JUNJOU TERRORIST

IX

Now, to say Miyagi was a responsible man would be an understatement, in his job. For he treated his classes and research with the utmost respect and passion. Literature was the love of his life and so, he dedicated every regular and mostly all irregular breathing time, in to it. Sadly thought, his undying strength and perseverance was epically missing in his social life and Miyagi knew this, not that he would openly care about it.

Of course he tried to move on, got some girlfriends, went on dates, had sex partners, found a fiance and even married her. But even thought he SAID he tried, his heart always eluded the relationships, no bounds were created, no pieces of his heart given, no memories recorded or gilded like dear treasures in his mind and soul. Only one memory, only one love always remained there, unblinking, unforgettable and tortuously beautiful.

SURRENDER

"Tik tak… tik tak" the time passed painfully slow. Miyagi couldn't help grunting at the definitive glare the clock was giving at him, he could also feel the stares of his angry students, but what could he do? He couldn't go back on his word… but again, it was his fault for giving a 3 500 words essay as homework on the first place. Sighing again he pinches his nose, "you'll be showing a 50% progress on the first essay for next week and I want 40% progress on the second. And the two finished papers by the end of the month, understood?

"Thank you professor Miyagi!" many exclaimed, relief showing in their faces. Why had he thrown them such an impossible task for just a week? Again he looked at the clock and sighed. "We're finished for today, don't forget your homework" he took his book and chalk pack and moved out of the classroom, 3 hours done, 5 left to go…

It had being 2 weeks, 3 days and 13 hours since the damned incident with the kitten, not that he was counting, and he could tell the difference easily, a long list of differences, from the amount of sleep he was getting, or lack of it, to the weight he had lost and the amount of crashed cigarette packs in his living room table. "Done with the paper grading?" he asked his assistant at entering their office room. The guy nervous as always tried to cover a small lunch box, Miyagi eyed the bento with a smirk. "Ahhhh I want a love bento tooooo" he merrily sang pressing his body against his poor assistant, the young man trembled and squeaked pressing the box against his body to finally stand up in one movement, crying out loud, "You already have your own meal, I'm leaving… to eat out! Alone!" instantly after that declaration the man took his chopsticks and run outside the office to probably a corner of the dining hall, where no one would notice the heart-shaped carrots, or the heart-shaped kinako, and so on.

Miyagi sat down on his desk sighing again, the fun provided by the mental breakdown of his subordinate quickly vanishing thanks to one statement, "I HAD some bento before, but not anymore" It was 2 weeks 4 days and 4 hours, not that he cared, since the last lunch box certain kitten had cooked for him, but that was good right? Miyagi eyed warily his instant soup waiting to be heated with water, his stomach suddenly churning, "somehow I wouldn't mind some chopped cabbage" he thought smiling dryly. He had sensed the danger; he had tried so hard not to do it, why had he attacked the kitten? The frightened voice replayed in his mind, tormenting him. He had crushed everything he had being trying to gain with the kitten in months in just mere seconds. He had gone too far.

It was all. His. Fault.

Since that day Miyagi opted to leave earlier, before the kitten woke up and return as late as possible, when the kitten was cuddled in his pet-bed, tight in a ball. And then, it had being 1 week, 2 days and 1 hour since the Dean had claimed having a great idea and Shinobu, strangely, but maybe not so strangely had accepted the invitation to the Dean's house and stayed, for the weekend, and then for another 3 days in a row. Miyagi grunted and pulled a pack from his breast pocket, grunting again when noticing the empty state of it. Quickly he threw it to the garbage can and rummaged around his desk in search for another pack. That is, until he found one, just on top of a picture in a frame and a dark maroon collar around it. He took the collar biting his lower lip, memories suddenly flooding his mind, pain, anger, loneliness painting a gray canvas in his soul.

Why? Why had he being so young and useless? Why had them taken her to that horrific place? Why had they let her suffer? Getting sicker and sicker every day till… He pressed the thin fabric in his hand, forming a tight fist, knuckles whitening. Why couldn't he find happiness anymore?

Like in a wave, images of a certain pet flooded his mind, "I love you, I love you!"He had cried, so sweetly, so tenderly, so honest. Miyagi almost crashed the fabric in his palm biting his lip till drops of blood were drawn. ."He's not mine, he's young, he'll grow out of it…"he called like a mantra.

"Miyagi-kun!" as always the Dean brought him back to earth , opening the door the old man invited himself inside and sat down cheerfully next to the professor, "Good thing I found you Miyagi-kun!" he repeated, big smile on his face, "I can't wait to tell you the great news!"

"Great news?" Miyagi never leaving his eyes from the Dean moved his hands towards his desk, positioning again the collar in its rightful place. "What kind of…"

"Shinobu is going to return to our house! He finally accepted to live with us!" In a second Miyagi stopped in his movements, fingers still lingering in the leathery fabric, "What?" his voice sounded like a ghostly whisper.

"I know is a little shocking, but I spoke with my wife and even Risako agreed, it is time" little by little the old man's voice became farther and farther away from Miyagi's mind, he couldn't process the meaning of the words, couldn't accept them so his mind denied them instantly, "But he's still not able to move alone, he could…"

"I know it's not only exciting but difficult, but we know we can make it. Shinobu looked even excited! This days have being a trial and they worked perfectly, now we're ready, I know it." Confusing his bewildered eyes with one of concern the man waved his hand and smiled fatherly, "of course he won't suffer any problem at all… We'll all be with a therapist and take every step carefully." Standing up again the man patted Miyagi's shoulder, "I know we have being asking so much from you, I... we, appreciate it, now we can release this weight from you and move on. If there's anything we can do for you in thanks you just have to say it"

"But Shinobu might not like it, one or two days is different… he´s used to my apartment" he barely mumbled, letting the collar fall completely in his drawer.

"Oh no, Risako spoke to him earlier this morning, he couldn't be any happier, if you go now you might still find him, he said that he couldn't wait any more and it's packing up his things right now"

"WHAT?!" and that was the drop of water that overflowed Miyagi's heart

"I know it seems rushed but he being so eager… we must not waste it, now is the perfect moment to do this and now specially that we found a sweet pet girl, she is our neighbor's nanny, and she is so sweet, we think is time for him to breed and that would give him another way of forgetting those horrible memories of his past… the doctor said…" explained the Dean ignoring completely the frenzy movements of his subject, so when he opened his eyes he could only gasp as Miyagi raced out of the office.

"Miyagi-kun?!" called the Dean, but Miyagi didn't even turn to see his superior, not waiting he sped out of the university and in to his car, continuing on driving like a mad man, he knew he was acting immature, stupid, completely out of his mind, but he could not care less. He only had one thought, "let him be there, let him be there…" Who was he praying to? He couldn't tell, but whoever was hearing his prayers he begged to listen and grant him just this wish, just this time to allow him some hope of happiness.

Getting to his apartment he parked carelessly and went out, leaving his door unlocked, his portfolio inside. He run to the elevator and counted impatiently the levels, then, the doors opened, he run to his door and praying for one last time he took the knob and turn it in one go.

"Shinobu!"

"Miyagi…." Shinobu reacted instantly to the voice, his tail fluffing in its base to greet him, but his ears while perking for a moment, returned to lay flat against his scalp. Feeling his heart throbbing, Shinobu immediately breathed in and moved pass him "I believe you have already talk with the dean, I'll be done in a minute, I thank you for all you have done for me, I hope I get to repay…" Shinobu mumbled trying to be as polite as possible, trying for his voice not to give away the pain each word was causing. "Be strong, you can do it, be strong"

"You want to leave?" asked Miyagi turning to see his back, brows knitting together, jaw clenched tight and shoulders tensing. "To leave me?"

"What? ...I…" caught off guard Shinobu's voice trembled, he tried hard not to turn around, he knew that if he saw Miyagi's eyes he'll start crying "I do, can't wait…"

"You love that girl too?" he asked again holding tight at the hope Shinobu's trembling frame and quivering voice gave, he could tell when he was lying.

"Girl? What girl?" At this he turned meeting Miyagi's black eyes, he felt himself fall deep in them

"You don't know? The Dean plans on making you breed with a pet they now, you'll love her too?"

"I guess?..." Shinobu's voice was a mere whisper, but Miyagi could hear the words perfectly well, burning in his heart, "I'm okay with whatever my owner says, I'll do as he pleases"

"… but I won't love her" Shinobu finally cried, bending his head, hands in tight fists, "I love you, I'll always love you, it was not bad luck or good luck, it was destiny, I found you so I could be happy, so I could fall for you and you to fall for me, I'll love you for the rest of my 5 lives" Shinobu mewed pitifully, big tears running down his cheeks and Miyagi could not help a chuckle of relief escaping.

"Then stay"

"What?" Shinobu confused lifted his eyes to see Miyagi, not fully getting the meaning in his words

Miyagi in answer took his hands and pulled him in to a tight embrace "stay with me, right know I don't know about destiny or anything you say but let me try… to fall in love with you" Shinobu for a second gasped but after processing the words and actions of his beloved could do nothing but start crying louder. Letting the box he was carrying in his hands fall, he clanged to Miyagi's arms, "Miyagi…. Miyagi, I love you so much, I love you I love you…."

"You know, I thought cats had 9 lives?"

"Stupid… I used some of them already…" Shinobu grumbled, but his tail surrounded Miyagi's leg as tight as he could, bringing their bodies closer, "I love you Miyagi"

"I know… I truly do."

Author's note: So finally they are together? Well, not totally, but yeah, kinda. They still have a long way to go but for now, hope this chapter was good enough for your moe needs. Again, thank you all for reading, following and reviewing this fanfic, you can't imagine how happy you make me everytime I receive a mail informing me of any of that, I'm sooo happy, really. Byeeeee