Let's say this story is M- or T because there is a description of a naked woman but there is NOTHING sexual. NOTHING! I insist! There will NEVER be any sex scenes in this story!
Nudity is one thing, sexuality is another so you can read quietly.
Libra 007
Jane and Maura's House
Maura and Jane had come home late after a long day at the police station. The air in the house was filled with a sweet tension, that of love that does not yet dare to say itself completely. They had lived together for several months, they had become even more inseparable, sharing moments full of tenderness, light kisses sometimes passionate, tender caresses, but never more.
Maura who had always been bisexual knew that Jane (who had never been in love with a woman) needed time to explore her new feelings and Maura respected that.
Jane, for her part, was torn. She ardently desired Maura, but each time they were close to taking the step, Jane did not go further
That evening, while Maura started to make dinner, Jane went into the bathroom to change and looked at herself in front of the mirror, and she undressed, the reflection revealing every curve and contour of her naked body. She was a strong woman, with broad shoulders and muscular arms, the result of many years of practicing different sports and years spent as a member of the Boston police. Her breasts were a little small for his taste (although Maura had once told him that her bust size was not ridiculous and Casey, her ex-boyfriend, had always told her that breasts were attractive) but well formed and firm, her flat stomach, her toned and well-defined legs testified to her rigorous physical condition without being excessive. She looked at her stomach which bore the mark of a scar from the hostage situation at the police station where she had to shoot herself in the stomach to save lives including Frankie's and there were a few other scars from operations due to injuries resulting from rough arrests or for example from appendicitis. Jane also looked at her hands and saw the scars left by Hoyt. Jane knew that these scars did not bother Maura but Jane wondered if she could caress a face as perfect as Maura's, a body as beautiful as Maura's and breasts as attractive as Maura's with this kind of scars that made the palms of her hands a little rough. These scars were a constant reminder of her bravery but also of her vulnerability. Jane looked at herself again and wondered if Maura could be excited by the sight of her natural body because Jane did not wax her bikini line. The armpits and legs yes but the rest no. Her bikini line was natural, with dark, curly hair. This decision not to wax was a personal choice, a refusal to conform when it didn't suit her. Jane sighed and said:
"What if she doesn't find me attractive because I'm a natural woman? Because I have too many scars?"
Jane looked at herself again and said
"Maura...Maura deserves better than that...she could have a more beautiful woman than me. She loves me, I know that but will she love my body?"
Jane remembered Maura's looks, always full of love and admiration, but Jane doubted. She doubted her body, her ability to be loved by Maura as she was, with her scars and her personal choices in beauty and Jane dressed in a BPD t-shirt and sweatpants and said to herself
"Maura loves me. She loves me and she's attracted to me! Well, I hope so..."
Then she went back downstairs and saw Maura smiling at her.
Later that evening after dinner, Maura, having noticed Jane's confusion, decided to speak. She sat down next to Jane on the couch, gently taking her hand in hers and said softly
"Jane, I know you love me passionately, I also know you want to make love but I see you're holding back. I see your doubts."
Jane looked down and said
"Yes, I love you! I love you like crazy, I've never loved anyone like I love you and yes, I want us to make love. You can't know how much I want this but...
But?
It's just... my body... my scars especially the ones on my hands, Maura. And... other things.
What about your body? I've seen it many times and I've always told you that you're a beautiful woman and as for your hands..."
Maura took Jane's hands in hers, then brought them to her mouth, gently kissing Jane's scars and said:
"These scars tell your story, your strength, your courage. They don't push me away, they make me love you even more.
I don't know if... if... I can touch your face... your body... give you pleasure with hands like that
No problem Jane! I love feeling your hands on me when you cuddle me."
Jane said
"But... what about my body? My scars..."
Maura smiled and said
"Jane, your body is beautiful because it's yours and I want you because it's you, I don't care if you have scars. You know how much you attract me, how beautiful I find you, how much I want you! I love you for who you are, not for what you think you should be."
Jane looked at Maura and said
"There's something else Maur.
I have to tell you that…
What?
I am not shaved Maura…well I am not shaved in…a certain intimate place…I am a natural woman."
Maura ran her hand over Jane's face and kissed her and said
"I don't mind! Jane, I don't care about your body, you are the woman I love and I want you, Jane, I really do."
Jane looked at Maura and said
"Maur, amore mio! I want you too, I am ready!"
Maura smiled and said
"So come on! Come on and don't be afraid! Don't doubt your beauty!"
They were silent for a moment, Maura's words echoing in the air. Then Jane, with a vulnerability she had never shown, moved closer to Maura, their foreheads touching and suddenly Jane let go and kissed Maura passionately and Maura undressed her completely and when Jane was naked, Maura said running her hands over Jane's body:
"I have never seen a woman as beautiful as you, I love your natural body"
Jane gave a big dimpled smile and Maura saw that Jane's eyes were getting darker and she was breathing faster, which were signs of excitement and Jane said in a voice more husky than usual:
"Tonight is going to be a very good night!"
Maura got up, took Jane's hand and the two women left for their room and once inside Jane saw Maura undressing languidly and then Maura took her hand again and while kissing, they lay down on the bed and Jane felt a new doubt disappear.
End