Wanning lets out a sigh.

He's confused and conflicted. About Mo Ran actions.

He confessed, they both did to each other, but they have only been spending time together. Of course Mo Ran goes on his missions and Wanning goes on his but when they are both here they spend time together talking or doing their own thing with each other, in the same room. It's nice and warm just being around Mo Ran and knowing it's okay. He doesn't need to hide his feelings anymore, and neither does Mo Ran. He has been very expressive with his love. Cooking meals for Wanning, so they spend that time eating together. Cleaning for Wanning, which is something Yuheng always feels embarrassed about. He knows he's always been like this, and it's never bothered him before but now, seeing Mo Ran clean his mess makes him feel guilty. Over all Mo Ran takes care of him. They spend as much time as they can.

Wanning also tries. He's trying to get better about his mess. It's not really getting better. He tries to be as honest about more than just his feelings like Mo Ran is but his thin face makes it difficult to be honest about everything. He tries though.

It's why he's conflicted. Wanning has no problem with how things are going now but... they haven't so much as kissed since they got back. Mo Ran has held his hand when they are alone. He's even kissed his knuckles sweetly (Wanning's heart almost stopped) even when he tried pulling them out of the younger grip. Mo Ran pulled them back and continue to kiss them. Worshipping them the man had said.

But that's as far as it's ever gone. And Wanning does not mind, he should count himself lucky he got this much but Wanning remembers that night in the inn. Mo Ran body heat, the firmness of said body, the grunts, the way Mo Ran calls his name, and the few glances Wanning got of the younger in pleasure. The way Mo Ran's eyes were dark with lust. Just remembering that night makes Wanning body heat up. It's nothing like those steamy dreams Wanning sometimes get. It doesn't help that that night Mo Ran... he didn't... there was no penetration.

Wanning is still a virgin.

Mo Ran had touched and used almost all of his body to please himself and Wanning but nothing besides Mo Ran finger (and tongue) entered him. Wanning can still feel Mo Ran's... hard... thing rubbing against... his thighs and vaginal area. But it feels selfish to be disappointed they didn't go further. He never said anything more.

At the same time it feels crushing, does Mo Ran not want to go far with him? Is there a reason?

Then there's Wanning thin face, he can't ask, as much as he wants to. As much as he promised to be honest with Mo Ran he can't ask about this. He wants to know but he's scared of the answer. Of the truth.

"Wanning." Mo Ran calls opening the door without thought. Wanning pauses staring at Mo Ran like a spooked deer. They stare at each other, eyes locked. Until Mo Ran cast his eyes down Wanning body enjoying the sight of bare white skin. Seeing this Wanning slowly sinks into the hot water to hide from the others eyes. Head turn away embarrassed. What timing! Mo Ran grins stepping into the room, of course unaware of Wanning taking a bath. "Why are you hiding? I've seen you naked." Mo Ran says stepping towards his lover.

Wanning snaps his head to Mo Ran, face so red it travels down his neck, reaching his shoulder. "T-that's different!" Wanning shouts.

"Oh?" Mo Ran tilts his head. Wanning gives a curt nod, turning his head away. "So why hide?"

"I'm... on my menstrual cycle... it's embarrassing." Wanning sinks further, hiding as much as he can in the water.

"Are you okay?" Mo Ran asks squatting next to Wanning. Said man slowly turns his head to the other.

"Y-you don't mind?" Wanning wonders, scared. Mo Ran can see it in his eyes.

Mo Ran gives him a smile, knowing Wanning loves his smiles. "I don't care what body you have as long as it's you." Mo Ran raises a hand to cup Wanning cheek. The other can only stare at the younger stunned, feeling the way Mo Ran's thumb brush his cheeks. Mo Ran lets out a chuckle, leaning forward to capture those pink lips. It's not a deep kiss but it makes Wanning whole face combust. Mo Ran continues to smile at his beloved's reaction.

"Then..." Wanning starts, pausing to look away with his eyes. Eyes narrow. "Why didn't you... enter that night?" Wanning turns to face Mo Ran who watch him calmly. Face to thin Wanning turns his head away not long after.

"Wanning," Mo Ran uses his hand under Wanning chin to turn his head back, so they can continue to stare at each other, "I didn't want to hurt you." He states.

Wanning raises an eyebrow, "hurt me?"

Mo Ran lets a chortle out causing Wanning to glare at him like an angry cat, a very cute one. "Yes. With your body the way it is... I'm guessing you're virgin right?" Mo Ran wonder, knowing the truth but wanting Wanning to say it himself. To confirm it. And asking rather than assuming may make him feel better.

"Yes." Wanning mutters angrily. Still looking like an adorable angry cat.

"Then in a woman's body your first time will hurt. There may even be blood. I don't want to hurt you. I am rather... large. There's no rush." Mo Ran smiles. Wanning only stares at him.

His sharp eyes go down to Mo Ran crotch. He's seen it first hand how large it is. He's even felt it. He can only imagine how far it'll go inside. Or how full it'll make Wanning. Honestly Wanning doesn't care how much it hurts he still wants it but Mo Ran kindness and worry does make it feel better. There's no rush as he said.

Looking back up Wanning is meet with Mo Ran smug grin. Yuheng gives him a glare, though there's no real emotion behind it. Leaning forward Mo Ran places a kiss on Wanning temple. "I'll make you some cakes." He says standing up. That shocks Wanning.

"Did you need something? You came over for a reason." Wanning wonders taking hold of his robe to keep him in place. Mo Ran looks down at Wanning, the older man having no clue how delectable he looks at the moment. Looking up at him with those eyes, his hair down, naked body glistening from the water but pink from the heat. If Mo Ran didn't have more control he'd fuck him right now but he doesn't want to hurt Wanning. Especially during his monthly affairs.

"I wanted to spend some time with you, but you rest. I'm sure it hurts." Mo Ran says smiling at the other. Mo Ran remembers the last cycle, Wanning didn't look as bad as a very weak Chu-Fei but he didn't seem fully himself. This time Wanning looks way better. That doesn't mean Mo Ran won't take care of him. He remembers his mom and those women from the brothel.

He wants to care for Wanning. He enjoys it.

Wanning enjoys the steaming hot water against his skin. Glad and proud he asked. It's embarrassing but he got answers, and they were not as bad as he thought they would be.

When Mo Ran returns he finds Wanning napping, curling in a ball. He sets the cake to the side and picks up the mess Wanning has made after the last pick up he had done. Even heating the sack Wanning had last time.

When done he lays next to him.

Wanning has no clue how much Mo Ran is holding himself back. He would love to kiss him more, to hug him but if he gets just a taste he would easily snap and take Wanning wherever they are. Wanning first time should be special. It should also be as painless as possible.

Mo Ran doesn't mind waiting, it will not be like his last life.