I awoke to the sunlight, usually I'd be glad id managed to sleep so long but when you've got a killer gin headache and the light is making your eyes sting more than you feel they ever have before.

A couple of minutes later I heard a knock at the door , there's only one person it could be and that's the last thing I need right now.

"Sharon I've brought you a cup of milky tea,just the way you like it darlin."

"Oh right ... thankyou, anything else?"

"Yeah I think we should talk about last night."

"Oh mum please , not now well at least not before I've had a pain killer for this headache , I feel like someone's building a house in there."

"I thought you might say that , which is why I've bought you a couple of paracetamol,and anyway I've told you it's not clever ain't I " she laughs.

Half an hour later , I've had a shower and feel a little bit more normal as I go into the lounge I know we had to talk about what happened , mum won't let it go I know taht much.

"Right so are you gonna tell me what happened last night , or am I going to have to go into that pub or club and ask them?"

"Fine fine , I don't know how to explain it."

"Well then just try your best to explain it , for me yeah."

"Okay well it's just... I've alot going on in my head I feel so so guilty over the baby I just can't shake the feeling of how disgusted I feel in myself. It's like even though I feel no I know I've made the right decision, it still hurts." I sob

"Oh shal Sharon look at me ... you don't have to feel like that the hell not just Grant but that whole family put you through."

"You can say that your my mum , but I probably deserved half of it."

"No Sharon you didn't and I may not of been there but I know that no one , and especially not you deserves that...and I'm so so sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most but I'm here now and I promise that no I swear it I'm not going anywhere again,well until you get sick of me and are begging me to go away." She laughs.

"That'll never happen , I miss my dad so much it's hard to explain it properly I can't loose you too."

"Hey hey...Nothings gonna happen to me."

"You can't promise that though can you... I mean I didn't think I'd be 25 divorced, no dad and just had an abortion,but life has funny ways of making things happen."

"I know and I know what your saying shal , but you can't let past mistakes determined your future. A year or two from now you could of met the love of your life and have a baby of your own. Just because you wasn't ready now doesn't mean you'll never be ready okay?."

"Yeah" I smiled I knew she was right , I mean mums know don't they , life will work it's self out it has to doesn't it as at the end of the day it has to go on.

"Come here sweetheart , whatever happens from this moment I'm here." She says as we hugged

I hope that when I have children one do they feel they can speak to me about things like this , as hard as it is.