This story is based off of a prompt from typingoverworld on Tumblr. The prompt isWhat if no one ever loves me because I'm always too much?

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-DaniMason

Dear Friend,

I am Lydia Bennet, the youngest daughter out of five sisters. There is Jane, the eldest sister and she is perfect. Mama says she will be the savior of the family by marrying well. This is only because she is so pretty, though I suspect that it is also because Jane is serene and Mama thinks she can use her beauty to attract any man. However, it never works. Then there is Elizabeth, she is impertinent and can run off any man by just acting like herself. She verbally spars with all these people yet she is beloved by all of Meryton, Worst of all, she is beloved most of all by Papa, which I can not understand. I am just as opinionated as her but I do not get the same amount of love at all, it is utterly unfair. Mary is the third oldest and she is stiff and overly pious. She is always lecturing, lecturing, and lecturing me and Kitty! How many complaints can one person have about someone's conduct?! As I mentioned, there is Kitty, or Katherine but she does not like the name Katherine and I do not think it fits her. She is too meek to live up to that name. Kitty fits her perfectly, a hint of mischief and a lot of meekness. And then there is me, I am just fun! The boys love me, I flirt and I earn all the praise and love I could ever want.

Yet I never earn the love of my family. The praise from them that I so desperately want from my family and the towns people. Mama and Kitty think I am great but everyone else will tell me to reign in my personality. My fun-loving nature. Sometimes I wonder if that is because I am too much, too much for everyone. However, that can not be, can it? The men and boys love me and dancing with me. Alas, I can not understand what could be wrong with me.

-Lydia

Lydia crumbled up the piece of paper that she was writing on. Watching the flames in the fireplace, Lydia takes aim and throws the paper into the flames. With a short burst, the paper lit into flames and turned to ashes. Lydia loved doing this, whenever the self-doubt consumed her, she would write to a friend. Then once she was done, she would crumple up the paper and throw it into the fire. All that was left behind was the ashes of her self-doubt.

It never fully worked though, the doubts were there in the back of her mind. However, no one cared, did they? *That did not matter* Lydia thought to herself. She could earn the love and attention of the boys. And wouldn't her family be pleased with her if she could be the first to marry? She would be revered surely? One less mouth to feed and the praise of the town! This upcoming trip to Brighton will have plenty of eligible men including the militia to marry. It would be such a lark to be the first to be married after Mr Bingley left and poor Jane lost.