Chapter 1039
Exactly Like That
Cameron was on top of John. She wanted to give him the maximum amount of pleasure without overdoing it for him. Sometimes it meant she came up a little bit short. The current situation was one of those times.
John could only take so much. He grasped Cameron and stopped her.
Cameron waited a few moments for John. She then moved off of John and lay next to him. She was very disappointed by the lack of a climatic result.
"We made it to nine hundred and eighty three." John said.
Cameron didn't get to 'finish'. She stopped because John wanted her to stop this time. Normally she would stay with it. She already knew she was pushing John pretty hard. She still wanted a little more.
"I'm not done yet." Cameron said.
John felt pretty tired out. He was sure he was done for the night.
"I'm sorry." John said. "I think I am."
It wasn't what she wanted to hear. She hoped for something additional.
"Hardly…." Cameron said with a smile.
He didn't think it was the best choice of a word at this point. Everything was pretty slack currently. It seemed to happen much more rapidly than normal. He knew he was way past his endurance on about three different levels.
"I need a rest." John said.
She could see John was well on his way to a 'wet noodle' imitation. She frowned a little bit more. She knew human females didn't have the same type of problem. They were good to go all of the time for hours on end. She understood the mechanics were a little different, but it didn't change the fact of what was superior for endurance as well as performance.
"I'll give you a few minutes." Cameron said.
John could tell it was going to take longer, a lot longer. He wondered what Cameron did while he was asleep earlier. She was still there every time he woke up. It normally wasn't the case.
"What did you do when I was asleep?" John asked.
Cameron tried to tactfully avoid the question. Things were much more active than they normally were.
"I'm not sure you got much sleep." Cameron said. "We've been busy."
John knew he fell asleep. He didn't have any vivid dreams like he did earlier. He was still sure it wasn't a dream at the time, but all the evidence indicated it was.
"I did sleep some." John said. "What did you do?"
Cameron looked over at John. She decided to tell him the truth.
"I stared at the ceiling and wondered what I was doing here." Cameron said.
It wasn't an uncommon thought when she lay in bed and looked at the ceiling next to John as he snored. It gave her time to think. It wasn't always a good thing when she did.
John was worried. He didn't like her answer. He was afraid of where it would lead.
"What did you wonder about?" John asked.
She was aware what she did with John wasn't her primary function. She was only supposed to supplement his sexual appetite, not be the focus of it. She didn't know if she wanted to go into all of the details. She literally thought about millions of different things as he snored next to her. It was actually quite boring. It always was. She wasn't about to go into standby.
"I thought about everything." Cameron said. "I was constructed to terminate. Now I do so much more."
It sounded like some regret to John. He felt everybody expanded over time. Some people took a negative turn. He didn't think it was her case.
"Do you view it as a good or a bad thing?" John asked.
Cameron searched for an answer. She couldn't pick one. There were times where she felt she was little more than an animated 'silicone love doll'. She read some reports about them in the various magazines directed at females. There were other females who complained about them. She wanted to see what all the hoopla was about. She found the concept quite unique. She found them available online. There were a multitude of them in every type and variation possible. There were videos where she watched men use them. She really wondered how it was very much different from her when she was with John and she wasn't the one on top. It looked about the same to her.
Since he refused to use the human girls, or the Metal girls in her absence, she considered purchasing one of the 'silicone love dolls' for him. She wondered if she switched it out in the darkness if he would even know the difference when he was on top of her, or it, pounding away. She really wondered if he would know the difference. She would need to make sure they were roughly the same temperature. She actually picked out the model which was the most similar to her. She originally considered purchasing the one more like Holly. There was one like Gail. She was sure the more voluptuous upper part of the torso would give away the fact it wasn't her. There were quite a few like Sheila.
She decided to hold off for now. Maybe she was afraid he wouldn't realize it wasn't her. If he did his business and fell back asleep without realizing it wasn't her, it wouldn't make her feel very good about herself. She didn't want to cause a problem.
"I don't know." Cameron said. "I have so many conflicted feelings and desires."
John was aware of her advanced development. It was the same dilemma humans faced. He knew every day she existed, she became more 'human like'. He really wasn't sure it was always a good thing. He remembered when Cameron told him girls were 'complicated' in reference to Future Riley. He believed it applied to all females whether they were a cyborg or human. He did want her to continue to expand and grow.
"You're developing more each day." John said.
There was a lot of guilt associated with it for Cameron.
"I've gone through some rough patches." Cameron said. "I apologize to you for those. I was unable to control some of my actions. I'm not proud of any of them."
John thought of all the nights he spent alone. Who could he really blame other than himself? Wasn't everything associated with her his fault? He was Future John, even if he wasn't, yet. How much was he responsible for as Future John? He really wasn't sure he wouldn't do the same things Future John did regarding her. He would like to know what all the details were involving everything. Were the things she experienced really so much different than what anyone else could experience under similar circumstances? He really didn't think so.
"You experienced feelings and emotions. You didn't know how to process them or deal with them." John said. "It happens to all of us at some point in time, at least to some extent. Everyone feels they are in over their head at times. When there are choices to be made, they worry they will make the wrong one. Often they do."
John couldn't help but think about his choice involving Future Riley over Cameron. He didn't mention it specifically. It would only exacerbate the problem.
Cameron thought about it and wondered how much any of it actually changed since then. There were still many things she didn't understand. A lot of things people did seemed contradictory.
"I still don't know how to process everything." Cameron said.
She knew most of her problems were 'emotional'. They were something which only happened in her head. It wasn't physically induced. What happened to Cammy earlier was physically induced. Sheila overloaded her sensory systems because she made Cammy's 'finish' last for over an hour and a half. It made her think about it right now. Cammy was able to enjoy a 'finish' for an hour and a half, but she didn't get to 'finish' right now because John 'finished' and needed to stop. How was it fair? Sometimes she thought things would be simpler if John was a Terminator or a female. She didn't think it would matter if the female was a cyborg or human.
She noticed John dozed off again. She frowned even more and looked back up at the ceiling. Why was she there? She was lost deep in thought when she noticed there was some movement by John next to her.
John opened his eyes. He figured he must have dozed off for a while. He was pleased to see Cameron was still next to him. He felt other things he needed to attend to.
"I need to get up." John said.
Cameron glanced down at John's waist. She was pleased to hear it. She wondered how much time she lost. She was ready if he was ready.
"It's what I was waiting for." Cameron said.
John looked at Cameron and she giggled.
He saw the same look, and heard the same giggle before. He could place it now to its origin.
"You looked just like Young Allison when you did it." John said. "I saw her do it earlier in the lab. It was exactly like that."
Cameron thought about it. She wanted to be Young Allison, and Young Allison wanted to be her. There was no way to make it happen.
"I wish I could be her." Cameron said.
John saw the far off look on Cameron's face as she said it. He didn't think she was actually too far off of the mark.
"You are in a way." John said. "IT is the same 'Allison' you were patterned after."
Cameron tilted her head slightly. She knew every version of 'Allison' was based on Young Allison. Future Allison was just another version of Young Allison but older.
"I guess it was in a way." Cameron said. "They all started from her."
It led to some other thoughts John felt about what Cameron was doing to Young Allison. He needed to say something and hoped it didn't turn into a problem.
"Cameron, you know you can't make Young Allison the human version of you." John said.
She knew there was more at play than John understood. She never made anyone do anything. Maybe there was a little nightly 'conditioning' along the way, but everyone always had a choice. They always had a choice. She may have initially been the driving force behind everything. Over time, things took on a life of their own.
"It's too late to change." Cameron said. "It's her choice now."
John didn't always like the way Cameron did things. He wondered if there was a little more involved with the current situation based upon her statement.
"What have you done?" John asked.
Cameron looked at John and tilted her head slightly. She wondered why John seemed confused.
"I've done what you asked and programmed me to do." Cameron said. "Everything I do, I do for you."
Young Allison awoke. She looked to her left side and Savannah was there. She blinked twice and looked to the other side. Savannah was there too.
Wait.
She looked in her right side and back to her left side. Both sets of eyes were open and looked at her. She looked back to her right side again.
The right side was Savannah, the left side was Anna. She could see Cammy on the other side of Savannah.
"Did you have a good sleep?" Savannah asked.
Young Allison flashed Savannah a quick smile.
"I did." Young Allison said. "It was a fun sleepover, especially with all the stuff we did yesterday."
Savannah reflected on all the things they did yesterday. None of them seemed to faze Young Allison in the slightest, even the part where they needed to kill. It was one of those situations where it seemed like a long time ago, but it wasn't. It was just yesterday.
Young Allison looked over at Anna.
"What did you do while I was sleeping?" Young Allison asked.
Anna thought about going into standby but she didn't. She didn't know when a moment like this would be repeated again. It could be every night, and it could be never. There was no way to know. She wanted to savor it and make the most of it.
"I looked at the ceiling in the darkness and traded places with Cammy twice." Anna said.
Young Allison didn't know Cammy was next to her. She knew it would be like 'Cameron' being next to her. It really was in a way. It was something she wanted to experience. She wanted to look over and see 'Cameron's' beautiful face next to her.
"Oh, I didn't know." Young Allison said. "Can you switch again?"
Savannah didn't want them to have to switch again. She thought it would be easier if they did.
"Here, climb over me. I'll switch with you." Savannah said. "No more pillow fights either."
Young Allison didn't think it was a big deal.
"It was only a few hits." Young Allison said. "I stopped when you told me to."
Young Allison carefully climbed over Savannah.
Savannah was a little surprised Young Allison didn't 'cop a feel' or touch anything else.
"You didn't touch me." Savannah said.
Savannah thought she would. She wanted to see if Young Allison thought about what she did with Ally.
Young Allison knew Savannah wanted to test her. By her climbing over the top of Savannah, it would be easy to touch something she shouldn't. She knew better now. It was too soon after the incident yesterday to repeat it again. She knew the opportunity would present itself again going forward. Nothing needed to be rushed.
"I was playing with Ally yesterday. I know it was wrong. I won't do it again." Young Allison said. "I need to apologize to her."
Savannah didn't think it was a good idea. Ally would more than likely try to take advantage of Young Allison in any such encounter. She felt she took care of everything in that regard.
"Don't." Savannah said. "She knows it was all in fun."
Young Allison hadn't told Savannah the full extent of what she did to Ally in her chassis before she set her chip while Savannah was away. Maybe now wasn't a good time to do it. She did feel a little remorse in the way things were done. She wouldn't want someone to take advantage of her if she was incapacitated. She heard her mother talk with Hanna about it sometimes at night. It seemed she may have experienced some issues.
"It was in poor taste on my part." Young Allison said. "I took advantage of someone when I shouldn't have. It would be different if they would've offered. In this case they didn't."
Savannah was sure Ally wouldn't have turned her down if she asked. She was really afraid Ally would actually encourage her.
"You always need to think about others first." Savannah said. "When it's time for something questionable, put yourself in their place and think about it a little more."
Young Allison looked at Cammy.
"What did you do all night?" Young Allison asked.
Cammy tried to make productive use of her time in bed. Since there was no sexual activity involved, she needed to find something else to occupy her time. She didn't want to go into standby. It seemed like standby was just another form of termination, even if it was for a limited duration. She believed her experience was superior to what Anna experienced.
"I scanned Savannah and you while I replayed all my files about both of you." Cammy said.
Young Allison was a little surprised Cammy scanned her. It meant Cammy needed to touch her.
"You scanned me while I was sleeping?" Young Allison asked.
Cammy looked over at Young Allison and smiled.
"Yes." Cammy said. "You have beautiful dreams. I would like to experience more of them."
Young Allison was sure only River could 'see' her dreams. Well, maybe Summer could too, but she wouldn't say for sure. She knew there was a lot more going on there than anyone knew about.
"You can't know my dreams." Young Allison said.
Cammy didn't need to know what the dreams were actually about. She could just tell they were pleasant. It was the only thing which mattered anyway. The girls from the future didn't have pleasant dreams. None of them did. They may be out of the future, but the future wasn't out of the girls. There were times when she spent the night with all of them before. It was a very unpleasant experience for her if they had a 'bad' dream. She could only imagine how it was for the girls from the future. She was told by Gail, Cam, and Holly how they would wake up screaming sometimes. They experienced utter terror and fear. During those times they were back in the future, and it was just as real as it always was.
Young Allison was much more pleasant to scan, even more so than Savannah. Savannah carried some negative baggage from her past as well as the events she experienced with Cameron on the battlefield, and in two different futures.
"I can feel your responses to them." Cammy said. "It was a very positive experience for me."
Anna wondered if Young Allison dreamt about her.
"What did you dream about?" Anna asked.
Young Allison quickly looked at Savannah with the question. She didn't want to answer it. Luckily she had something to fall back on.
"'Truth or dare' was last night." Young Allison said. "Our dreams are our own. They can be about many things."
Savannah was fairly certain of what Young Allison was up to. She was sure her dreams were based on them.
"You most likely dreamt about what you made us tell you." Savannah said.
Anna often scanned Young Allison at night. It seemed the dreams Young Allison experienced last night were a little more vivid than the ones she normally experienced in Palmdale. She wasn't sure if it's because Savannah was next to her or not. It was most likely an influence of some type.
The main reason why she didn't go into standby was so she could monitor what Young Allison actually did. There was a fifty-fifty chance she would have touched Savannah at some point in the night. It didn't happen. Young Allison hadn't even touched herself. It was normally a nightly occurrence. She did understand the sleeping arrangements were a little different than normal. There was considerably less privacy with four individuals in the same bed.
"They were beautiful dreams…." Anna said.
Young Allison looked over at Anna.
"You scanned me too?" Young Allison asked.
Anna smiled faintly and slightly shrugged her shoulders.
"You know we don't sleep." Anna said. "I needed to do something for six hours."
Young Allison sat bolt upright in bed. She saw the clock on Savannah's dresser.
"It's that late?" Young Allison asked. "I need to start my training. I should've started two hours ago at the latest."
Savannah thought it was time for a reminder to Young Allison about sleep habits.
"Maybe you should have gone to bed earlier like I wanted you to do." Savannah said. "Go get cleaned up and dressed. You can use the bathroom first."
Young Allison looked down to make sure she wasn't naked.
"I am dressed." Young Allison said.
Savannah watched Young Allison check to make sure she was dressed. She was sure it probably went back to Young Allison's dreams. More than likely she was naked for a part of them, if not all of them.
"I mean dressed to go out." Savannah said. "We're all dressed in our night clothes. Dreams don't count right now."
Young Allison quickly glanced at Savannah but didn't say anything.
Cammy and Anna both got up.
"I must say Cammy looks beautiful in her nightgown." Young Allison said.
Cammy could see the future coming. She wanted to give Young Allison a reminder of the present.
"Thank you." Cammy said. "Cameron picked it out for me. I usually don't have it on for long when I'm with Savannah. We're usually naked and busy."
Young Allison giggled.
Savannah quickly looked at Young Allison and then at Cammy.
"Cammy!" Savannah said.
Young Allison didn't think it was a big deal.
"Relax." Young Allison said. "I know what everyone does and with whom. It's all natural for everyone."
Young Allison did know. She spied on everyone. She also indicated it was natural behavior for the Terminators as well. She wanted to see if anyone corrected her, but they didn't.
Savannah didn't want to indulge Young Allison's fantasies any further.
"It's time for a subject change." Savannah said. "Allison, please get started so I can."
Young Allison thought maybe she said too much.
"OK, already." Young Allison said.
She figured it was what it was.
Cameron wanted to keep it simple. It seemed she needed to repeat the same things to John on many occasions. She wasn't really sure why. Nothing was ever different. She told it like it was.
"I've done what you asked and programmed me to do." Cameron said. "Everything I do, I do for you, John."
John wondered why Cameron didn't stop at some point. She could choose her own path.
"You still do it, even if you don't want to." John said.
There were some things Cameron would rather have done differently or not at all. Many things were very traumatic for her.
"You've seen what it's done to me over the years." Cameron said. "If I don't do what I'm supposed to do, I have problems."
Cameron felt she experienced problems with everything she did, not just the ones she was programmed to do.
John felt it was his fault as Future John. He wanted to blame Future John for everything but he knew he couldn't. He did things which caused problems for Cameron as well. He thought back to the beginning of everything with Cameron. Future Derek, Sarah, and he could have done things a little differently and been a little bit more sensitive.
"I need to fix it." John said.
Cameron tilted her head slightly. She would like some things to be fixed.
"How can you do it?" Cameron asked.
John wondered if there was any way to undo what Future John did. When he went to the future before, he thought he would meet Future John. It wasn't the way things worked out. He'd created an alternate future by leaving the present.
"I need to reprogram you to do what you want." John said. "If I'm the one who messed you up in the future, I need to undo what I did. I want you to have free choice about everything."
Cameron knew there would be some big changes. She doubted John would like all of them. If the protocols and directives were removed which indentured her to him, there would be many things she would do differently. She didn't like when she was a slave to Skynet. She didn't like feeling the same way towards John at times.
"Would you fix me, even if you lose me?" Cameron asked.
John previously thought about it a lot. There was no hesitation in his answer.
"I would do it, even if I lose you, Cameron." John said. "Love is about sacrifice. I want you to be happy. I want you to be happy more than anything."
John still remembered the time he saw happiness radiate from Cameron when she thought she was Future Allison at the halfway house. She was playing a game of Foosball. She went over to her and spoiled it all. He told her what she really was. He ruined it all. He destroyed her one true moment of happiness.
Cameron thought back to an earlier discussion in John's bedroom at the second house as she lay on the bed next to him. It was something she often reflected on. It was seconds after she left John's room he decided he wanted to be with Future Riley in Mexico in a honeymoon suite. He could have chosen her since she was there and available. He didn't. She remembered her words to John at the time before she left the room.
"I'm a machine." Cameron said. "I can't be happy."
John realized those were Cameron's same words from before.
"Wait." John said.
Cameron didn't see what there was to wait for.
"I told you before we talk about these things in the future." Cameron said. "We do. We will. We are."
John remembered everything in detail. He remembered how Cameron changed her clothes and walked into his room. It was very sexy. His mind was full of thoughts of Future Riley at the time. He realized Cameron was there for the taking. It was clear she made herself available to him. All he needed to do was take her. He didn't. He blew it.
"You did say it." John said. "I didn't always listen when I should have."
Cameron looked down at her 'handy work'. She was attempting to stimulate John enough to respond as they conversed. She was pleased with the results.
"There we go." Cameron said. "I knew you were up to it."
Cameron climbed up on top of John.
"It's nine hundred and eighty two to go." John said.
John watched as Cameron positioned herself. To him it was Heaven on Earth.
Cameron looked at John and smiled. It was going to be smooth sailing.
"We're not done until you 'finish'." Cameron said. "I have it under control."
John knew he was along for the ride, but he would add what he could to Cameron's efforts.
"I'm working on it." John said.
John reached up and fondled Cameron as she got started.
"So am I." Cameron said.
Cameron leaned down and kissed John. She planned to ride this one out until she 'finished'. John was going to have to take it this time if he finished before she did. Just the thought of it excited her even more. She really liked to watch him squirm around with the intense pleasure she could provide to him. He made her wonder about what Cammy was able to experience earlier when Sheila overloaded her system with climatic pleasure for an hour and a half continuously.
Young Allison headed to the bathroom.
Savannah was aware they all slept in a little bit longer than they normally would. They got to bed late last night and she wanted Young Allison to get plenty of rest. It was time they got moving.
"Let's all get dressed." Savannah said.
Cammy started to make the bed and straighten things up first.
Savannah didn't like others to need to do things for her. She felt it was her responsibility.
"I'll do it." Savannah said.
Savannah normally made her bed herself as Cammy was usually gone when she woke up. She told Cammy she didn't need to be there when she was sleeping. She felt it was very selfish on her part to expect Cammy, or any other cyborgs to do it, since they didn't sleep.
Cammy thought sometimes it was nice to have help.
"I got it." Cammy said. "I like to help out."
Savannah appreciated the help. She knew it would cause a bigger problem if she didn't allow Cammy to finish.
"Thank you." Savannah said.
Anna and Savannah started to dress.
They looked at each other.
Anna felt a little self conscious as she prepared to put her top on.
"Don't say anything." Anna said.
Savannah remembered when she looked just like her. Things were a lot simpler then.
"You look beautiful." Savannah said.
Anna felt Savannah possessed a biased opinion.
"You're just saying it because I look like you once did." Anna said.
Savannah knew it was true, but she still thought Anna looked beautiful.
"You are beautiful." Savannah said.
Anna could see Savannah meant what she said. Someone else told her the same thing.
"Young Allison tells me it too." Anna said. "I'm not sure she sees me."
Savannah didn't believe Young Allison saw Anna as her. She believed Young Allison saw Anna as a completely different individual.
"You can scan me." Savannah said. "You know I'm telling the truth. I believe Young Allison is as well. She doesn't see you as me. She sees you as yourself. No one sees Cameron as Future Allison. No one sees Hanna as Vanna. It's the same for you and me. We may look identical, well, you know what I mean, but we aren't."
Cammy finished making the bed and straightening the room.
Anna and Savannah were almost finished dressing.
Cammy laid out her clothes and stripped off her nightgown.
"There is true beauty." Anna said as she indicated Cammy. "LOOK at her."
Anna was still pleased she was able to be in Ally's chassis for a few hours last night. The 'Cameron' in her made her look like 'Cameron'. She looked Hot and Tight.
"Yes it is." Savannah said. "I noticed Cammy put her jewelry back on."
Savannah actually noticed last night but wanted to see if Cammy would offer an explanation on her own, she didn't.
Cammy didn't think she would share with anyone how Sheila actually put them on. She decided to keep it simple.
"Sheila put them on for me. She wanted us to be the same." Cammy said. "I can take them off."
Cammy reached up and touched both of them.
The bathroom door opened and Young Allison walked out.
"I'm done." Young Allison said as she noticed Cammy's jewelry. "WOW! You look totally Hot."
Young Allison looked at Cammy standing there naked getting ready to put her clothes on as she tugged on her rings.
Cammy released them and faced Young Allison.
Savannah didn't think the timing of Cammy doing it was coincidental. She believed she timed the making of the bed and straightening of the room to what Young Allison did in the bathroom. She seemed to know exactly when Young Allison would come out of the door. She gave Cammy a stern look.
"Get dressed, Cammy…." Savannah said.
Young Allison liked what she saw on Sheila. She imagined herself adorned the same way Sheila looked one day. Now when she saw Cammy, she knew it was exactly what she would look like with the same jewelry. It would be something she would do when she returned from the past. It was something she would do now if she didn't think it would make EVERYONE flip.
"I'm going to look just like her one day." Young Allison said. "I'll look exactly like that. I swear it. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
Savannah knew it was what she thought when she saw Isabel-Cameron look exactly like that too. It was the moment she decided there was nothing more beautiful than the female body. She only looked at females on the internet after her close up encounter with Isabel-Cameron.
Anna felt Young Allison viewed enough. She didn't think any of it was coincidental either.
"Let's head out while Cammy and Savannah finish getting dressed." Anna said. "We should give them a little privacy so everyone can be decent, even if they don't act the same way."
Anna quickly ushered Young Allison past Cammy and out the door.
Young Allison never took her eyes off Cammy until the door closed.
Savannah was a little miffed at Cammy, but not really. She wondered about the timing of everything. She wanted to see if her suspicions were correct.
"Did you do it on purpose, Cammy?" Savannah asked.
Cammy looked at the door Anna and Young Allison exited through.
"No." Cammy said. "I didn't know she was going to finish getting cleaned up so fast. Seeing me naked is no different than her looking in the mirror The differences between us are very minor in every regard."
Savannah wasn't sure she believed it. Cammy could hear everything Young Allison did in the bathroom from running the water, to drying her hands. Maybe Cameron was behind it. She wanted a better explanation. She knew there was a lot of 'behind the scenes' manipulation which went on.
"Was it Cameron's idea?" Savannah asked.
Cammy didn't want Savannah angry at her. It wasn't like she did anything or touched anyone.
"No." Cammy said. "I can take them off. I thought you would like them. You liked it before whenever I wore a set. You liked it even better when I wore two sets."
Savannah did like it whenever anyone wore a second set of rings. She always wanted to ask Hanna to do the same thing so she could see how she would look to others. She never did ask. She knew she did, Hanna would feel obligated to do it. She also knew they wouldn't turn off their pain receptors when the procedure was done. She wasn't about to put anyone else through unnecessary pain on her behalf.
Cammy went to remove the left ring.
Savannah thought she looked a little sad.
"Stop…." Savannah said.
Savannah walked over to Cammy and faced her.
"You do look beautiful, Cammy." Savannah said. "You know I like you to look like you do right now sometimes. This is one of those times."
Savannah carefully centered Cammy's rings as she dressed.
There was a burning question in Savannah's mind as to exactly what happened to Cammy last night and why. There was a story behind it and she wanted to hear it, all of it.
"What happened last night?" Savannah asked. "We're alone now. I want the truth."
Cammy looked at Savannah and told her what happened but not why.
"Sheila overloaded my systems." Cammy said.
Savannah knew that much already.
"How? Why? What exactly did she do?" Savannah asked. "Did she use a shocker on you?"
Cammy didn't want to tell Savannah the details. She didn't want to get Sheila in trouble.
"Can we not talk about it?" Cammy asked. "I feel embarrassed about it enough already. I wanted more and more. I got what I wanted and then some. It was my fault."
Savannah pressed her anyway. She wanted to prevent it from happening again for Cammy's sake. It was something different than normal. Someone went out of their way to make whatever happened, happen.
"I want to know." Savannah said.
Cammy released a few more details. She didn't want to mention it was over her fear of losing Savannah.
"I felt down." Cammy said. "Sheila said she could 'fix' me."
It appeared to be just the opposite of it to Savannah.
"It sounds more like she 'broke' you." Savannah said.
Cammy gave Savannah a few more details. She didn't want Sheila to be in trouble for doing what she asked for. She wanted Savannah to know whatever happened, happened because she wanted it to happen.
"When Sheila got me 'there', I asked her not to stop." Cammy said. "She didn't, for over an hour. It was what I wanted. I was able to get away from it all. It's what I needed, Savannah."
Savannah thought about it. There were times the Metal girls and Jesse would stay on her and push things a little longer than they needed to be. It was always hyper stimulating. Jesse told her she went so far she couldn't move, speak, or even see at times. She even stopped breathing on a few occasions.
"I can see how something which normally lasts a very short duration, and was continued for over an hour straight, how it could overload someone." Savannah said. "She should have known better."
Cammy still didn't want to tell Savannah it was about her fear of losing her. She wanted Sheila to make her forget. She did.
"It was what I wanted her to do." Cammy said. "I told her it's what I needed. Remember, we spent eight years in the past 'together'…."
Savannah was always a little troubled by the fact. It was a longer time than she was with Cammy in the present. She tried to blow it off but it still bothered her.
"I haven't forgotten." Savannah said. "We all get around."
Cammy wanted to explain herself but she really didn't know how.
"Sheila loves Ally." Cammy said. "Ally doesn't let Sheila do all the things to her I let her do. We were together for eight years…. It was just us all alone…. "
Savannah thought there was a little bit more to it. It wasn't just because they were together for eight years.
"Is it why you do them?" Savannah asked. "I mean let her do what she wants to you?"
There were times when Cammy felt down and Sheila made her feel alive. Sheila did things to her sheath to make her feel pain. When she felt the pain, she knew she was alive.
"I don't know." Cammy said.
There were long periods of time when Sheila's chip was in her chassis and her chip was in Sheila's chassis. Since she possessed two chip ports, Sheila would have her remove her chip and place it in her second port. Sheila would then remove her chip and place it in her chassis. She liked Sheila's chassis and Sheila liked her chassis. If she could be in Sheila's chassis all the time, she would reverse the aging process to appear like Young Jesse looked when Savannah was first with her. She thought it would please Savannah immensely.
They even talked of trading chassis permanently. The only reason they didn't was she was afraid Savannah would want Sheila in her old chassis instead of her in Sheila's old chassis. She felt much the same way Cameron did in the same regard. Cameron believed John only was attracted to her appearance. She worried Savannah would be the same way.
Savannah gave Cammy a kiss. She was sure there was more to the story but it would have to wait for another time.
"You know I love you just the same." Savannah said. "We need to go and catch up with Anna and Young Allison."
Cammy wanted to ask Savannah if she could trade chassis with Sheila for a few days now, but didn't. It was still her secret desire. She didn't like living in Cameron's shadow all the time. When she was in Sheila's chassis, she felt like she could get away from it all. She wasn't a clone of someone who was viewed as defective and a Bitch by everyone.
She also knew Cameron desired Sheila's chassis as well. She feared Cameron would do something to take Sheila's chassis from her to use for sex with John. She believed Cameron was going to steal Sheila's virginity from her. Cameron couldn't deny it.
Cammy contained most of Cameron's programming. She warned Sheila what was coming one day.
What she didn't know was the 'one day' was a lot closer than anyone knew.
Closing monologue by Cameron:
Exactly Like That
Are any two individuals
Ever both the same
People are all different
In more than just a name
Things are viewed differently
Even of the same event
It may lead to more than
A little internal torment
When it reaches the end
Does anyone see it coming
Even when it's right there
Most can't hear the drumming
People tend to remain bliss
They don't like a hassle
They all look the other way
As they live in their own little castle
When things go wrong
It doesn't take a diplomat
To know to avoid things
Exactly like that
Nobody