We made our way out of the party and back to the hotel together.

Stu unlocked the door and turned dragging me in with him, I giggled kicking the door closed with my foot as we almost fell through. He bent down placing his hands under my thighs lifting me up and kissing me carrying me through the room laying me on the bed hovering above me. He trailed kisses down my neck running his hands down my dress and to my thigh lifting it almost tearing the dress completely, he smiled into the kiss groaning as his fingers brushed the inside of my thigh.

"I…" he groaned between kisses "need to stop" he breathed pulling away resting his forehead against mine "you said…" he began before being interrupted with my lips crashing back to his.

"Forget what I said" I told him cupping his cheeks and pulling him down to me, another low moan escaped his chest. He began trailing kisses down my neck and towards my chest before again stopping.

"No" he said between heavy breaths "not like this" he stopped but making no move to get off from on top of me. "You deserve more" he told me, I leant up capturing his lips with mine again saying nothing in response, I felt every ounce of his resolve leave his body as he lifted my dress up above my hips, his hands wandering up my thighs and towards my underwear.

We lay in a sweaty mess tangled in the sheets; my head rested on his chest, his arm was wrapped around me resting on the middle of my back, his fingers gently stroking my skin, our legs entwined as we lay trying to catch our breath.

"Shit" he puffed, kissing the top of my head. I lay next to him in complete silence, this was the first man I had slept with since Gavin, I was happy, but I knew I should have been happier. I blinked trying not to cry, this wasn't how it was supposed to be. I felt terrible letting this happen knowing how I felt about Adam, I cared for Stu, and I wanted to do this with him, but deep down I knew it wasn't fair to him that at least in a small way I'd used him to try and forget about Adam. My hand rested on his rock-hard abs as I thought about everything that had happened the night before, a small smile played at the corners of my lips as I thought about the way Stu made me feel, he made me feel beautiful and cared for, I was safe with him, and he was clear with me about his feelings for me. I rested my chin on his chest and looked at him with a small smile I definitely could. "What?" He chuckled.

"Nothing" I shook my head slightly "you're too good for me…I'm lucky to have you" I told him, he let out another small laugh flipping me on to my back and getting on top of me.

"Let me show you just how lucky you are" he smirked, leaning down kissing me once more.

I entered my room and went straight for the shower washing away all the sweat Stu and I had built up over the morning. I worked the shampoo into my hair letting the water run over my body as I did, my phone ringing pulled me from my thoughts. I leant out the shower and grabbed my phone, answering it and placing it on loudspeaker, so I didn't get it wet.

"Hello," I answered.

"Jay" Adam's voice came, my stomach flipped at the sound "Jay are you ok to make your own way to the arena today?" he asked "I'm not exactly at the hotel right now" he admitted, I rolled my eyes in disdain but knowing I had no right to be upset seeing as I had slept with Stu last night.

"Yeah, that's fine, I'll meet you there in a couple of hours" I told him, ending the call without another word. I finished up in the shower and stepped out drying myself, I dressed in a pair of jeans, a low-cut tight-fitting t-shirt, I had been surprised by Vince less than a week ago when he had told me I needed to join Adam out in the ring. I was going to make sure I was ready for any other surprises this time. I dried my hair and straightened it out letting it fall around my face naturally. My phone pinged alerting me to a text from Isabelle, I had text her on my way back to my room asking how her night had been.

I may have stayed with John
How was your night?
I saw you leave with Stu
Isabelle x

I thought you might have ; )
It was good, yeah, I stayed with Stu
Jayme x

Tell me all about it today
I'll be at the arena, John wants me to see him wrestle
Isabelle x

Can I catch a ride?
Jayme x

Sure, see you soon
Isabelle x

I set my phone back down and put some make up on trying to cover my serious lack of sleep. Once I was finished getting ready, I walked down to reception and waited for Isabelle to come and meet me with John so we could all travel to the arena together. A few minutes later they both arrived, and we all left.

"Where's Adam?" John asked.

"No idea" I shrugged "He rang when I was in the shower and said he wasn't at the hotel and could I make my own way" I explained checking my phone to see if I had heard from Stu, I sighed when I realised I hadn't.

"Is Adam here yet?" John asked Randy as we walked around backstage looking for him, Isabelle linked her arm through mine as we searched letting me know that she was there for me.

"No, I haven't seen him since he left with Carmella last night" Randy shrugged in response, I plastered a smile on my face hiding the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. We walked the halls for a little longer asking everyone we see if they had seen him no one had and those who had been at the party all said they hadn't seen him since he left with Carmella, with each individual who told us I found myself caring less, if he wanted to go and sleep around then so be it, if I wasn't good enough for him then fine because I was more than good enough for Stu and he was for me. Eventually we gave up looking and went to catering to grab some food, it was full of stars, most hungover from parties the night before so we grabbed some food and joined Randy, Mike and Paige.

"Has anyone heard from Adam yet?" John asked, eating a banana, everyone at the table shook their head in response, I could see Isabelle looking at me from the corner of her eye, she had a thousand questions for me, and I knew she was desperate for answers.

"I need the toilet" She told me, giving me a look that told me if I didn't agree to go quietly she'd drag me kicking and screaming.

"Me to" I said standing up

Entering the bathroom Isabelle kicked each door checking there was no one around to hear the conversation, she turned back to me sitting on the side between the sinks waiting for me to spill everything.

"So…" she said expectantly "What happened when you and Adam spoke?" she asked desperately for every detail.

"Isabelle, he told me he wanted me but couldn't have me" I sighed "Something about him not being good" I told her shaking my head in confusion, I wished I had stayed and pressed the issue with him a little longer the night before wanting to know what he meant.

"What?" she said clearly just as confused as I was, I walked over to the sink and leant over it overcome with a thousand emotions of the past 24 hours "What does he mean he's not good?" she asked.

"I don't know Isabelle" I sighed "He said Stu is a better man than he'll ever be and then I see him with Carmella after midnight and Stu wanted me to stay with him for the night and I agreed and…" I babbled only stopping to catch my breath "and I slept with him, and it was great and I like him but I know I shouldn't feel the way I do about Adam, I thought I was passed it until last night happened" I continued finally looking back up at her as she processed every word I had said.

"Stick with Stu" she told me "Adams a lost cause at this point and I think he's a total bastard for doing this to you, if he's not man enough to admit his feelings then he doesn't deserve you" she responded jumping down and tidying my hair for me in the mirror "Walk away girl" she told me.

"I can't we're working together" I pointed out, it just wasn't going to be as easy and walking away and not seeing or speaking to him again, everything I had in the WWE was resting with Adam, he had trained me, he had got me the job and now we were in a storyline together.

"Just stay away when you can" she told me "Come on let's get ourselves out of here before people start thinking we're doing something we shouldn't be" She winked giggling linking arms with me as we exited the bathroom. We were making our way back into catering when I caught sight of Adam standing queuing to grab some food. My blood boiled as I saw him nonchalantly eyeing the food, he hadn't responded to any of my calls or texts since we had arrived at the arena, and I was just about ready to scream at him.

"Stay calm" Isabelle almost pleaded as she clocked him to, she knew there was no use trying to persuade me to carry on with her back to the table, I took in a deep breath readying myself for a fight. I stormed over to him, a woman on a mission ready to throttle him.

"Nice of you to let me know you're alive" I said, stopping behind him.