AN : Ok it's been a while but a lot has been going on in my personnal and professional life and above all, my partner and I are in te process of having a baby, and the journey is very long and frustruating!
But I will try to update more frequently, with no dateline promises.
Jax helped me one more time.
So please review and let us know what you are hoping, what you liked or didn't like!
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She walked to the door and opened it, revealing the scene, which could be a scene from her past, right in front of her.
« What the hell... »
« Oh Shit... »
...
« You got to be kidding right... » Arizona laughed sarcastically. « Why are you here, in scrubs? Tell me you are here for a consult, and only a consult! »
« Arizona... I know you are going to feel upset but try to take it easy... » Callie replied, remembering what stress was caused to her ex-wife in Miami a few weeks prior.
« Where's my daughter? » Arizona reproached coldly.
Next to Callie, Teddy was witnessing the scene and was totally shocked by the cold and harsh tone Arizona was using. She was torn seeing her former inspirational couple so messed up. She knew there had been a lot of pain and drama around them, but she hadn't seen them so distant from each other.
« She's at the daycare, we've been staying at the hotel since yesterday, but you... »
« What the hell are you doing here?... Oh my god this is not happening! » Arizona yelled, another stronger wave of pain making her wince slightly, but only Callie noticed it.
« Arizona, you have every right to be mad. Yes, I quit my job and came back here. » Callie explained. « It happened very fast and I didn't want to put more stress on you than I already have. I asked Bailey and she hired me back. »
« I don't care! Why are you here! You should be in freaking New York with Penny and not here! » Arizona snapped back. « You ruined everything here when you were so adamant about leaving with the woman you were so in love with, taking my daughter and slut shaming me in front of our colleagues. Why are you here? »
« Arizona, please calm down... You have to calm down, think about your babies... » Teddy made a step toward her friends' direction seeing her shaking and totally upset.
« It took me everything I have to build a life in Seattle without you. I can't do this again. »
« Arizona, you are being irrational, please... » Teddy begged her.
She had met them when the couple was totally in love, head over the heels happy and now, there was so much anger and distance between them, but at the same time she knew the ex-couple were known for their extreme fights.
« And you knew, and you didn't tell me... That's perfect. » Arizona looked at the other blonde with disappointment.
« She didn't know anything. We just met this morning, and we were catching up. » Callie tried to explain.
« Shut up, just shut up, the both of you, please ju... »
Arizona stopped and bent her body; this time the pain had cut the air from her lungs and she couldn't take it anymore. She put her hand on her belly and the other one against the wall for support.
« Oh my god... » Callie yelled as she rushed to her side.
« Get away! » Arizona warned her ex-wife as Teddy approached her too, her eyes filling with tears.
« Arizona, you need to stop, you are having a nervous breakdown. » Teddy tried to catch her friend's attention « You need to stop and sit down. »
« I don't need... I... Aaaaah... » Arizona moaned in pain.
Callie eyes widened as she saw the big red stain on Arizona's pants. It was huge and was getting bigger by the second.
« No, No! » the ortho surgeon yelled rushing to Arizona's side while Teddy ran up the hallway.
« We need a gurney here! And paged OBGYN! » She yelled at the nurses, before helping Callie lift her friend's unconscious body from the floor.
….
A few hours later, Arizona was in a hospital gown, waiting for Carina Deluca. She was looking at the walls of the room she had been put in, anything so as not to make eye contact with Bailey who was trying her best not to lecture her.
She knew it was not a good time, and she knew her friend's life was very complicated these days. But she was Bailey… and she cared for Arizona… and she would stay by the blonde's side in silence if she had to, to be there for her, supporting her, because that's what friends do.
« You don't have a hospital to manage or some dumb interns to teach? » Arizona finally broke the silence.
Bailey rolled her eyes. She knew her colleague was upset and wanted to pick a fight to avoid dealing with her real issues.
« And what about you Robbins? Aren't you suppose to take it easy? Didn't I send you home to cool down a few days ago? » Miranda grumbled.
« And apparently during that time, you have been busy recruiting for team Ortho? » Arizona snapped back. « What is it with bringing back all your former surgeons Bailey? Is Grey Sloan some kind of retirement hospital for surgeons now? »
« I just take back what was ours before. Only the best in their field. » Bailey retorted. « Like you in Paeds or fetal. »
Arizona sighed She was tired of everything. She felt like every time she opened her mouth lately it was to complain or to get herself upset.
She was drained, emotionally and physically. Seeing Callie back like nothing ever happened had been the last straw.
Why was she so angry at her ex-wife. After all, she was moving on. She had settled an agreement for Sofia's custody, she was going to be a single mother, she had a job she loved, one of her best friend's was back in Seattle... She was supposed to be happy.
But it was the total opposite. The whole masquerade in Florida had rubbed salt in the wound of Callie moving away. First, she moved away from their marriage, and after, downright away from her, by leaving to the other side of the country with their baby girl.
She had never gotten over Calliope Torres. It was impossible. But after almost a year and half after their divorce, she thought she could survive like that. She would see her at work, she would have her daughter, and everything would be okay. Not great but Okay.
She deserved it. She had been the homewrecker in the first place.
And even if she had done everything to get her wife back, it had never worked.
And Callie had walked away for her own sake.
And after she was trying to convince herself that sharing custody of Sofia and planning the birth of her twins would be enough to fill her life, the emotions and all the events in Miami had shaken everything up.
« Don't worry Robbins. You're going to be okay. And those two little ones in there, they will be okay too. » Bailey said, sitting on the edge of her friend's bed. « I don't know why everything is always so … I just want you to know I'm here if you need anything.. »
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As soon as Bailey was out of the room, she felt an insistent gaze on her back.
« Don't even ask! » She warned as she walked away, not even turning to look at the assailant.
Callie stood there, worried and feeling some other things she didn't really know what to call. She opened her mouth to answer Bailey but instead she tried to reach her and grabbed her wrist.
« Wait! Bailey please! You... Can you at least tell me is she's okay? »
Bailey grumbled. She didn't do personal, but with those two, it was impossible not to.
« She will be. She just needs rest and peace. » the chief of surgery replied. « And she needs to figure things out. And so do you... »
« What does that mean? » Callie said.
« You know what I'm talking about Torres. I told you I didn't want your coming back to affect her but look what it already did. You need to give her time and space, to let her be. I don't know what's going on between the two of you. I just know that right now, you're toxic for each other. So please, just have limited interaction with her, only regarding Sofia and I will try to do what I can to avoid your schedules crossing with one another. »
« What is wrong with you Bailey? Who do you think you are? Don't you think I feel horrible seeing the mother of my child being that miserable? » Callie almost snapped as tears appeared in her eyes. « I know I ruined everything since the custody trial. And I know I have put her through hell. And I'm starting to think it was some kind of revenge. »
Bailey frowned and finally turned to face Callie. She tried to put all the pieces together, she was stunned by her friend's confession.
« You were here after her amputation. You know how she was mad at me. » Callie said. « She was awful, and maybe she was looking for an out. She pushed me away. But something changed, and I thought we were going to make it. We even tried to expand our family but it didn't work. And She pushed me away again, but this time I didn't want to support her. So, she cheated on me, and after that it was maybe the epiphany she needed, but she did nothing but try to get back to me. But it was too late, and even if we tried, she was trying harder than I was. I was still mad at her. And so, I took it out on her, and we were fighting all the time. Then came the fellowship, and I think I used it as my out. But without realising it at the time, and without telling her of course. »
As she was speaking, Callie was piecing things together and coming to understand the events of the past years of her life and she was feeling pain, anger and exhaustion.
After all Bailey was surely right. They were nothing but toxic for each other even when they weren't together as a couple.
« I … This was supposed to be something we would have done together; you know. having another baby. » Cally continued. « And I know she doesn't owe me anything, but the more I think about it, the more I can't handle it. And I know I have nothing to say, because I left her even if she did everything she could to try and fix things between us. I decided to divorce her, and I'm the one who went across the country with a woman I barely knew. But … It was to free her from me. I was moving on, and I wanted that for her too, but she didn't seem to do it. »
Bailey sighed and decided she didn't want to hear more.
« Callie, I am your friend, but I am not a shrink. I think you need to talk to someone. Maybe a psychologist to help you understand why you are here today. But Arizona is not strong enough to deal with your feelings. She's not even able to deal with her own. So please, do something about that. And when you are ready, and if she's ready, you'll talk and eventually get closure. That's all I can hope. For both of you »