The Taste of Bad Dreams

If I were a nightmare, what would I taste like?

"Like candy after brushing your teeth- is that an answer which makes since; Tsukasa?"

I normally don't dream. When I do, they're always nightmares.

Waking up in a pool of sweat, nearly jumping out of my skin as I panted anxiously. This was one of those morning.

I looked over to Tsukasa as he slept. Thank god.

I exhaled; franticly stroking his hair back. "You're ok," I sighed in relief. It's always a nightmare of mom killing you.

I was quick to get dressed, for some reason the alarm never went off.

If we were late for school again, mom would be pissed- she hates when they school calls her while she's on business trips.

Amane: "Tsukasa, hurry up,"

Tsukasa: "Why are you in such a rush to go to school?"

Amane: "Because we'll get in trouble if we're late,"

Tsukasa: "…Maybe you just wanna see your girlfriend."

Amane: "Hm? What are you talking about?"

Tsukasa shrugged his head as he struggled to unbutton his pajama shirt. He's acting weird this morning.

I sighed sitting beside him in bed, gently undoing the buttons as his hands fell to his sides. "I don't even have any girl friends, let alone a girlfriend." I sighed.

Besides, I was much too busy keeping an eye on Tsukasa to worry about my romantic life. I smiled, though I didn't mind it at all. I looked up at him.

Dark eyes.

Tsukasa kept his eyes to his lap, looking down with a blank face. I paused; was he still upset about last night?

I don't know what moms been telling him, but it's starting to make Tsukasa paranoid. What do I say to make him feel better? I grabbed his shoulder and smiled nervously.

"It's ok, I don't talk to anyone but you. So, you don't have to worry about anyone coming in between us, I promise," I smiled before hugging him.

I gasped as Tsukasa shoved me off the bed and onto the floor. "Lair!" He whispered. "What are you talking about, I'm not lying!" I insisted sitting up. "Liar!" He yelled again as he stood up.

"You're a liar, you're a liar! A big fat liar!" he screamed red faced. I looked at my twin in confusion, what the hell is the matter with him?

I had never seen Tsukasa so flustered before, he was upset: his face was bright red and he pouted childishly like he does when it throws a tantrum.

"Tsukasa?" I asked confused. "Shut up! I don't wanna hear your stupid lies anymore!" he yelled tightening his fist.

I flinched trying to understand why he might be so angry.

Everything was fine when we went to bed, but he was quite when he woke up- as if he was holding something in. I jumped as Tsukasa grabbed the lamp beside our bed, smashing it onto the floor.

"I hate it!" he yelled. "Tsukasa, stop!" I scolded as he ran toward our dresser. Shoving everything onto the floor, ripping out the drawers and throwing the clothes onto the ground. This is a nightmare.

"I hate it! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, hate it, HATE IT!" he screamed in a fit of rage. I got up as he started kicking and punching the wall, "Tsukasa, stop!" I yelled as he created hole after hole. Grabbing both of his arms, "I hate it! I hate it, I fucking hate it!" he yelled slamming his head into the wall.

Blood.

"TSUKASA!" I screamed pulling him away, both of us falling onto the floor as he kicked and screamed. The blood from his head dripping on the wall, "What the hell is going on?!" my mother screamed stomping into the room.

She's home, so soon? But why?

I fell backwards as she pulled Tsukasa by the hair, "What are you fucking doing?!" she screamed shoving him onto his back.

"M-Mom, p-please don't!" I begged crawling to my knees as she pinned down my angry twin. This is a nightmare.

"I hate it! I hate it! And I hate you too!" Tsukasa yelled at her. It was the first time he had said anything spiteful to her, "You stupid, stupid boy!" she yelled wrapping her hands around his neck.

"Evil demon child! Have you no self-control? You're useless! Stupid! You hate me? Well I hate you more!" she screamed chocking him as he tried to fight back.

"Stop it, please!" I begged on my knees. This is a nightmare.

Move! Body, please, please; move! Everything felt surreal, I had told myself I'd protect him. That I wouldn't let her hurt him.

But I'm too weak.

Sobbing as she let go, panting as she looked down at my twins' limp body. I crawled toward him as she got up, "Tsukasa? Tsukasa?!" I cried grabbing his face tearfully as she caught her breath.

"Clean up this mess," She commanded. I bent over, holding my twin as I sobbed; stroking his hair as I held him tightly. "I SAID CELAN UP THIS FUCKING MESS!" she screamed. This is a nightmare.

When it comes to her, my body moves on its own.

I kissed the top of Tsukasa's head before standing up, "He's not dead." She sighed picking him up. "I wish he was; I'll bring him back when he's not on punishment anymore. I expect this room to be cleaned when he gets back," she said in a cold, flat voice.

I wiped my face as I cried, picking up clothes from the floor as she carried him out. I hate myself; I can't ever protect him.

I froze, coming across the note Leora had written me. My heart sunk; did Tsukasa find this? This is why he thinks I'm lying to him. I covered my mouth, "It's my fault,"

This is the start of a nightmare, the kind I can't wake up from.

Creator's note:

*Smiles*

This is going to get fun.

Next chapter contains smutt!