Christmas holiday

Severus' life was never peaceful again after meeting Benjamin. He had many secrets one of them is he liked to travel in the muggle world more than the wizarding world. Of course, the muggles glare at his robe but no one knew as an awful death eater who deserved to be dead. Although Dumbledore could help him escape from imprisonment in Azkaban but couldn't rescue him escape from social sanction. His brother, Benjamin, followed him everywhere as soon as he came into the muggle world. At first, he thought that someone had stalked and wanted to attack him again but it was only Benjamin. He tried to kick the boy away. The city was big. Why did he can find him? However, Benjamin's presence is more useful than he thought. Although he was born and raised in the muggle world it was a ghetto muggle world. Benjamin volunteered to be a guide for him. He held his belongings for him and looked at him admirably when he said that he was a teacher.

"You must be truly great," Benjamin said admirably. While they were drinking coffee at a small coffee shop and their talk turned to their careers. Severus didn't understand how this happened. How did he become closer to his half-brother? The reason may be because Benjamin was charming and sincere. If you had heart, you must grow on him, and Severus still had his heart.

**************************************************** ****** Today was the day that was very happy. He took a vacation after working hard for a long time and he persuaded Jaeden to visit Benjamin in Scotland. For him, Benjamin was like Julian. They were both gentle and nice. Finally, the two of them had arrived at Benjamin's apartment.

"Is he here, dad?" Jaeden said hesitantly. "He may go to celebrate with his fri.."

The door opened as soon as he was speaking. Benjamin bowed to his Uncle Jeff and hugged Jaeden tightly. "Bro!" Benjamin said, "It's nice to meet you."

Severus clenched his fists tightly in the back. Now he wanted the rights that he had abandoned back. The rights to be Benjamin's brother

**************************************************** ****** Jeffrey wasn't a psychiatrist for nothing. He immediately knew that the man in black appeared to be uncomfortable. This was the look he had seen in Julian's eyes but he didn't care. He wouldn't make the same mistake twice.

"You seem sad. You can tell me all about anything if you want," he said softly. Now Jaeden and Benjamin were in the kitchen. Leaving him with a dark-haired young man that Benjamin introduced as his brother He wondered if this man was Benjamin's real brother or just a metaphor. Benjamin had a habit of calling everyone known as a brother. Jaeden, his son, was one of them. Severus was about the same age as his son Jaeden, but the young man's eyes were haunted. They have seen too many terrible things. The things that he had never seen even in his most terrible nightmare. The young man didn't answer his question. He kept drinking wine and Doctor Howell knew only people with severe suffering chose drinking alcohol to overcome their suffering. He gently rubbed the young man's back. He now felt like Julian had returned. Even after three years, he still missed his youngest son who was gentle and nice. He saw Julian's value when it was too late. Why didn't he see the pain in his son's eyes? He never made the same mistake with the young man. He pulled Severus and hugged him tightly. The man struggled, Severus wasn't familiar with being hugged. He wasn't familiar with it at all and he knew that it wasn't because of the effect of alcohol. He was alcohol-tolerant enough that a few glasses of wine couldn't do him any harm. Maybe it was because this man had blue and piercing eyes like Dumbledore's, maybe because of his soft, soothing and whispering voice, or maybe the fatigue that had accumulated for almost three months. He gushed everything out like a broken dam. He ranted that no one loved him. No one wanted him. He was a bad person who deserved to die. Doctor Howell rubbed Severus' back, stroking him. He didn't comfort the young man as a psychiatrist. But as a father

Benjamin looked at the scene in front of him with envy and admiration. He kept trying to make Severus open up to him but his effort was useless Fortunately, he is the son of Miss Grace. His mother wasn't an ordinary woman but a very influential young businessperson. She had many followers. No wonder when he wants to find his brother. She began sending people to investigate where Severus was and after that, it was Benjamin's duty. Of course, it was not easy to find Severus' habitat. Many followers insisted that Severus walked into the ruined castle and came out again three days later without even a scratch or that he disappeared as soon as they blinked but as the old proverb said Where There's a Will, There's a Way. In the end, he knew the Severus regular coffee shop. It was a small and unfamous coffee shop. At first, Severus chased him away but when he refused to go anywhere, Severus gave in. However, his brother never opened up with him like he was doing with Uncle Jeff right now. He felt that someone holding his hand. He looked up and found Jaeden sending him a sad smile.

"He probably thinks he sees Julian again." He didn't know why but today, Jaeden's eyes looked more sparkling than usual.

8 Jan 1996

Today was the most upsetting day for Severus Snape. Dumbledore thought that he got nothing better to do so that he ordered him to teach occlumency for Potter. In fact, Dumbledore was right but he didn't want to tutor everyone Especially, Potter. The next day was his birthday. Big deals He rarely received blessings. Let alone a birthday present but he didn't care at all. At least, that what he said to himself

He finished teaching Potter. The child looked very incompetent in this art or didn't make an effort. Of course, Dumbledore must say that he prejudiced. He wouldn't refuse that. He realized that he wasn't a good teacher. He may be really skilled in this art but he was completely incapable of transmitting knowledge. He thought of Benjamin, his half brother. He hadn't contacted Benjamin for almost a year. After he had to work hard to spy but he knew that Benjamin was also a was probably a charming one. Severus sighed. He felt very frustrated. He had to do something to drain it out. He couldn't brew if he still in his bad mood and tidying his room up was his favorite vent

He couldn't confidently say it was tidying his room up. In fact, Severus just demolished the room and he found a wooden box. The wooden box that he had never opened. His mother gave it to him when he was twelve before abandoned him carelessly. Severus didn't know whether he hated his father or mother more. His mother who always hugged and kissed him but left him to marry a young man who is nearly ten years old younger than her or his father who always ranted that he hated him and whipped him but made sure that he had three full meals and provide medicine when he was ill. Although he didn't love him, he still had responsibility. He had just left him entirely when he had a job. Potion master's hands shook before opening the wooden box. There was a letter in there. He unfolded to read

Sevy, my sweetheart

I don't know if you will read this letter or not. I want to say sorry for abandoning you. I could not endure suffering. I then decided to look for happiness elsewhere. I am a coward who cannot protect you. I hope that you will forgive me. I have something to give you. It has been our family heritage for a long time. It was knowledge about how to create a homunculus. You will have someone who truly loves you but when you have finished reading this information, You must burn it down and don't let anyone know about it. Because it's illegal. You must keep in mind that when you create him. You must take the best care of him

A lot of love

Your mom