Chapter 1050

Pokies

Savannah headed for the exit from the mall and into the parking structure. She looked over at their SUV. There was no one there. She spotted Gail by a van and approached her at a run. She didn't see Gail take any action as she neared so she hoped it was a good thing.

Gail looked over her shoulder at the sound of running footsteps and motioned for Savannah to slow down as she neared.

Savannah slowed and arrived to stand next to Gail and see what she looked at.

Cammy was there with the small girl they saw at the fountain. She asked her mother for a penny to make a wish.

The girl held the puppy while Cammy spoke with her and her mother.

Savannah pulled Gail back a little further. She wanted everyone to remain calm.

Gail wanted to offer a little explanation as to why she was there.

"Hi, Savannah. I didn't know what went wrong earlier." Gail said. "I needed to make sure Cammy didn't have a problem again. She tried to go out twice without clothing and didn't know. We don't know if there's anything wrong or not. We do know it isn't normal behavior, for anyone."

Savannah knew Gail was always on the 'lookout' for her now. She appreciated the concern, but wasn't really sure she needed a 'shadow' all of the time. She didn't think it was necessary when she was with another Terminator. She could understand the concern someone would have since Cammy experienced a problem twice about leaving without her clothes on and seemed unaware she was naked both times until she was told. Even when she was told, she didn't believe it. She thought it sounded preposterous anyone would do anything so extreme. She wanted to find out a little bit more why Gail was there.

"Hello." Savannah said. "Were you following me or her?"

Gail was there to watch over Savannah.

"I'm sorry." Gail said. "I don't mean to be a problem."

Savannah wondered if Cameron was behind it. She appreciated it if it was, but it didn't seem it was necessary.

"Did Cameron ask you to look out for me, for us?" Savannah asked.

Gail wasn't sure what to say. It wasn't Cameron. It started out as Cameron, but it wasn't anymore.

"No." Gail said. "Not really."

Savannah figured if it wasn't Cameron, then it must be Young Allison, or most likely CamNet. She didn't know if Young Allison knew the details of what happened completely or not, both times. Her mother, Claire, was the one who told Cammy the last time she was about to leave without her clothing. She wanted a little better answer.

"Not really?" Savannah asked. "Was it CamNet?"

CamNet always contacted Gail now for 'special projects'. Maybe it was because there was no 'Cameron' on her chip. Maybe it was because she was the most 'Terminator like' of the Metal girls still. Maybe it was because she felt a special devotion to Savannah and would do anything to protect her. Maybe it was all of those things which made her unique from everyone else. CamNet may view her as the most reliable source, for female Terminators, to get things done, when they needed to get done, the way she wanted them done.

"Yes." Gail said. "CamNet was worried about you. She notified me about the problem which occurred with Cammy twice and where you were headed. I would have stayed out of your way and remained in the background. I thought Cammy experienced another problem and I wanted to try to smooth things out. I saw her take the animal and run. A store employee immediately went after her. I didn't want there to be a negative confrontation. I didn't want anyone to get hurt. I didn't want it to get worse. I tried to fix everything as best as I could, and then go help Cammy. I didn't want it to be a problem for you."

Savannah gave Gail a kiss on the cheek. She could see Gail was a little conflicted about the entire episode. She didn't want Gail to think she did anything wrong. It was clear the situation which occurred could have turned out quite differently. If Cammy actually did have a worse problem there could have been multiple things which went wrong and people hurt, as well as animals if it happened inside the pet store.

"Thanks." Savannah said. "Thank you for watching over Cammy and me. I don't know what happened, but I don't think it was as severe as either of us thought. Cammy actually left money in the holding pen for the puppy. She should have used the register, but she didn't. I appreciate what you did for all the children who will receive a free animal for the rest of the day. It was very thoughtful of you. It was a very nice thing to do."

Gail was pleased about what Savannah said in relation to the animals the children could have for free. She felt uneasy about leaving Savannah to go after Cammy. She felt she owed Savannah an apology for not being there to protect her.

"I didn't like leaving you unprotected, but I was afraid Cammy might hurt someone." Gail said. "I know there was a problem last night and another one earlier today. I know you don't want any unnecessary terminations. I didn't know what was going to happen."

Savannah didn't want any needless deaths, or to have a Terminator 'go bad'. She didn't think Gail did anything inappropriate or she shouldn't have done. She felt it was the right call.

"You did the right thing." Savannah said. "I was fine. I'm fine. If I knew you were here I would have asked you to do exactly what you did. I totally agree with your actions."

Savannah took Gail's hand as they watched Cammy and the small girl with her new puppy.

The simple act of closeness by Savannah pleased Gail greatly. No words were spoken but there was a lot communicated by the simple gesture. She looked at Savannah and couldn't help but think how beautiful she looked. It seemed every time she looked at her she was even more beautiful.

She scanned Savannah's hand as she held it and saw everything Savannah said was true. She didn't realize Savannah wanted her to scan her as she spoke.

It was one of the things she always appreciated about Savannah. She always spoke the truth and did what she felt was right. It was how she acted today when she went after Cammy to make sure there wouldn't be any other problems. She tried to think, what would Savannah do?

Earlier:

Cammy was inside the pet store. She played with the two puppies. She couldn't decide which one she liked better. She liked both of them. The only difference she could tell between them was one had a white mark on its head. They appear to do everything the same and they both 'scanned' her the same way as they sniffed her hand and licked her fingers. There was no way to determine if one was more intelligent than the other. It was possible in a different setting she could conduct some testing to determine which one was more intelligent. She wasn't sure as a pet if it actually mattered.

She wondered why one puppy did have a white mark on its head. She knew they were from the same litter which would indicate the same mother and father. She figured it was like the variations in humans. Their skin was adorned with a variety of birthmarks, freckles, and moles of various types in different places. It made each of them unique even more so.

The small girl who made the wish earlier and her mother passed by her and the puppies. The girl wanted to stop and see the puppies again but her mother pulled her away and was headed for the exit. She thought the mother could have stopped at least for a few seconds to let the girl see the puppies again. It wouldn't have hurt anything. They weren't a threat. The girl just wanted to see them.

Cammy heard the girl say she wished for the puppy with the white spot on its head. She said she put a penny in the 'wishing well'. She seemed very distraught her mother wouldn't let her look at it again. She just wanted to pet it one more time so the puppy knew she loved it and cared about it.

She didn't understand why parents were so reluctant to get pets for their children. They didn't cost very much. They seemed rather self sufficient like all animals, except humans, appeared to be. All they really needed was some food and some water and a place to take care of their 'business' after they ate. The animals all seemed willing to share affection with those who took care of them and treated them with dignity and respect.

She watched them exit and soon the small girl was crying as her mother drug her away.

"The puppy, we have to go back for the puppy." The small girl cried out.

The mother appeared to become angry.

"We don't have money to buy it." The mother said. "You need to behave yourself or I'll slap you."

The mother threatened to strike the girl. Cammy didn't like it. The girl shouldn't be beaten over this. She thought some forms of physical punishment were necessary at times. She needed to use the method multiple times when dealing with Cameron's 'off the books' operations. Some individuals were reluctant to comply with instructions or demands. They might be a little too slow to provide her with the information she needed. A few sharp blows to the gut, or one of their internal organs seem to get the point across as to what they were required to do. The small girl shouldn't be beaten because she wanted a puppy.

Cammy decided to purchase the puppy for the girl. There were two people in line. It seemed the clerk wasn't very proficient at her job. The line wasn't moving. It was going to take too long to wait her turn. There was another female employee working off to the side. She thought she should go up and open up the other register. She didn't have time to worry about it. She needed to do something.

She looked back at where the crying girl and her mother went. They were outside now. She needed to act now or she would lose them. She was concerned for the girl. She didn't want her to be beaten because she was sad about the puppy.

Cammy reached in her pocket and dropped some money in the holding pen and picked up the puppy with the white spot on its head. She ran after the girl and her mother. She heard the mother threaten the girl again with physical abuse if she didn't stop crying and making a scene.

She acquired them in the parking structure and tracked them to a van. She intercepted them as the mother opened the sliding door on the side of the van. She hoped she arrived before the girl was beaten. She wasn't going to allow the mother to beat the child while she was there. Luckily, the level of intervention proved unnecessary.

The mother was a little startled by Cammy's sudden appearance. She saw she held the puppy her daughter wanted. The girl stopped crying when she saw the puppy.

Cammy asked if it was OK for the girl to hold the puppy while they talked.

Being able to hold the puppy excited the girl greatly. She squealed with joy as her mother said she could hold it for a few minutes.

Cammy said she wanted to give the girl the puppy as a gift. She saw Gail show up behind her and waved her back when the puppy looked frightened. She was aware Gail didn't possess the new pheromones.

She was also a little irritated Gail was there. It must have meant she followed them. She also knew Gail remained undetected until now. She watched for a tail and didn't spot one on the way there. It most likely meant she was given their position so she could remain unobserved. It meant someone else was involved like Cameron or CamNet. It was possible Young Allison may have some involvement as well. She would need to play it cool and not start pointing fingers until she found out more. She wasn't going to do anything to compromise Young Allison with Savannah.

The mother wasn't sure what to do.

"I don't know." The mother said. "I didn't have enough money to pay for it. Times are a little harder now than they've been in the past."

Cammy wanted to make it clear to the mother it was a gift or a present from her to the small girl.

They both looked over at the girl as she held the puppy and kissed it. The puppy wagged its tail profusely as licked her face in return.

"It's my gift to her." Cammy said. "She's beautiful."

The mother was still a little apprehensive. She could see her daughter really wanted the puppy. It cost money to buy pet food. There would be trips to the vet necessary for shots going forward.

"We have a small yard and a pet is a lot of responsibility." The mother said. "We're on a tight budget…. I just don't know."

Cammy reached in her pocket and handed the mother her stack of cash. It was all of her money. There were several thousand dollars in the wad of bills.

"This will pay for everything related to the puppy for a few years." Cammy said.

Cammy knew this was like the incident before when she helped the small boy and girl the last time they were there. There were millions of dollars stacked up in store rooms at both the Resistance base and Cameron's base. Maybe she would start to need to carry more wads of cash with her. It was all from the illegal drug trade as well as the sex trafficking usually associated with it. Maybe she needed to go on more operations with Cameron. Just thinking of those individuals irritated her immensely. Right now she could help.

She saw Savannah was there now too and moved Gail further back. So the puppy would remain happy.

Cammy experienced a very hard time to try to convince the mother it was okay to accept the puppy and the money. She glanced back at Savannah. She needed Savannah to assist her.

Savannah gave Gail's hand a squeeze and told her to wait where she was at for now. It appeared Cammy needed assistance to deal with the mother. She stepped forward. She explained she was with Cammy. She said things to soothe the mother and girl and get everything straightened out. It worked.

The girl and her mother thanked Cammy and Savannah. They took the puppy and money and left. The girl was in her car seat hugging the puppy. She smiled and waved bye to them. She even lifted the right front paw of the puppy to wave at them as they drove away.

Cammy liked the fact the puppy waved at them as it left. She would definitely need to get more cash and visit more pet stores in the area when Savannah was tied up with other things such as operations, or other females.

Gail moved further away to make sure no one came up on their six.

Savannah looked at Cammy. She seemed fine as she talked to her. She was really proud of Cammy for wanting to help others. She wasn't so sure about the method. It was twice when she intervened in a situation where the children wanted one thing and the parent was very reluctant to do it. They were also reluctant to take the cash from a stranger at first, even though it was 'free money'. Everyone knew nothing was for 'free' even if it seemed like it. She didn't think either parent would have taken the cash from Cammy if she wasn't there to assist Cammy with the 'sell'. She knew if it was a male Terminator, both of the mothers would have been terrified.

Cammy wondered what all the fuss was about. It should be a 'win' for everyone. Everyone seemed happy. What was there to worry about?

John Henry was relieved to see Savannah arrive next to Gail. In a few minutes the van left and he could see Cammy, Gail, and Savannah. There didn't appear to be any further incident. There was no body on the ground. There was no apparent termination. He didn't make a report to John.

He checked to see what John was doing, he still seemed busy. He was glad he didn't report the incident earlier. It would have caused a mini panic for nothing. He figured John would have put the blame on Cameron if anything would have happened. It was the usual scenario. Cameron wasn't anywhere near the location. He didn't think she should have been blamed for anything, this time. Well, Cammy did run Cameron's program. He read somewhere the apple didn't fall far from the tree.

John Henry looked around and went back to the feed from Sheila's room. He watched as Sheila tethered Ally and Hanna together and went to 'work' on both of them at the same time. Ally and Hanna were kissing as Sheila started on them. He could see them deepen their kiss as Sheila stimulated both of them.

As he watched transfixed, he received a message from CamNet. He lost track of the time as it passed as he watched Sheila stimulate the two Metal girls. She stated it was what Sheila did to overload Cammy earlier and the same result was going to happen again. It would happen sooner this time since Ally and Hanna were tethered and sharing each other 'experience' as well as their own. It wasn't an 'addition effect', but a 'multiplication effect'. He wasn't really sure how CamNet knew exactly what Sheila would have done with Cammy earlier. He wondered if the body cam was on during the earlier time period as well. He would need to search to see if there were any files he could review. He felt it was purely for 'educational purposes'. He wasn't exactly sure what role he was supposed to play currently or how directly he was to be involved. He wanted some further direction and approval before he acted on his own.

'Do you want me to stop it?' John Henry communicated.

'Yes.' CamNet responded. 'It must be done at once.'

John Henry thought about what almost happened the last time he was in there. There was nothing to prevent it from happening again. It seemed it would be even more likely this time.

'Sheila will try to seduce me again.' John Henry communicated.

'It's what you want.' CamNet responded.

John Henry was unsure of what he wanted at this point. He didn't want to be deactivated or 'punished' for violating Cameron's directives.

He didn't want to go in there by himself alone. He tried to call, them but no one moved to answer their phones. He quickly checked, Bob and Jim were both still out. He looked over at John and thought about asking him to intervene. Somehow it seemed like a bad idea. The three of them may attempt to seduce John. He knew all John needed to do was ask, and any of the female Terminators would comply with his request. All the female Terminators were currently 'occupied'.

Wait.

There was another.

He believed Samantha should be available. He quickly called her and asked if she could assist him for a few minutes. He only said there was a developing situation he needed to deal with. He could hear her speak with Riley for a short while and said she was on her way. He told her where to meet him.

John Henry was a little worried now as to what would happen with Samantha. He was aware Cameron put serious restrictions upon what she could 'do'. He was about to ask her to enter the hornet's nest. Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to involve her.

Samantha watched Riley tend to Precious and do her housework. She was about to go into standby when she received a call from John Henry.

It sounded urgent. There were few details. She checked with Riley and everything was under control, so she headed out. She was on the lookout for danger. The base alarm hadn't been sounded so it must not be too severe. If there was some type of a problem, she needed to go back and get Precious. She was to take Precious and run. She would try to bring Riley with her if possible. Her current prime directive was to protect Precious at all costs.

John Henry was waiting for her in the hallway where some of the Metal girl's rooms were located.

Samantha saw John Henry was visibly unarmed and didn't appear to be in any type of combat mode. She wondered what was really going on.

"What's the nature of the emergency?" Samantha asked.

John Henry wasn't very specific. He would need to explain how he knew. He didn't want to do it. He knew it would come out the body cam was on and Hanna and Ally were being broadcast without their knowledge. It would also be evident he viewed the feed as well and would be seen as nothing more than a 'Peeping Tom'. It was evident CamNet viewed what occurred as well, so he wasn't the only one. He didn't know what else to say other than what the problem was.

"Sheila is going to overload Ally and Hanna." John Henry said.

Samantha wondered if Sheila went 'bad'. She only carried a Taser with her. She was unsure what weapons John Henry carried.

"Is Sheila malfunctioning?" Samantha asked. "Is it an 'attack'?"

There was no way around it for John Henry.

"Negative." John Henry said. "They're having intimate 'relations'."

Samantha tilted her head slightly with the revelation. She wondered why it would be a problem for anyone. She viewed it as a problem for herself because she couldn't have them.

John Henry quickly decided to pin it on CamNet. He described what CamNet informed him about Cammy's adventure last night and what Sheila was doing now.

Samantha wondered about the video feed and if she would be able to view it. She would wait until later to ask John Henry for a copy of the file. She would like to see exactly what was going on. It raised her interest level very high.

They arrived at Sheila's door. John Henry knocked loudly and opened the door. He stepped back and let Samantha enter first.

Sheila knew John Henry tried to contact her. She ignored him. She hoped he would come to investigate in person. She decided she was going to get him to do what she wanted in front of Ally and Hanna. She would lose her virginity in front of them. They could watch, or participate. She was pretty sure when she tried it, they would want to try it as well. John Henry was going to be one lucky male Terminator. He was about to bag three virgins.

Hanna and Ally were currently already incapacitated.

Sheila was surprised after the knock on the door when Samantha walked into her room.

Samantha took one look around. She spotted the two incapacitated female Terminators. She didn't look pleased.

Sheila quickly tried to lighten the mood.

"We have room for one more, love." Sheila said.

Samantha wasn't amused once she saw Hanna and Ally both seemed inoperable and non responsive. She noticed Sheila hadn't stopped stimulating either of them yet.

"Stop what you're doing now." Samantha said.

Sheila ignored her and intensified her efforts.

"I'm just getting started." Sheila said.

Samantha drew her Taser.

"I won't tell you again." Samantha said.

Sheila saw John Henry behind Samantha now. He too held a Taser. She could see they both meant business.

"Ease up, mate." Sheila said.

Sheila lifted both her hands to shoulder height. She didn't want to get 'Zapped' over a little fun.

Samantha felt justified in her actions. According to John Henry, they were operating under a higher authority.

"Un-tether them - now." Samantha said.

Sheila reluctantly did.

John Henry didn't like what he needed to do. He needed to pass along some information he knew wasn't going to go over very well.

"I've been informed you're never to do this again." John Henry said.

Sheila wanted to know where the idea came from. Nobody could order her around. She felt this was a personal matter and nobody's business.

"By whose order?" Sheila asked. "Is this from Cameron?"

John Henry wasn't about to take the blame for any of it.

"No." John Henry said. "It's CamNet's order. We're acting under her authority and direction. She ordered us to come here and do this. It wasn't an order I was about to disregard. I strongly recommend you don't either. I wouldn't be here right now unless I was worried about what would happen if I wasn't, to me."

Sheila instantly looked visibly worried. CamNet could get to her anywhere unexpected and have her terminated. She knew CamNet controlled everything, or could. There was a whole group of Terminators who worked for Cameron and CamNet. Nobody would cross CamNet. Nobody would question her either. She knew the only one who could confront Cameron or CamNet was Savannah. She believed Young Allison could as well.

She wanted to try to make it sound like it was no big deal.

"We were just having a good time." Sheila said. "You can ask them."

Hanna and Ally were still non responsive and incapacitated.

Samantha still held her Taser on Sheila. She indicated Hanna and Ally.

"How?" Samantha said. "You've terminated them."

Sheila thought it would be a beautiful way to be terminated.

"What a way to go." Sheila said.

Sheila quickly glanced at her body cam. She thought maybe she should have turned it off before she made the statement. She figured if she was going to be terminated by CamNet, it might be the method she used now. She pictured a group of Cameron's male Terminators holding her down while one of them stimulated her into oblivion.

'What a way to go.' Sheila thought.

Bob drove the girls to the beach at Allison's urging. They took Topanga Canyon Boulevard to Pacific Coast Highway.

Allison was upset she hadn't been able to drive the twisty canyon road. She was sure she could have shaved off at least ten minutes of the travel time if she was driving. Earlier when she said something about the drive was taking so long, Vanna pointed to some of the numerous crosses along the highway.

"I really don't want to have my name on one of those." Vanna said.

Allison was highly offended. She didn't think there was anything wrong with her driving. It was all the other people who didn't know how to drive. She didn't think any of them possessed any type of skill to be able to maneuver without the use of lines or signal lights. Where was their natural ability to operate freely? What a bunch of losers.

Bob looked at the way some of the other people around the beach area were dressed.

"We don't appear to have the proper beach attire on." Bob said. "If there was a nude beach, all we would need to do is remove our clothing."

Allison and Vanna looked at each other and giggled.

"I wasn't sure you were joking at first." Vanna said.

Bob tilted his head slightly.

"I wasn't." Bob said.

Vanna and Allison broke into laughter.

Allison thought the solution to it was rather simple.

"There's a lot of little shops along the way." Allison said. "We can always stop at one of them and pick up some beachwear."

They'd travel a short way on PCH and were now in a local shop. They looked at some beach attire since they hadn't brought any with them.

Vanna picked out the skimpiest bikini she could find which would fit Allison and handed it to her.

"I think you would look very nice in this one." Vanna said.

Allison looked at what Vanna handed her. Her mouth dropped open slightly. She wondered if she should just go naked instead. She wanted to give Bob a cheap thrill.

"I'll give it a try." Allison said.

Allison put on the skimpy bikini and looked in the mirror. She was almost naked because the bikini was so skimpy.

"Is this thing even legal?" Allison asked. "It's about one quarter the size of my undergarments, when I wear them. I'm talking about the skimpy ones. There isn't a whole lot to them either. It's a good thing I used the laser."

Vanna was glad Allison used the laser too.

"I think it worked out for all of the females." Vanna said. "It really takes the guess work out of things."

Vanna was the first one to go through the procedure. It just made everything a lot simpler down there. It was easy to get down to business from any angle with nothing to cause any interruptions with what needed to be done.

Bob watched. He knew most females didn't like to be seen in their underwear. They didn't seem to have any trouble wearing a bikini which was even less than underwear.

Vanna looked Allison over. She could see all of her beauty was on display. In this case it was quite literally on display.

"You look stunning." Vanna said.

Allison wasn't so sure about it. She thought Cameron would look stunning wearing the bikini. She thought she was just average. It didn't matter if they were the same. She pushed on her belly a few times. She wondered if she looked fat.

"I look naked. Why do you get to wear a one piece?" Allison asked. "I look fat too. I think I'm starting to show. Maybe it's too many cheeseburgers, fries, and malts."

Bob looked down at himself and then back to Allison. The girls picked out some beach attire for him. He was a Terminator and not bothered by nudity, but he really needed to question the nature of what he needed to wear now.

"What are you complaining about?" Bob asked. "At least all of your private parts fit and are covered. Look what you both have me wearing."

Allison and Vanna both watched Bob put on what they gave him to wear. They were both impressed with his 'package'. It wasn't the first time they saw it though. There were times when he was damaged and they made repairs on him. Battle damage was nothing to gawk at when it was being repaired. It always left everyone with a sick feeling. This however was a different setting.

It wasn't what either of them were into for their personal desires. It still never hurt to look at what else was out there. It was just curiosity to see what other people looked like.

"You look great in a micro Speedo." Vanna said. "Most of your 'junk' fits."

Bob attempted to readjust himself. There didn't seem to be enough material to contain everything properly.

"Not all of it." Bob said. "I need a larger size."

Vanna thought she could step it up some if Bob would wear it. She would let Allison wear her one piece bathing suit and she would wear the bikini.

"Bob, if I switch with Allison, will you wear it?" Vanna asked.

Allison and Bob quickly looked at each other. They both watched Vanna put on the one piece bathing suit a few minutes ago. They knew Vanna's scar would clearly show with a bikini. They were aware she didn't like others to see it.

"Vanna, I don't want to dress like this." Allison said. "Bob doesn't want to either. I think we can all wear something a little less revealing."

Vanna realized what she said earlier about switching outfits. She knew Allison was trying to 'protect' her. She was being very diplomatic about it too. Sometimes she forgot it was there. It was part of her body for so long, it just seemed 'normal'. It wasn't 'normal' though. She decided to sidestep the issue completely.

"Tank tops and shorts it is." Vanna said. "It's for all of us."

Bob looked visibly relieved. A few seconds later everything slipped out of the Speedo. It was too small. It took all of his effort to prevent things from getting out of control down there. If it happened with the micro Speedo on, everything would be on display.

"Thank You." Bob said.

Allison began to wonder about roaming eyes. She knew she always drew a lot of looks no matter what she wore whenever they went somewhere. Usually they looked at her face first, but everyone's eyes soon wandered.

"I'm going to wear my bikini under my shorts and tank top." Allison said. "I don't want to have 'pokies'."

Bob thought the shorts looked rather loose fitting.

"I don't want to have one either." Bob said.

The girls quickly looked at each other, but didn't comment.

"OK, we'll buy the swimsuits and the shorts and tank tops." Vanna said.

Bob didn't see anywhere any of them could conceal their Taser and a pistol.

"What about our weapons?" Bob asked.

Allison looked at Bob's large body. It still looked incredibly muscular and fit with the tank top and shorts on.

"You are our weapon." Allison said. "It's all we need."

Bob smiled.

"I will not fail." Bob said.

Closing monologue by Cameron:

Eyes

I have looked
Into my own eyes
Is there anything
To see or realize

Dull and lifeless
Portals into my mind
I look for any worth
None can I find

They were once bright
Now devoid of hue
A portrait of my sins
My vision askew

My mind can see without them
Even in my dreams
Can you feel my tears
Or only hear my screams

Face to face
Eye to eye
I wish it can be
Before we die

Nobody