"Hi miss watts, I'm doctor Anderson.".
"Erm hi...".
"Can you please just tell us what's going on?" I hear mum say over me "she's been going out of her mind here".
"Yeah Erm , there's no easy way to say this miss watts".
And in that moment my stomach dropped which felt like further than it ever had in my life.
" I'm Afraid from the scan of your ovaries and womb plus your blood results , it seems pretty likely that you won't be able to have children".
"What?" I said as me and mum both gasped.
"It's okay darling I'm here I'm here" my said as she wrapped her arms around me as I sobbed.
"Unable to have children?" I hear mum ask.
"Yes well it seems miss watts has an infection , we can't be 100% sure if this would of happened with or without the antibiotics but it seems it's likely it came from the abortion a few weeks ago.
"Is there anything I can get you?" He asks
"No Erm I'm fine thankyou I think I just need some space."
"Of course I really am sorry and you must believe that there's no way to know if it's caused by not taking the antibiotics this is extremely unlikely but it has happened even to women who have taken them."
I'm positive he was just saying that too try and make me feel better but it didn't I found it quite patronizing to be honest with you.
An hour or so later:
"Sharon will you be okay if I go home to fetch you some things?"
"Yeah I'll be fine I could do with the time alone to be honest thankyou mum"
"Okay darling I'll be back as soon as possible.
Whilst left alone with my thoughts I went over and over the what ifs , what if I'd just taken the antibiotics? What if I'd just put on my big girl pants and had this baby? What if grant would of been no where near as bad as I thought he would? What if that baby could of been the making of me? It all got to much as i silently cried oh I am glad I paid extra for my own room the amount I've cried the past few hours people would be begging me too stop and get a grip if they could see me.
Suddenly I had another wave off thoughts , am I really that horrible that this had to happen to me have I not suffered enough through years of the Mitchell's , mum and dad , dad dying?. Was what I did really so evil I deserved this?.
The end.