JUNJOU TERRORIST
VIII
THE BREAK UP
After the kiss fiasco Miyagi's vacations came to an end and he decided to returned to his working schedule, or at least that's what he said multiple times to his boss and his very cute, angry assistant, but in the end, he always made sure to be back home on time, pass on buying healthy food ingredients and check up his cellphone at least 10 times a day to check up on the kitten.
Every time he closed the door Miyagi would dread, would Shinobu try to leave? Does he cry alone? Is he eating well? Is today a holiday? Are there going to be any loud noises to wake him up? His mind was a mess of possibilities while he tried to work his way out of a pile of pending projects.
"Ohhh Kamijouuu !" He cried venting his frustrations at his assistant by his side, who in reply pushed and grumbled him away, "let me eat in peace!" he growled back. Miyagi looked down at the man's desk, "Ohhh what a nice smell! Didn't know you could cook" one could easily noticed the flinch and nervousness, "could it be... you didn't but someone else did for you? Ohhh so loving, it even has a heart on it!" he mused watching over Kamijou's shoulder the carefully arranged bentou.
"No! It's nothing like that... I bought it from the convenience... the convenience store!" Kamijou spluttered turning red all over "Hehehe... and now they draw hearts on their bentou?"
"No! Yes… But...no! I... I'm going outside to the break area!" Kamijou took hastily his box of food and run outside, probably to a secluded area where no one could see his lovable bentou. "Hmm so interesting…" Didn't know Kamijou had a girlfriend, or could it be a boyfriend? I should try to investigate further... He smirked but instantly at the thought of a boyfriend the little frame of a kitten appeared in his mind's eye. "Ahhgg" no matter what he did the sad gray eyes followed him everywhere. Maybe it's time for him to go back to the Dean's house, he thought, but instantly shook his head, a bile taste coming to his mouth, No, he's not ready yet, he's barely able to walk outside with me, there's no way...
And while Miyagi troubled himself with many thoughts, Shinobu troubled himself with a hard schedule, "Television for today's pets" occupied various hours of his morning and afternoon with classes for cleaning, gardening, laundry and cooking. Miyagi had rejected him, he knew that, but he also knew that the reasons were "changeable," he said he was a kitten so he only had to proof him wrong, acting more mature and overcoming his fears, he said he wasn't his pet, but if he acted like one he may want to adopt him. So he took the classes seriously, as well as his own growth. Even venturing outside to investigate as much as possible about his surroundings, leaving the apartment to talk with the other pets on the building; getting new ideas about what a Pet was meant for, "a Pet that does nothing is useless and it will be returned to the pound" said one of his new friends, "learn everything he likes and do your best, don't ever do anything he dislikes", he did not want to be returned, he wanted to be together with Miyagi forever. Of course he knew the Dean was a good person, the old man called him every day from the first day Miyagi returned to work to know about him, to see if he needed anything, talking to the guy was easy and nice, and he liked that.
After 2 weeks of hard chores he finally took a chance, when on the regular call the Dean asked him, if he had a wish for something. Shinobu took his first decision, alone.
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"I'm going to study" blurted out Shinobu blushing and scowling when Miyagi entered the house that night, still fluffing up the base of his tail to greet his beloved "the old man Dean said he will pay my tui-ti…. tui-tition…" explained Shinobu trying to remember all the words the Dean used. "I'll study in the Uni..virsitie you work... in, and learn in pet classes"
"Okay…?" Miyagi dropped his suitcase in the sofa, pulling his necktie softly from his neck, "but how are you going to do that if you can barely go outside?"
"I can!" said Shinobu trying not to quiver "its being 3 weeks since you returned to... work, work! And I'm doing fine… I even went out to talk to other pets!"
"That…" Miyagi felt his brow's twitching, the bile taste returning to his mouth, "Other pets? What other pets? "If you say so kid, that's your call, then, I guess, maybe next month..." responded Miyagi looking at the willful look on the kitten
"He agreed with me to start tomorrow, it's a special class for pets only, I'll study literature too" he said hoping the class would make them have something in common, this made Miyagi like the idea a little actually, but still he felt restless, "the kitten is not mine, if the dean wants him to be there why would I fight against it?" he thought yet the desire to lock the kitten inside was growing stronger. Looking at the definitive stare Shinobu was using he sighed, pinching his nose with his long fingers, and sighed yet again "Fine, but you'll leave with me and you'll wait for me to come back together"
"Yes!" Shinobu chirped happily, walking back home with Miyagi, lucky me!
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To Miyagi's surprise and annoyance Shinobu did great with the new schedule and studies, waking up early to try make him and himself a lunch-box, while Miyagi made sure to cook a good amount of breakfast so it would last till very late (trying to avoid the kitten's cooking experiments). They left the apartment to the University together separating only at the entrance hall, one to the literature department and the other to the Pet's special department. By the end of the day Shinobu would wait in a nearby classroom studying or doing homework, for Miyagi to finish work.
Having the kitten so close Miyagi couldn't help working even later than the other days. Shinobu was patient, but worrying about his beloveds health he would count on "allowed" extra hours and when he thought it was too much he would stand on his door and scratch it as softly as he could. At hearing this type of "call" the workaholic professor would stress out and leave as soon as possible, not wanting Kamijou to meet the kitten, he had the feeling that in meeting each other hell would break loose.
Shinobu adored his new schedule, being able to be so much time with Miyagi, do something interesting and to learn so much from the places and people Miyagi knew. It was more than perfect for him, even the time spend with the Dean was good. The man was patient, allowing the kitten to grow use to him, learning how to approach him without crowding, allowing Shinobu to express himself with his developing language skills. The Dean's wife was a different story, in a good way. The lovely woman would crowd a bit, but her motherly reactions reminded Shinobu of his own Mom, soft caresses, soft voice, so much warmth. Shinobu opened much faster to her, feeling safe and calm by her side.
To Miyagi the process was good, or at least he repeated it mentally. "Its fine, the quicker they get along the quicker he'll go back with them" but hearing the loud purring coming from the kitten, something he thought was only for him he couldn't stop the bile taste coming back up again, making him crash one more cigarette in the ashtray on his desk. At this point, there was almost no space there from all the cigarettes he had being lightening lately.
"So are you going to sell your kitten to the Dean?" asked one day his cinnamon assistant while copying some papers
"What?" mumbled Miyagi dumb-founded
"Your kitten, the caramel one that clings to you all time" he repeated not really caring about it. Miyagi scowled back taking his cigarette box from his breast pocket "shoot, I thought he didn't know" Miyagi coughed acting nonchalantly. "It's not really my pet, I'm just taking care of him for some time" he said yet hearing his own words made him feel sick, there goes again the bile taste on his lips, trying not to care he placed a cigarette to them and light it, the nicotine flavor helping.
"Yeah I thought so, because you have never had a pet before and that one is way too young" he said, Miyagi on his own thoughts did not notice the blush on his assistants face when he said it, focusing on the painful memories playing in his mind, the pet's existence only made them even more painful, "it might be good if they take him away sooner" he mumbled twisting his cigarette against the pilled trash in his ashtray.
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For the next few weeks everything went "normal" but contrary of what he expected Shinobu felt like Miyagi was turning cold and creating a space between them, his heart throbbed and tears poured down, he could no longer try and cuddle next to him, making him feel rather alone. Looking at the clock on the wall Shinobu sighed, he had some time, it was Saturday but Miyagi had mentioned that he would arrive late, "perfect" he mumbled and walked towards the kitchen.
Following the many cooking books and videos he tried to cook a traditional meal, it ended up smelling and looking burned, he had to repeated it many times till it reach the "edible" category, then he served it in a plate. He groomed himself as much as he could, taking care of the wounds that still hurt when touched, there were just a few of them but still he had to be careful. He couldn't wait for Miyagi to arrive.
"what's that smell?" asked Miyagi when entering the house, "did you burn something?" at hearing this Shinobu scowled gravely, he had jumped to greet him and he had entered complaining about that "don't know, maybe your nose is failing already old man" he responded, the tip of his tail rattling irritably, at seeing this Miyagi smiled, it had being quite some time since he had the little kitten pouting or scowling like that, he looked so cute. Entering the dining room he found the meal on the table, it did not look like an alien thing but it didn't look exactly promising either, yet he sat down "you did this?" he asked and Shinobu's ears twisted in recognition.
"I had some spare time, you can throw it away, if it's that bad" he said but glared at him, his eyebrows twitching and knitting and his shoulders trembling anxiously, Miyagi ate it as calmly as he could, it was not bad, yet not tasty, it was promising in the end so he ate it. "It's good" he said and Shinobu's ears perked instantly, pinning immediately after, "of course it is, I'm perfect in everything I do" he said matter-of-factly. Miyagi rolled his eyes at the statement. "Don't get it over your head, it's still a far cry from "Food""
When they had finally finished eating Miyagi sat down on the couch, papers stacked on his table, waiting to be checked, but noticing the kitten, fidgeting in his pet bed, curious he wondered "what is it, Shinobu-chin?" he asked and Shinobu's tail flinched for a second returning to undulating in broad circles, anxious "I need to tell you something"
"Really? And what is that?" asked Miyagi not lifting his gaze from the papers yet taking all his attention at the kitten
"I love you"
"Good… What?!" Miyagi dropped his red marker looking at the kitten dumbfounded
"I'm in love with you, I love you", for a few seconds Miyagi tried to understand what was happening, at not finding anything rational on the statement Miyagi looked back at his papers and pulled his cigarettes package out of his breast pocket, "Now brat that's not a joke you should…"
"It's no joke, I love you" stated again Shinobu his body trembling even thought he tried hard to hide it.
"No, you're just confused" started Miyagi taking the cigarette to his lips and lightening it "I was the only one there that you could trust and that's why you think you love me"
"I don't THINK I love you I just DO" he said standing up and moving closer to Miyagi "you have to take responsibility"
"You're far too young to know what love is"
"I know I love you, I want you to love me back"
"Now, don't drag people in to your own little thoughts, I'm not interest on brats like you"
"I'm a pet"
"Doesn't make any difference!"
"It's destiny Miyagi, you have to accept it!"
"I don't love you and I'm not going to love you EVER okay?!"he spat out and Shinobu backed off, feeling hot tears filling his eyes Shinobu trembled, Miyagi felt his heart ache, again he wanted to hold the kitten tightly against himself, pet him gently and make the tears go away, the painful feelings he himself had inflicted at the kitten.
"How… how can you know if you have not even tried?" Shinobu asked in a whisper, Miyagi turning to him felt his heart thumbing hard inside his chest, anger and wrath working his mind "Have YOU tried it already?"
"Yes, thousands of times!" said immediately the kitten yet his voice trembled betraying his words of confidence "I'm good at it like any other pet"
"Don't be stupid"
"Try me!"
"I'm not going to do it"
"Try me and if you don't like it I won't bother you ever again!" stated Shinobu trying hard not to show the fear that started creeping at the thought of "sex"
Miyagi looked at him, every thought running from his mind. In one second he pinned the small fragile body of Shinobu against the wall, he could hear the rapid breathing of the kitten, the desperate beatings of his heart, the tears had fly away yet his eyes trembled in panic. Miyagi continue on moving his arms to stop him from escaping, Shinobu wriggled "Miyagi?"
"Shut up, you said I could do it and I plan on doing it" he snarled attacking the kittens mouth, it was as soft as he remembered, but his kiss was deep and long, leaving the kit breathless, "Miyagi, Miyagi.." called between kisses without air Shinobu trying not to crumble, his legs giving away easily
"You have to be kitting me" laughed Miyagi sarcastically "at least do something if I'm doing all the work here" he said and took the kitten's hand to caress him through his clothes, the feeling sent bolts of electricity to both of them, Shinobu tried to continue on doing it but feeling Miyagi's hand against his bare skin paralyzed him, a voice in the back of his mind laughed cruelly, bringing tears to his eyes again. "No!" he cried and at seeing this Miyagi stopped moving, in shock he noticed Shinobu's tears, his eyes full of fear.
"I'm sorry" Miyagi said and moved away "It grosses me out, I can't be with you" he said and taking his briefcase back he went out of the apartment.
Shinobu cuddled in the floor, bringing his knees to his chest in a tight ball, closing his eyes he let the tears fall freely down to the floor until he fell deep asleep, filled with nightmares he couldn't yet understand.
A/N: So, what do you think? This took less time cause I had almost everything done from before... now it's totally done... hope you like it... wait for the next chapter * V * it's going to get REAL good, I promise. AND, thank you to all of you who continue on reading my fanfic and reviewing, can't imagine how happy you make me, love you all!