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Chapter 22
Shopping till we drop
Tobias' POV
"So, what are we thinking?" I ask, confused more than I have ever been. I stare off at the must have checklist in one hand and the scanner in the other. Today I agreed to come pick out things for the registry for our baby girl's baby shower… Although why the fuck did, I think this was a good idea, beats the shit out of me. Fuck, do kids really need this much?
"I'm starting to think we should have brought someone who knew what they were doing." Tris says, her expression matching my own.
"I was thinking…Since we agreed on sharing custody, maybe it would make sense to get two of everything?" I ask, pointing out the obvious.
"Wow." She says, her shoulders falling forward as if just realizing something.
"What?"
"Sharing custody." She repeats.
"Yeah."
"There's just so much that happens in the first year…The odds… I guess I'm just starting to realize that the odds of one of us missing something is going to happen." She says with tears in her eyes.
"Yeah, I thought about that too." I agree, nodding my head. "For a while I thought about asking you and the baby to move in with me… I hate the thought of missing any moments with her." I explained.
"Thought?" She says, picking up on my wording.
"Well, yeah. I realized that it could make things more difficult for us. I mean under the circumstances…
"Yeah, I guess you're right." She says, easily. But the look in her eyes and her tone, I know she doesn't fully believe that. I find myself wanting to explain what I mean, but not able to find the right words. "So, two of everything it is." She says, forcing a happier tone out of her mouth. For some reason… My heart drops to my stomach. Maybe Shauna was wrong, maybe I should have…
"I guess we only need one breast pump?" Tris says, scanning the one of her choices. I see the amusement in her face as she proceeds with the bottles and the pump carrier.
"What? You don't think these will work?" I ask, gesturing towards my nipples. Tris bursts out laughing, crossing her legs first. It's something she has had to do a lot lately.
"You know, we haven't really spoken about sleepovers?" I begin as we move along.
"I know… And with the baby nursing…" Her words trail off.
"It's going to be a while before sleepovers can be done. Basically." I finished for her. I'm somewhat crushed at the thought of losing even more time with the baby.
"We will figure it all out. Take it one step at a time." She says, her voice sounding hopeful. "You know there is a little matter that we can start to figure out right now…" She says, as she points the scanner towards a tag and pulls the trigger.
"Yeah, and what's that?" I ask, wondering what we other than baby things need to think about. What the hell is a diaper genie? Does it magically change the baby for us?
"A name." She says simply.
"Right." A name. "Did you have any in mind?" I ask.
"I've been playing around with a few." She begins, "Annabell, Bella, Trisha..."
"You mean Trashia?" I joke. "Sorry, but kids can be cruel." I point out.
"Alright, fine. You give it a try." She says, throwing her right hand towards me.
"Fine, I will. Ummm… Sara, Marie, Tris…Beatrice." I throw the last one in for fun, knowing damn well Tris will look at me with a glare.
"We are not calling our baby girl Beatrice." She says, sternly.
"It's a great name." I tease, my eyes fall to Tris' breasts that peek through her shirt as she bends over to scan a stroller. I clear my throat almost too loudly, trying to clear the sudden fog from my head.
"So what about those pacifiers…" I say, trying to get myself back on track. I almost immediately regret the words that come out of my mouth. I'm trying to get my mind off of Tris' breasts and what comes out of my mouth… Pacifiers. Shit.
"So how come you never said that things were so bad between you and Chris?" Tris asks, turning towards me as we stand in the diaper aisle. I knew sooner or later we would have to talk about this. Honestly, I was surprised it wasn't sooner.
"Things have been rough for a long time, "I began, refusing to meet her eyes. I begin to scan the pampers brand newborn size.
"I'm sorry, you don't have to tell me or explain…" She says, turning around scanning random baby wipes on the shelf.
"No. It's fine. Umm. For a long time, I ignored things that were obviously right under my nose. I guess I just didn't feel like dealing with it. That was until she began to mess with..." I gesture towards Tris and her stomach.
"So, Tobias turned into a scary bad Four again…" She says, her tone trying to sound light as her right eyebrow raises.
"Was I that bad?" I ask, reaching behind my head and scratching mindlessly at that invisible itch.
"It was a sight of you I haven't seen in a while." She confesses. "It was refreshing to see."
"Well, I'll remember to get pissed off more often," I smile.
"Just not at the baby." She says, innocently. She quickly realizes her words as her smile drops when mine does.
"Do you think, I'll…" I let my words trail off.
As the memory of Marcus stands before me. His face full of rage as the all too familiar words come echoing out of his mouth. "This is for your own good." Like the coward I was I raised my arms to protect myself from his blow. Only it was a blow that didn't come. When I finally got the courage to look up, I saw Tris standing before me, protecting me. Taking the blow for me.
"Never." Tris says, closing the gap between us. Our eyes blazed into each other. Her hands fall on my upper arms in an effort to comfort me. "You are nothing like him. And I won't let you think like that." She says with passion in her eyes. "We will get through this together, like a team." She says. I can't help but need to be closer to her. I bend my head down, letting my forehead rest against hers as our eyes close, breathing each other in.
"Thank you Tris," I say, grateful that after everything… She knows this much about me. There is no doubt, no hesitation. Just trust.
It's at this moment, for the first time in a long time… I feel at home.
A/N
Finally things are starting to look up for our FourTris… I know this has been a really slow burn, but stick with us. I promise things will begin to heat up soon.
Guys, just giving you a heads up that I may be in the path of this lovely hurricane, Helene that plans to hit Thursday and or Friday. So if you all don't see a update next week, be patient I will post asap
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Trini