Music Playing: Je Te Laisserai Des Mots (piano) by noel. smt

For Mika, I took a picture of every time I thought Satsuki looked so pretty. I guess I understand why Nonon's being a plumb fool but she'll come around, I think. She tells me that Satsuki is everywhere and I told her that I do agree but not in the way that she thinks. Satsuki is everywhere. I see her everywhere and I wonder if Mika feels her everywhere, too. I tend to see Satsuki the most when the sunsets.

She's usually dancing, as the sunsets. She's in her garden with the flowers she's loved, when the sun starts to rise. I see her reading in her kitchen in the still hours. Sometimes, I feel her hand on my shoulder and, other times, I can hear her voice. I have memories of her laughing and seeing her do little things around her house. Sometimes, I see her watching TV with Ryuuko and the girls. I think, at least a few times, I heard her voice humming a song. One night, I saw her playing the piano along with Ryuuko.

Mika, one time, asked me why I was taking so many pictures and I told her that I was taking pictures for every time someone looked beautiful. I didn't tell her who but I told her that her mom was beautiful.

Memories turned into little movies, little movies of Satsuki doing things. I remember one, where the sun was setting, and she was knitting, before she stopped knitting to watch the sunset. Satsuki, did you ever finish that thing you were knitting? I think I have one pic of her where she was knitting, only, she wasn't looking at the camera. Thinking about it, I remember that Sats was camera shy. Yes, I think that would be an interesting thing to tell Mika—Her mother was quite pretty but she was shy, especially with cameras.

That's not the only memory like that, I know, as I got a million of 'em, but it's one of the "unfinished" ones. Unfinished, I guess, because I don't really know if Satsuki ever got to finish the things she was doing in those memories. Thinking about it, her diary was a thing she finished because she was done writing in it by the time Mika was born. Thinking about it more, I wonder why she bookmarked those entries specifically. Satsuki, if it were just nerves, would you have read them over again? Of course, I know Satsuki enough anyways to know that she always tends to plan ahead. She probably wrote in her diary and bookmarked in case it was nerves but she wrote us all letters in case it wasn't nerves.

Mmm, I'm thinking about Mika again and the photos I'll show her. I wonder if I'll actually have the words to say when Mika's birthday comes. Like Ryuuko-chan, I wish I had more stories about Satsuki.

I guess I'll tell her about the sunsets her mother like to look at. It hit me more, I think, when I remember Satsuki dancing on the beach as the sun set. I don't remember why, though, but I definitely remember that and she was having a good time. Hmm, I wonder if she ever drew a picture of that. I hope to find that picture so I can put it in the scrapbook I'm putting together.

I think, once, I told Mika that, when the sun sets on a windy day, it's Satsuki dancing. Mika never told me what she thought of that but I like to think it's a nice thought.

Notes: I cycled through a couple of tracks before deciding that this one (Je Te Laisserai Des Mots (piano)) fit best.