If I were a fantasy, what would I taste like?

"Like cotton candy, is that an answer that makes since; Tsukasa?"

Would I want to be Tsukasa's girlfriend? What does that even mean?! I couldn't close my mouth, or make face stop blushing the way it was. I didn't want Tsukasa to have a girlfriend, I'm selfish. I closed my eyes and kissed Tsukasa, grabbing the collar of his shirt to pull him over me as I fell onto my but.

I don't care about anyone but myself, I only cared about fulfilling my own needs; I exhaled in excitement sticking my tongue into his mouth. Licking the insides of his cheeks, rubbing it against his teeth and down his throat. This, this is the same overwhelming excitement I felt last night when I lost control.

I kissed him and jerked off as he slept because I couldn't resist being so close to Tsukasa- and right now was no different. I pulled off his tie and ripped his shirt open, I hungrily kissed his neck as my hand ran up and down his rough skin. The vibrations of him humming as I kissed his neck made me want to feel even more of his hot skin. "I missed you, Tsukasa," I kissed pulling his cock out of his pants.

I wanted to this so badly-

I wanted to feel it inside of me, but I wanted to be inside of him more. "Amane," Tsukasa said as I kissed down his chest, "Amane," he said again as I kissed his belly button. Licking the inside of it as I stroked his cock. I want to feel it, his cum between my fingers, and between my lips, and dripping out of my starving hole as well.

"Haaaa, you're spacing out- Amane," Tsukasa said flicking my forehead.

I opened my eyes, spacing out? With dark eyes, I looked at Tsukasa who was fully clothes. He stood up and I kept my eyes on him in awe, "I was only joking about the girlfriend thing- it's like you always said. Brothers shouldn't do stuff like that, ah- but I was only joking so don't be mad!" he smiled playfully before walking towards the door.

I was, daydreaming?

In a daze, I stumbled to my feet. Rubbing my sore eyes, am I really that tired? Am I so emotionally warning out that I've started fantasizing about Tsukasa mid conversation? My anger subsided into disgust as I looked at my hands which were wet with tears. There's no one I can be angry with, but myself.

Walking home, I could only feel the weight of stress on my back as I stare at Tsukasa's. The way his shoulder blades moved within his shirt turned me on, he's gotten to be fit- with broad shoulders. My mouth watered; how nice it would be to feel them as I bent him over to fuck him. I shrugged my head, stop it! Stop thinking about those things!

I'm so selfish.

I opened the door as we got home, watching Tsukasa kick off his shoes. Knowing him, he would have went looking for me when mom forced him to move. Being apart made us both suffer, but I yelled at him and made him feel bad about something he couldn't control.

I'm sure he was lonely, and Tsukasa is so cute- of course he'd find a girl who was crazy about him. It was always me that scolded him for our forbidden relationship; yet I'm the one who craves it so badly.

"Amane, Amane is that you?" my mother called. Tsukasa froze and his face turned white, "Oh crap, she's up. Tsukasa, go into the bedroom and don't come out until I say it's ok," I commanded putting my finger on my lip as if to tell him to keep quiet.

Tsukasa nodded his head, tiptoeing to the other side of the small house where our room was. "Amane!" my mother called again. "Yes, I'm here. Hold on, I'm coming," I called in an aggravated tone. I'm still angry. I shrugged my head, rushing to the kitchen to make her sleepy time tea before bring it to her.

I shouldn't be mad at Tsukasa, this is mom's fault- she's the one who sent him away. I took a deep breath as I entered her wrong, the once scary; terrifying woman laid in her bed. With a pale face, she turned her head slowly until our eyes met. "You take too long, school ended hours ago!" she scolded. "Yes, I'm sorry mother," I apologized.

I almost pity her.

Her once beautiful hair wilting and turning gray, her failing health was… Karma. I listened to her complain for a while, then made my way to the kitchen to make her tea. It's better this way, now that's she's bedridden; she can't hurt Tsukasa. Before, I was too weak to protect him, but being away from him for so long- I told myself it'd do anything stop her from getting in-between us. Sipping a white powder into her cup before mixing it in as I had for months; I was keeping my promise to myself.

Mom soon fell asleep after drinking her spiked tea, and I took the empty cup back into the kitchen. "Ah, Tsukasa- what are you doing? I told you to stay in the room!" I gasped seeing my twin digging in the cabinets. "Yeah, but I'm starving and I don't know how to cook; aren't there any snacks or crackers in here?" he complained making a mess.

I sighed, seeing the container of white powder was untouched on top of the refrigerator where I had left it. "I'll, make you something to eat. So you don't need to look for anything," I said as my eyes glared at the exposure of skin from his shirt lifting as he reached his arms out. Once again, I'm excited, and I hate it. Tsukasa looked over at me with a mischievous smile. pulling out a bottle of wine from the upper shelf. "Can we drink this first, Amane?"

Creator's Note:

I promise the next chapter will be all smutt, any request for who's on top? (Chapters about the mysteries of their mother soon to come) Comments and reviews are much appreciated! They're the fastest way to get new chapters. Thanks for reading!