Nya POV: After Pixal told us everything she found I had to take some time alone. And I found myself just laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was so worried about Kai and his injuries, plus the fact that he doesn't have his memories. Normally, I wouldn't believe him since he has a bad habit of not telling anyone about his issues. However, I'm not getting that sense from him. It was always easy to tell if he was telling the truth and he was. But that only gave me a new sense of dread whenever I think about him finally remembering.
Just hearing about the torture was horrible, but going through something like that is something entirely different. There's no telling how this is going to hit him and that scares me. I don't want my brother to break over all of this the second it comes back to him. Though, he's also going to try and figure it out one way or another. And no one will be able to stop him if he sets his mind to it.
I sighed and forced myself to sit up. I think we're about to get to the Monastery soon. I can help Zane and Pixal move Kai in the meantime to take my mind off this. I walked over to the door and when I opened it Jay was standing there. He was about to knock by the looks of it.
"Uh, Nya. I was, you know… How are you doing?" I chuckled as he tried to play it cool. He was slightly failing, but it was a good attempt on his part.
"I'm just going to see how far away we are." I answered, leaving the room. I closed the door and we continued to talk as we walked down the hall.
"I think we're almost there. At least, that's what Zane told me earlier." He told me and I nodded in thanks. A silence followed and Jay slowly got more nervous over the short time. He clearly wanted to talk about something, and what that was is also obvious.
"Jay, you can ask if you want." I finally said, and he jumped a little before fidgeting a bit.
"Um, so… Zane and Pixal filled us in. It was a lot and I wanted to know how you're feeling." He said, and I stopped. He did too, but he waited patiently instead of talking.
"I… It is a lot right now, but I'm trying to focus on the present. Kai needs us to be there for him." I tried to sound calm, but Jay clearly saw right through me.
He took my hands and pulled me close. He took a small breath and stated, "Nya, I can see it in you. That's not the whole story. No matter what you're thinking, it's not going to be bad. I certainly won't feel less of you."
I stare at him before leaning against him. It is really too good at noticing those sorts of things. He wrapped an arm around me and, again, waited until I started talking again. Though I didn't for a while since his hug was comforting right now.
But eventually I did speak. "Kai doesn't remember a thing. Not a single thing… And a part of me wants it to stay that way."
"Why?" He asked gently. He slowly started to pull away, but I wrapped my own arms around him to stay.
I gave a slightly shaky sigh before continuing, letting it all out. "Hearing about the chains and how they used them to burn his arms is a lot. It was a lot for me, but I didn't go through it. He did, and the only comfort he has right now is that he doesn't have those memories."
"And if he doesn't get them back things will stay that way. Am I right?" I pulled away when he said that, and nodded.
"I know that he wants to know too, and I don't want to lie to him. But I really don't want to. And I can't help feeling guilty about that." I finished, but Jay just shook his head a little.
"Of course not. Kai is your older brother and he's in a rough state right now. Plus, I've seen how you guys get overprotective of each other when something happens. Honestly, I would be more worried if you didn't have those feelings." He stated, keeping his hands on mine. Pulling them up to kiss them once he finished.
I smiled back and kissed his before hugging him again. I'm so glad that he was so good at making me feel better. Even if I was still feeling guilty. But that's a bridge we'll cross when it comes. Right now Kai needs the support to heal physically. And the positive thing right now is that he doesn't remember.
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Kai POV: Somehow I was in a completely dark space. So dark that I couldn't see a single thing. It also had a chill to it that made me uncomfortable. Not to mention how I couldn't talk either. My voice just wouldn't work. I tried walking around, but I couldn't. I was stuck in a single spot. It was weird, though the weirdest thing was that I wasn't surprised. Like I knew that I was supposed to be there. However, not being able to move was making me slightly panic. I was not having a good time.
I was about to try again to talk again when large chains shot out of the dark at me. I couldn't move as they violently wrapped around my arms. It hurt as they forced me to raise my arms, right as something hit the back of my knees. Causing me to fall against the force on my arms. And the panic inside of me grew so much that I was choking.
A part of me strangely knew what was happening, but my mind wasn't on that same train of thought. However, I still tried to pull away as hard as I could. But they just grew tighter and tighter until I was forced to stop. I tried to stand back up, but my knees wouldn't listen to me. I was stuck in more than one way now.
"How much heat can you take?" A hollowed out voice whispered in my ear. It was quiet, but right next to my ear. I jumped a little from how sudden it was.
But it didn't continue, it just triggered the chains to steam. Causing my arms to burn violently and I screamed from the pain. The screams were slowly choking me, but I couldn't stop.
Why is this happening? Why can't it stop? Why is it so familiar? Why can't I just run?!
I shot up as I was somehow not in that place again, barely being able to breath from all my panic. I was scrambling, trying to get away, and I couldn't breathe. I needed to run, but something was holding me in place. I needed to move, I couldn't sit still. I just can't. I need to get out of here!
"Kai, take a deep breath and calm down. You are safe here." Zane's voice snapped me out of all the panic.
I was in the Bounty's med-bay and was lying in one of the beds. He and Pixal were standing over me, holding me down with worried looks on their faces. I was still having trouble breathing. However, I took some shaky breaths like he said. It sort of worked and I nodded to them. They let me go, but Zane kept a hand on my shoulder. Though he had to avoid the stab wound.
"Are you alright? Your heart rate is still at a high level." He asked, glancing at the monitor next to him.
"I… I think so." I said, but I sounded so shaky and scared that they didn't believe me.
"Kai, would you like a light sedative? It would calm your agitated nerves." Pixal asked. She was already turned to the cabinet.
I hate needles, they're the worst things to ever be invented. But I still nodded in agreement. My panic levels were starting to hurt my chest. But I did look away the second she picked up the syringe. I noticed that Zane was looking over all the equipment in the meantime. He was probably checking to see if something else happened. I would have continued thinking about it, but Pixal gave me the shot and I flinched.
She was fast and had it put away as soon as she could. "There, it should work fast."
"Thanks." Again, I sounded so shaky. She and Zane shared a quick look before she put some pressure on the spot.
She wasn't wrong when she said it was going to work fast. It just took a few minutes before I could feel myself starting to relax. However, that made me realize how much pain my head was in. I would have held my head with my bandaged hands if Zane didn't stop me.
"Kai, please don't. Your arms need as little movement as possible." He gently said, and I listened to him. But neither one of them stopped.
"What exactly were you dreaming about? Was it a memory of your recent incident?" Pixal asked, but I just shook my head.
"It was just a weird nightmare. It didn't make any sense." It didn't feel right, calling that a nightmare. But I couldn't think of what else to call it.
"Can you describe it?" Zane asked, and I immediately shook my head.
"Not right now. I can't, I'm sorry." I said, trying really hard to not lose it. But they both comforted me instead.
"Please don't worry about it. I should have waited before asking that question. That's on me, not you." Zane gently said, and I took a deep breath from that. Of course I don't blame him, but I was still in a weird headspace from that dream. And I have a gut feeling that there was something more to it.
What exactly happened to me?