Second Warning, identical to the first: the chapter will not please fans of the Cullens, Bella and all the rest of the Disney gang... sorry Twilight. I read the saga and watched the movies only for Leah and Charlie Bewley. I love the Volturi. But not the rest of the gang, even if I like the pairings (in addition to LEAH / DEMETRI), Leah Alistair, Leah Nahuel, Leah Embry ... and a little, depending on the story, Leah Felix, Leah Vladimir and Leah / OC. I'm not a fan of Leah / Jacob.

P.S.: Jenna here has a colorful language (some swear words). Happy reading.

Chapter 13: broken life

Carlisle gave his children a good dressing down for disobeying his orders and risking breaking the treaty with the Quileutes. When they left, the doctor asked Edward to go talk to his sister Sabrina.

"I don't think she thinks of us as his family," the boy said.

"You're going anyway." The older vampire's tone was insistent.

Edward went up to the attic. He had read his father's mind about what his sister had told him about Leah. He didn't think much of the Quileute girl, especially since she had caused his wife to have a major crisis when she was expecting Renesmee. In his opinion, she deserved everything that had happened to her so far.

When he reached Sabrina, he saw that the girl was looking at him. She had read his thoughts.

"If you came here to talk badly about Leah, you can leave."

"According to our Father, you haven't said everything about the shapeshifter," the boy said.

"Do you want to know the truth, or are you hoping I'll tell you something you can use to hurt her?"

"I've never hurt Leah."

"Your way of mocking her pain, your attitude toward her, isn't that hurting her?" Sabrina asked.

"You believe that." Edward didn't want to give in. He was sure he was right.

Sabrina looked at the boy.

"Have you read your father's mind?" the woman asked.

"He's your father, too," Edward said harshly.

"Have you read his mind?" Sabrina repeated.

"Yes," the young Cullen replied dryly.

"And you still think badly of Leah? You're a stiff-necked boy, Cullen. Do you know what astral projection is?"

"I know it has to do with the Quileutes."

"Astral projection is an out-of-body experience. What the Quileutes don't know is that you can gain gifts through it. All shapeshifters have this gift, but only Leah can unconsciously use one of these gifts. Only, unlike the pack boys, she has had this gift since birth and not after becoming a wolf girl."

Edward let out a small laugh. Sabrina slapped him, cracking the young Cullen's left cheek for a few seconds. The boy was surprised.

"Leah turns into a wolf, she is the wolf girl. Not the shapeshifters' companions, not Bella, but Leah."

"What would that gift be," the vampire asked irritably.

"Premonitions. Do you know why Leah went to your wife when she was expecting Renesmee?"

"To hurt her." The tone was harsh and pedantic.

"Leah dreamed of Jacob killing Renesmee."

"That's ridiculous. Jake would never do something like that."

"He was about to."

Edward's eyes widened.

"In her dream she saw Jacob enter the room where Rosalie was holding the baby. She saw your sister torn to pieces and the baby's body torn apart. She saw your pain turn into uncontrollable rage. She saw Jacob killed in a horrible way by you. She saw the war that would break out afterward, between your family and the Quileutes. Leah didn't think it was a premonition dream, but she knew that such a thing was possible. She was always on Jacob's side because she knew the pain the boy felt for his love for Bella. She knew where that pain could lead: either to a slow destruction, or to the destruction of something else. But he has never seen Leah's pain… no one sees it, because nobody want to see. Otherwise you would be forced to admit that everything that happened to her was never right, imprinting included. Better to live hiding from the truth. I guess it's easier."

"Life isn't always fair," Edward said softly.

"But it shouldn't be this way," said a voice behind them.

Edward and Sabrina turned. Jenna had just entered the attic.

"Life with you has been very generous, Cullen. Your Bella wanted the Moon and she got the Moon. Leah's requests were and are much more humble, but she only gets crumbs and you think she should be thankful for the crumbs. She doesn't need your handouts. If you can only give her crumbs, then don't give her anything, because all you do is humiliate her like this," the little girl said.

Edward didn't say anything. He just stared at Jenna who was smiling at the thought of reducing the vampire's body to crumbs with her sonic scream.

"You don't like me very much, do you Jenna?" The boy was trying to ease the tension.

"I hate you, your family, and all the Quileutes. You're evils."

The boy had no ill will towards the girl. He liked her. He had liked the way she stood up to the vampire who had created her. He turned back to Sabrina and asked her to continue.

"When Jacob entered the room where Renesmee was, Leah had another vision, but it lasted the blink of an eye: the imprinting of her alpha. Another humiliation."

"Why do you think it's a humiliation?" Edward asked in surprise.

"Really, do you really ask yourself that question?" Jenna was irritated: "You're so stupid," she continued.

Edward began to get irritated. He didn't like being insulted.

"Jenna," his sister called.

The girl snuggled into Sabrina's arms.

"The shifters were born to fight vampires. But since you Cullens and Bella arrived, the Quileute rules have changed. Actually, they changed before that. Jacob's mother knew that you Cullens were vampires. How do you think she knew?"

Edward didn't have an answer to give. He tried to read her mind, but he realized that Sabrina was hiding her thoughts with her power.

"Billy told her everything. Harry did the same thing to Sue."

"Is it that bad?" Edward asked.

Jenna was about to yell at the vampire boy, but was stopped by her sister.

"It was supposed to be a secret. But they knew. They knew everything. The elders turned a blind eye to it. You always turn a blind eye every time. When Sam became a wolf boy, he wanted to tell Leah everything, but they told him that anyone who was outside the shifter world was not supposed to know anything. Outsiders. Leah became a stranger to all of them, even her family."

Sabrina took a deep breath.

"When Sam imprinted on Emily, Leah ceased to exist in her parents' eyes. Harry was supposed to be a sort of fatherly guide for Sam, while Sue replaced Leah with Emily. They wanted to push Leah away not for her own good, but for Emily and Sam's. The fourth heartbreak for Leah."

"The fourth?" Edward asked.

"The first was Sam's disappearance, the second was Sam's secrets, the third was Sam's imprinting and that was the first humiliation, the fourth was her parents' total apathy for her followed by empathy for Sam and Emily. And the second humiliation."

"That bitch Emily took everything: Sam, Leah's parents, her friends, the elders. Everything," Jenna said.

"The third humiliation and the fifth heartbreak for Leah was hearing the comparison between Sam's feelings for her and his feelings for Emily. Even Bella couldn't believe he had ever loved anyone else before Emily. The love that bound Sam to Leah was deep, sincere. It was true love. You saw it, Edward. You can't say otherwise…"

Edward knew what Sabrina was talking about. He had read his father's mind. At that moment he remembered the day he had seen Sam and Leah together for the first time.

"But imprinting," Sabrina continued, "It's a supernatural love, it will always be stronger, over the top. It captures the spirit of the wolf, but not the heart."

Tears began to roll down both girls' cheeks.

"The fourth humiliation and the sixth pain are connected to her transformation. The loss of everything she was before. The seventh pain is the death of her father and the transformation of Seth. She continues to blame herself for this. The eighth pain and the fifth humiliation are connected to her life as a wolf girl. The elders and the boys of the pack considered her, and still consider her, an anomaly. They have never made a secret of it. They never wanted Leah within the pack. They only humiliated her, despised her. Do you remember the fight with the newborn vampires?"

"Yes," Edward replied.

"What did you think of Leah at that moment?"

"That she was arrogant."

"She did it to be accepted by the wolf boys. Not out of arrogance."

"What if Seth had been there instead of Leah? How do you think their reaction would have been… your reaction?" said Jenna

Edward didn't answer.

"You just answered the question. Seth would have been considered brave, not stupid or arrogant. Not to mention that Bella is was praised for her bravery at that time. For her sacrifice… she got a stupid little cut on her arm that didn't even need half a stitch. And she is became the heroine of LaPush. They compared her to the third wife, without deserving such an honor. The sixth humiliation and the ninth pain for Leah," Jenna said.

"The tenth pain…" Sabrina continued "… and the seventh humiliation are due to Bella being on the reservation listening to their legends. When your wife saw her she was surprised to see Leah. As if she were the stranger and not your companion. The eleventh pain came with the change of the Quileute elders and some wolf boys towards you and your friends."

"Isn't that a good thing?" Edward asked.

"No idiot," Jenna scolded him.

"The twelfth pain and eighth humiliation came with Jacob's imprint. With a half-vampire. And her world fell apart again. If you think about it Edward, Leah ultimately lost Sam for nothing, she lost her father for nothing, she lost everything she was and everything she had for nothing. She's been broken so many times it's a miracle she's still standing."

"Maybe she hasn't been broken that hard," Edward said softly.

"You're dead, piece of filth, dead." Jenna was furious.

"She self-harms, Edward. She's been doing it ever since her boyfriend dumped her. After Emily and Sam's wedding, she ran away and went to the Forks forest. She didn't transform because she didn't want any of her wolf brothers to feel her pain. She stepped into a trap set by a poacher. You can imagine the rest. She sees herself as a monster. Someone who doesn't deserve to be loved," Sabrina continued.

Edward was shocked.

"You've never felt all of her pain, because she's always hidden it. And also because you're incapable of seeing it," Sabrina said.

"Let his feel it, let his feel everything," Jenna urged.

Edward looked at the little girl and then at Sabrina. Sabrina's irises turned gold and dilated slightly.

Special thanks to: 98leahcullen, David's Mermaid, Queen Everyday, Hope Shalott, elysiantree, Stephycats7785, literaryrose, Romanticly tragic perfection… who inspired parts of the chapter with their stories. This chapter is dedicated to you.

Most likely I exaggerated, but given Bella's reaction to the loss of Edward (New Moon), I thought of something similar for Leah. In short, in the saga it seems that everyone suffers more than Leah, that their love is greater than Sam and Leah's, that everyone is better and kinder than Leah, more intelligent...

As for Leah's parents... supernatural affairs take precedence, even over family. For this I took inspiration from several fanfictions not far from the reality of the saga.

I don't remember Bella's cut on her arm in Eclipse, but if I remember correctly it wasn't a fatal wound and she didn't even bleed to death. So much fuss about nothing.

I still have to understand Meyer's badness towards Leah, even if I have half an idea why.

I will always continue to reiterate that Emily is Leah's surrogate for Sam and Renesmee is Bella's surrogate for Jacob.

I love Leah. I read the books and watched the movies just for her.

It is mistakenly believed that Leah only suffers for her broken heart. Unfortunately I am not good enough to do her character justice.

One thing I can't stand in the saga is the "prize", that Jacob receives. He wants to kill the little girl and instead he is "rewarded", with imprinting. Instead the injustices that Leah receives over the years are justified. But an unjust thing remains unjust, there are no justifications.