The next few days went by slower than I needed them to right now I needed it over and I needed to get my head together before my appointment tomorrow, mums fussing really wasn't helping matters either,she means well but sometimes I just need space.

"Sharon do you want some breakfast?"

"No I'm fine , I still feel abit sick thankyou though."

"You've gotta eat darling keep your strength up and all that yeah?" "Just have some toast and I'll run you a bath for after it if you want"

"Okay I'll have some toast if it'll shut you up!" "I'm sorry , I'm just , I need space."

"Shal I've asked you this before and your probably sick of me asking it by now , but are you completely sure this is what you want"

"Yeah... but even if I didn't I wouldn't have much choice while Grant is still living he'd never leave us alone to just get on with it if he found out" "And even if he didn't I'd always be looking over my shoulder wondering if the next knock on the door or the next person I bump into in a coffee shop is him,and let's be honest I couldn't exactly lie anyone could work out the dates by his or her age at the time."

"I know , I know and I understand but Sharon this isn't about Grant right now it's about you and what you want , and what that man put you through for all those years no right judge would let a child go with two feet of his care."

"But he's a Mitchell mum and they have an annoying habit of getting everything they want , it's too much of a risk."

"Okay okay , come here and give your old mum a cuddle yeah."

"Yeah" I reply as we embrace, I honestly don't think we've ever hugged so much.

"Now this toast am I making it or?"

"Yeah go on then,thankyou and I'm sorry for being snappy" "I've just got alot on my mind"

"I know and I get that,but please don't feel like you have to bottle everything up,i may of not always been here but I'm here now and you've got my full attention.Now let's leave this conversation here for now yeah,go sit down."

"Okay."

here's your toast and a cup of tea I'll go run the bath for you."

"Thankyou mum."

"No need to thank me , im your mum it's what we do."

Somehow the next morning come faster than expected , I had a nervous feeling in my stomach,I can only describe it as when your on a rollercoaster and you feel as though your whole insides are turning inside out.

The drive to the clinic was a quite one me and mum barley spoke two works to eachover , we agreed she'd come with me to the clinic to make sure I was okay before and after but not actually be there during the appointment.

"Right do you want me to come into the waiting area with you?"

"No I'll be fine from here my appointments at one o'clock, and it's currently 12:30 so I'll check in and just wait for my name to be called I shouldn't be to long."

"Okay well I'm here if you need me okay , just a message or phone call away."

"I know." I reply with a smile.

After being sat waiting for what felt like an eternity though it was only 15 minutes, my name got called.

"Sharon watts?"

"Yeah that's me."

The nurse that called me didn't look to old herself , early 30s at most I wondered had she ever had one? Did she regret it? Wether I was thinking about anything but what I was about to do I don't know but.

"Right sharon if you want to lay on that bed so we can do a scan and see what's going on , find out how far gone you are roughly."

"A scan?"

"Yeah don't worry we won't show you anything if you don't want , it's just to make sure and see how many weeks you are if that's okay?"

"Erm... yeah it's fine it's fine I just wasn't expecting to have to have a scan , I thought I'd just take the pills and be done"as I laid on the bed I was thinking all sorts of what she must think of me, I can't believe I just said that I must sound so selfish it sounds like I don't care at all despite the way I'm feeling inside over this.

"Right miss watts this will feel cold but it's nothing to worry about" as I winced slighty from the cold gel she put on my lower abdomen, she wasn't lying when she said it'd be cold.

"So I see here your around six weeks pregnant now." "If your sure this is what you want , I'll take you through to Amanda just down the corridor?"

"Yeah I'm sure thankyou."

"Hi miss watts im Amanda , how are you feeling?"

As much as I wasn't in the mood for small talk I replied just to be polite. "Yeah I feel okay , and call me Sharon."

"Okay sharon , I've been told your about six weeks give or take."

"Yeah."

"Anything I need to know about your medical history?any allergy's."

"No not that I know of."

"Okay then I just need you to fill in this consent form and then we can get started if you like?"

"Yeah please." I replied as I signed my signature.

"Right so there's a pill today that'll get the process started and there's a pill I can either send home with you or you can come back to take it again tomorrow?"

"I'll take it home if that's okay."

"Yeah that's completely fine , now I must warn you that if you was to take the first pill and then change your mind your pregnancy could face complications."

"Okay."

" and I'm also going to have to send a prescription for some antibiotics home with you just to help your body heal."

"Yeah that's fine me or my mum will get them tomorrow."

"Okay , it's nice you have the support of your mum during this."