Disclaimer: I do not own Wizards of Waverly Place or its supporting characters. I am simply borrowing them for my own enjoyment.

Warning: This is a 'Jalex'‚ (Justin/Alex) incest fiction. If that trope bothers you‚ please do not read.

Summary: My name is Alex Russo‚ and I have an unhealthy obsession with my older brother Justin. I am trying as hard as I possibly can to not give in to these unnatural urges within me‚ but it is getting harder and harder to resist with each passing day.

A/N: Alright guys, this is WAY different than what I've ever posted before. Firstly‚ I have only ever posted Inuyasha fanfiction. Secondly‚ I have never been brave enough to post something as… taboo… as what I'm posting now. I have also never written anything in first person pov‚ so I'm giving that a try with this fic.

If all goes well‚ I may be encouraged to write more of these two in the future!

I really hope the characters aren't too OOC. I've watched the show countless times and am currently rewatching it now‚ so I'm trying! This is just the first fic I am attempting that isn't Inuyasha related. Lol.

FWI: This fiction takes place after season two‚ shortly after the first Wizards of Waverly Place Movie.

Now then‚ I hope y'all enjoy what my brain has come up with!

My Obsession

Prologue

It all started about three and a half months ago when I was forced to go on a vacation with my family. If I could have stayed behind with Harper like I had wanted‚ this never would have happened.

When we made it to Puerto Rico‚ I decided to try and make the most of it. I was so not into the whole 'family spending time with family' thing, but whatever. I met a cute guy‚ which I now realize was much too old for me and only wanted to use me anyway. Again‚ whatever. That doesn't even bother me anymore.

What bothers me‚ is what had happened during the trip to cause me such confusion now.

I made a stupid‚ life altering mistake. One that could never be taken back‚ not even with the use of magic. I was an idiot‚ I was angry‚ and I just wanted to do my own thing and to stop being treated like a little kid. I am sixteen now after all‚ I should be old enough to make my own decisions.

I seem to have gotten off topic.

The point is‚ I was dumb. I made an idiotic wish while holding our family's extremely powerful‚ very dangerous wand. I nearly tore my family apart. My parents didn't remember each other. They didn't even remember me‚ or Max‚ or… Justin.

We would have disappeared forever if it wasn't for the stone of dreams. We had to go through so much just to get it‚ only to lose it again. Max had stayed behind to keep an eye out on our parents while Justin and I had gone on ahead with a couple of strange ex-wizards.

While my older brother and I were triapsing through the rain forest‚ we bickered like we usually do‚ but it was somehow… different. I felt closer to him than I ever had before. When we had set up a small place to make camp for the night‚ I sat next to him and for some reason‚ my heart had sort of fluttered. It was strange. It made me feel things that I definitely should not be feeling toward my own freaking brother.

I ignored the feeling. We talked; actually talked. And it was kinda‚ sort of… nice? We were so close‚ and I felt heat flourish within me when I looked into his grayish-green eyes. I didn't mean to glance down at his lips‚ but it happened anyway. I was so horrified with myself and embarrassed‚ but I don't think he noticed.

Thank fuck.

It had amazed me‚ that while I was terrified for what was happening with our family because of my stupid wish‚ that he was still able to make me smile‚ make me laugh. I never felt so close to him before that moment.

My heart was fluttering as we went from smiling‚ back to being serious again. I was so confused by my conflicting emotions. Why did it feel different this time? Why were we sitting so close? Why did the heat of his body so close to mine make me feel things I have never felt before?

Why was I getting lost in his gaze?

Why did I keep looking at his lips?

Then he mentioned being a good brother. And it was like a bucket of ice cold water was dumped on my head. I didn't say anything for a minute‚ the cursed word brother echoing inside my head.

I acted like I hadn't been feeling an attraction toward him‚ continuing on with the conversation after a moment's hesitation‚ and thanked him. He really is the best big brother I could have ever asked for‚ and here I am being such a confused little girl. I vowed to push those annoying little thoughts out of my head and deal with the task at hand.

Even as we laid down next to each other to go to sleep. Even as I felt his body so close to mine‚ keeping me warm in the cool night air.

I ignored the fluttering of my heart‚ the heat in my stomach‚ and the blush I could feel raising along my cheeks.

Then I fell asleep facing the other way‚ trying to ignore the voice in my head saying there is nothing wrong with feeling this way‚ when there clearly was. I just wanted the closeness of him to stop feeling so… right. Because it was so fucking wrong!

At least I managed to fall asleep without embarrassing myself further.

And the next day‚ I kept more of a distance between us‚ focusing on getting the stone and saving our family. I could deal with whatever the hell was wrong with me after everything was back to normal.

Or so I thought.

The look on my brother's face when he had forgotten who I was nearly broke me. Tears streaming down my cheeks; it was the most I think I have ever cried before. I lost Mom and Dad. I lost Max. Now I'm losing my big brother too.

I'm losing everything in that moment and there was no one else in the world I needed more than him.

Justin.

I tried to remind him who I was. I tried to tell him I'm his little sister and even though I annoy the hell out of him‚ he still loves me. I didn't tell him I loved him‚ because in that moment I realized that I truly did. I loved him‚ but not in the way a sister should love her brother.

Somehow‚ throughout the chaos of this vacation‚ I fell in love with my older brother.

That had become abundantly clear when he had forgotten me. Forgotten us. He was the one who always fixed things when I messed up‚ but he couldn't fix it this time. He wouldn't be able to fix my mistakes ever again. Not anymore. I loved him‚ and in that moment‚ I thought everything was about to be changed forever.

I hugged him. It felt so good to have him wrap his arms around me. When I pulled back and wiped my tears away‚ I took a few deep breaths in‚ and asked what I'm supposed to do.

But he had no clue.

Because he didn't remember me.

I watched as he was taken from me. Ripped away just like Max was. My heart shattered into a million tiny pieces. I screamed his name. I just needed everything to go back to the way it was before. Before I made that stupid fucking wish.

My brothers were gone. Justin… gone. My parents didn't know who I was. I would be gone any moment now as well.

I begged my father to help me‚ but I had to do it myself. I tried‚ but I just couldn't. Justin would have known what to do. He would have done the spell and made it all better again. I always looked up to him‚ admired him‚ loved him… and then I was alone. I had no way of fixing it on my own without my savior.

When my mother came back with the stone of dreams‚ I felt so relieved. I knew I could have made the wish so I could have kept my full powers‚ but that's not what I wanted. I wanted everything to be back to exactly the way it was. I wanted my little brother back. I wanted my older brother back. I wanted my parents back. I didn't want a single thing to be changed.

So I made my wish.

And when I came to just before the moment that first dreaded wish had been made‚ I was happier than ever before.

I hugged my mom and told her I loved her. I was just so relieved that it worked. It actually worked.

When I heard his voice‚ my heart skipped a beat. He was back. They were back. I ran to my brothers‚ their names falling from my lips‚ and hugged them both‚ lingering a second longer than I needed to. I just needed to feel Justin's arms around me because I had thought I would never feel them again.

When I looked into his eyes‚ I knew that the feelings that had manifested during this crazy vacation were still present and not going anywhere. Maybe I always felt this way‚ and it had just became clear to me. I don't know. But I pushed them into the back of my mind to show that I had given up being a full wizard until the real wizard's competition. I smiled up at him‚ and he gave me such a warm smile in return. My heart ached within my chest.

I was still in love with him.

After that day‚ just a few months ago‚ everything changed‚ even though I had wished for it to be just the way it was before.

But the memories were still there. The memories of how I began to feel around him.

And now‚ as I'm ignoring whatever the hell Max is yammering on about to mom and dad‚ I can't get these traitorous thoughts out of my mind.

I'm seriously in love with my brother…

A/N: Thanks so much for reading guys! I'll try and get a new chapter out once-twice a week. I have no clue how long this will be‚ and I am really bad at guessing‚ but I'll make a guess anyway and we'll see how right or wrong I am when this is finished. So I'm gonna go wiiitthhh… 10-15 chapters‚ adding up to about 20,000-30,000 words.

Until next time!