Chapter Two

The days went by unnoticed as I avoided the team. Hiding in my room and on occasion leaving the tower for a brief errand. Obviously I wasn't the only one avoiding someone as I hadn't seen Robin since that call. Spending so much time by myself I have had a lot of time to think. And thinking about Robin consumed me. Why would he kiss me? Why did I kiss back? Why did he taste of coffee that late in the day? The taste is so vivid I have switched my tea to coffee more often now, in hopes to remember the taste.

My fingers rasp on the table as I sit in the corner of the coffee shop. I look to my ripped black jeans with the snug combat boots laced to my ankles. The warm green sweater keeps the April chill away. I love days where I can sneak off without the cloak and leotard. Now if only I could hide the purple hair. It's almost 11am and I already dread the Sunday training in store today. Every week each team member must have an hour training with Robin to ensure goals are being met. This training wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for Robin brining up Slade last week. Or kissing me after. My sigh rings out as I slip out my phone. Pulling up the texts I decide to try and skip the encounter with him today.

I'm not feeling the best, let's reschedule training. I shoot him the text with a heavy feeling in my chest. I wait for the response that never comes. Reading my book I sit in the shop, zoning out into legends of Dragon Slayers.

"You seem to be feeling fine" his voice rings out. Jerking I dart up to meet his eyes. About knocking my coffee over I'm taken aback.

Jeans snug to his body with a grey sweater. His hair is flat and messy, not being in the usual gelled spikes. His eyes are unmasked as I stare at them. The pools of blue water stare at me with such nakedness. The shocked expression on my face shows.

"Wha- what?" I stammer over my words. He smiles softly pulling the chair out in front of me. His body moves, sitting down as his fingers trace the curling swirls on the cup. I clear my throat, "what are you doing here?"

"Checking on your condition." He smiles, "you seem fine" he shrugs

"You seem naked" I mumble.

"Sorry, I figured you out of everyone would be okay with the natural look." He smiles lightly avoiding eye contact.

"It's just shocking." I lift the cup to my lip, sipping the semi warm coffee

"We need to talk Raven." He sighs.

"I think avoiding each other all week has been talk enough." I mark the page in my book, closing it.

"Rae, I should have controlled myself." He sighs out finally looking into my eyes. The twinkle in the blue sapphires shine.

"Same." I throw my book in my bag. Beginning to gather my things to leave.

"I don't regret it." He admits. Standing with my bag, flustered I go to leave. He stands in my way. I stand clutching my bag, "please let me through." I feel like I could cry.

"Raven, please just talk to me" he reaches for my arm.

"Go talk to your girlfriend." I bite out.

"Im breaking up with Star." He sighs.

"Great, another thing on my conscious." I cross my arms. "I have to go." I push past him. He follows me trying to plead his case.

"Raven I can't pretend that I'm in love with her anymore." He pleads as I storm down the street.

Anger fills my body and I can't take it anymore. I turn around sharply as we're face to face. "Then tell her Dick" I breath out trying to control myself.

Not able to stand being in his presence I press off the ground floating up. Usually in pedestrian attire I try to keep my powers to a minimum. Flying away from boy wonder I take a deep breath without his feelings flooding into my mind. His uncertainty is all I feel. Robin has always had thick walls that he keeps locked tight.

Every so often he allows them to seep out. When he catches them, they're bound back in. He will often look at me to see if I caught them. As he already knew, I did. The worst torture for the boy wonder would be psychological. Making him go inside his mind and being up every suppressed emotion. Before I've asked him if he wanted to slowly process them. I could go into his mind and dig few out, work piece by piece on them. However it's always pushed away by him.

His feelings of uncertainty reaching me doesn't feel like an accident. It feels like a ploy to guilt me or make me tell him what to do. I can't make this decision for him. I can barely make decisions like this for myself. Truth be told, I'm not sure how I feel about him. I know I want to kiss him again, and taste his sweet coffee lips. A hint of a smile sits on my face as I land on top of the tower thinking of his lips on mine. But then again, relationships would be destroyed if I did that. My friendship with Star would be gone. The guilt already eats at me from the kisses we shared a week ago. I couldn't imagine doing it again.

The safe place would be to stay friends with Robin. I'm only 18, he's 19 for a few more weeks. We're still too young to decide if we will be together forever. Robin needs to work on himself, and I need to find myself. I look over to the city as it stays with the normal busy of the days.

Deciding I should go inside and hide before Dick gets home I step through the roof door. Guiding my hand against the walls I walk down the steps carefully. Finding peace in the smooth concrete on my fingertips. It's the simple things you notice that are satisfactory.

Feeling relief as I venture down into the tower, free from Dicks emotions. Suddenly like waves a new emotion hits me and my stomach is tight in pain. Seeking out the source as I hold my stomach, I rush as I feel like I could vomit. Into the bathroom I rush, feeling my mouth watering. I'm met with someone else already in the process of it. The red haired alien sits with her head in the porcelain bowl puking. Someone being sick had never sent me over the edge, why now? Why am I standing here watching her puke?

The feeling rests as I understand what's going on. I look around spotting the object. My mind freezes and my heart bellows into my stomach. Her puking was from emotions. Deep emotions surrounding a pregnancy test on the bathroom counter. I don't dare look, I quickly close the door. Pretending my existence never happened. I was never there. I never saw that.

I breath as I squeeze my eyes shut leaning on the wall next to the bathroom. I saw it. I know about it. I can't pretend. Is Star.. pregnant? My body reacts before my mind even recognizes what I'm doing. Rushing into my room I lock the door behind me. I have to leave, now.

My tears roll down my face, I don't know what the true feeling are I have for Robin. But I know I can't watch this wrecking ball. I know him too well. In the next few weeks he will marry her. Marry her and wait hand and foot on her. Carrying his child he will feel obligated to be there.

What if she's not pregnant? I ask myself. Sighing out I gather clothes packing them into a duffel bag. Either way it's been too long here. It's time to find me. To go out on my own, away from the titans. Picking up the photo of all of us together I pack it in my bag. Someday I will contact them. But for now. I need to go.

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