-Issei-

Koneko-chan, Kiba, Senpai and Asia stopped hugging her as she fell asleep in my arms..

"Asia, could you heal Buchou's wounds?" I ask, hoping that we can do something for her.

"... It's what I've been trying to do, I managed to heal the burns, but… I can't heal her hands" She says, frustrated that Buchou's hands are still damaged from her using the destruction power on her own hands. Instead of her normal skin color, they are a pale gray.

We stay silent not knowing what to do when the door opens. Buchou's parents,sister and maid are here.

"How is she?" Sirzechs-sama asked.

" Asia managed to heal her for the most part but some of her hands are still damaged" Akeno-senpai responded.

She hesitates for a second "...Let's go back home, all of you need to rest."

Grayfia-sama gently pry Buchou away from my arms and puts her in a princess carry.

Since all of us are still in shock, we just follow them back to the Gremory mansion. All of the peerage didn't know what to do or talk, everyone just went to their own room.

As I lay in bed, I started remembering the fight. We all thought we had a chance, that as long as we were together we would win. But the moment Riser joined the fight it was over.

We couldn't do anything to him, ranged attacks did nothing and physical attacks only served to hurt me.. It was pathetic. Buchou was counting on me, but when the time came, there was absolutely nothing that I could do.

After Riser made me pass out, I woke up Hearing Buchou's screams from the Tv on competitor's room as Asia finished healing me. Her screams felt like they were crushing my heart, telling me it was all my fault.

I did understand that, even though we are slaves on paper, Buchou treats us like family but… I didn't truly understand how much she cared.

And then her screams turned from sadness to anger, and then the next moment she sounded like a beast… I felt scared for a second, forgetting who I was watching on the Tv.

Then she was attacking Riser and he was also scared of her. I started cheering for her, even got myself excited thinking that she's gotten the devil equivalent of super saiyan or something. She did more damage alone with that one scratch than all my power did.

When she took his legs and he decided to give up I was ecstatic. But when she got to the room screaming, all my excitement died down and turned into fear and regret, that all of that was happening because of me. I felt like I was just a normal human close to an angry creature, but I still managed to call her. We then looked at eachother and the next thing I knew she was hugging me. I hesitated for a second before hugging her back. She felt so small as she cried in my arms.

The scene of her crying until she passed out kept repeating in my head over and over until I fell asleep.

I woke up and joined everyone at the family's table for breakfast. They told us that Buchou was being treated by Grayfia-sama. Everything was silent until Akeno-senpai decided to ask.

"What… What happened to Rias?"

"...We don't know," Answered Zeoticus-sama. "Up until a point it could just be her releasing more power when she was angry. But the power that she showed felt different than what is considered to be normal"

"Yes," Sirzechs-sama said. " My own power of destruction is normal, but I have an overwhelming amount of magic and I have mastered it. But what Rias showed was different from anything ever seen. "

Venelana-sama continued "Normally our power just aims to "erase" something, It can be countered by attacks that have more power than what the caster used. But Satan Beelzebub talked to Riser to ask about the wounds. Riser said that it felt like he was being "corroded", that even out of battle, his body was fighting the vestiges of destruction power that only stopped a minute later when the battle was over. We assume that it was when she fell asleep that it finally went away."

We all went silent again for a while until Grayfia-sama teleported into the room and shouted "She is waking up!". We all stopped eating to go to Buchou's room.

When we got there she was in bed in her pajamas. For one second I realized that I never saw her sleeping with clothes on, maybe Grayfia-sama put on them so that it wouldn't become awkward for her to be waking up and seeing all her family without wearing anything. We could see her moving around the bed with a frown on her face and see her hands still had bandages.

While we all were just waiting for her, she finally raised her upper body and, with a grumpy face that I never saw on her, she started glancing around the room and got startled when she saw all of us looking at her.

" Rias, are you okay?" Sirzetch-sama speaks first.

Buchou turns to him and, after a few moments of hesitation, says " ... My hands hurt"

"That's… we weren't able to heal it but we know that your wound is slowly going away, it's only a matter of time before your hand goes back to normal."

Buchou nods her head and all of us feel relief for her to come back to us and not in an uncontrolled rage like she was before.

Grayfia-sama says "Is there anything you want? food, clothes, bath?"

She stopped for a few seconds but then she opened her mouth again.

" No, thank you, but… um… who are you?" She asked.

And then the feelings of relief turned into despair.

-Rias-

When I saw the faces of all of the people in the room I felt a little pain in my chest, that I shouldn't have said that. But I ignore it.

I'm not really sure if I have stolen this person called Rias's body, If my and Rias's soul merged together or that I was Rias from the start of our life but now I have lost her– my memories only to remember my past life.

If that was all it would be fine but.. the latest memory i have from my past life is being bound to the hospital in bed, then dying and then meeting Zack i don't remember my life from before that. Is this supposed to happen or did he fucked up something in my reincarnation?

… It doesn't really matter now, what matters is that I am Rias now. This is my life, and even though I don't remember these people, I feel like I know them. I don't want to keep lying to them for the rest of this life and pretend that it was all okay, that nothing has changed, because it did.

"You… don't remember who I am?" The older gray haired woman asked.

I shake my head.

"Do you remember me? or any of us?... Do you remember yourself?" the red haired woman says.

I shake my head again" I feel like you are all familiar but.. I don't remember any of you and … myself... Sorry."

The room's mood got even worse.

After a while the red haired man asked "Can you tell us what you remember?"

"I… remember waking up and being really angry and… attacking a blond person that could throw fire at me? Then I remember being transported, somewhat recognizing the people there and then passing out."

-Venelana-

…I.. What should I have done differently?

This is not supposed to happen. Why did this happen?

At the game we all thought that Riser's actions had been cruel but understandable, due to Ria's treatment of him, even if Sirzechs didn't want to admit it. We for a moment were even thankful, because if it was a devil for the old satans faction, it wouldn't think twice in actually killing a "disposable slave". In the end this would be a lesson for Rias to grow, for her to learn to be a more responsible devil and have a change in attitude, to not let her problems accumulate.

Sirzechs has many times asked us to break the marriage because of how much it was hurting her little sister. It was always Me, Zeoticus and her own wife that always shut that down. That arranged marriage was something that she had to live with or deal with in her own way.

But we always were expecting that IF she ever were going to do something, it would be to help her own peerage with their traumas, but years were gone and still nothing changed. She trained a little but never put effort into it. She stayed the same, her peerage stayed the same, even with Issei and Asia, they would just be learning how to be devil in a very slow paced way.

Zeoticus didn't see a point in letting her keep getting away from marriage. I wanted to let her enjoy her youth but I agreed that it was better for her to stop her unreasonable hate against Riser and just get Married.

Me and Zeoticus agreed that we would have allowed her to finish high school but if she wanted to go to university in the human world if she promised to bear a child in the near future and to spend time with Riser without trying to antagonize him.

But now… here we are. My baby now doesn't remember anything, not even herself.

What should I have done? Should I have never let Rias go to the human world? Should we not have pampered her as much as we all did? Should I have been more strict with her training?

I kept repeating the different scenarios of "what if", but it won't help anyone. Even if she doesn't remember, she is still our baby, our little Rias. We all need to think of "what now".

-Rias-

I see many different reactions. Some are starting to cry, some seem frustrated, the brown haired girl in school uniform was biting her lips enough to bleed. The red haired woman seemed almost ready to murder someone but the older gray haired woman gets close to her and pulls her for a hug.

The people with the school uniform left the room to not "overwhelm me".

I hate this. I literally just met these people. I shouldn't be this upset at seeing them like this. I don't like this silence, of just doing nothing but watch as these people slowly crumble as they realize that things will probably never be the same. Maybe I should have waited for them to recover from the news. But I want to do something, anything other than just staying in bed with this sad mood.

"What now?" I break the silence.

Nobody knew what to say until the Older brown haired woman said ".. It probably would be better for us to… understand what you know and remember."

The red haired man followed up with " We will also teach you what you forgot while trying to see if your memories will come back."

The Gray haired woman says after a while "... Is there something that you need— no, that you would like to do now?"

I wait a moment before saying "Can...Can you tell me about.. well, me? and about everyone? "

I can feel that they are still upset about everything, but now I can see a semblance of a smile in them.

And for the next few days, I've decided to learn about myself and these people that I now know as my family.

AN: Hey, We got to chapter 2! There are less Rias parts but this was one of those chapters that made more sense for the others to react more.

I was going to add more to this chapter but I thought that it was a nice place to end.

Also about Rias actions towards training i didn't remember if in cannon it mentioned how much she trained in her life but i do know that Rias talking A Lot of shit about Riser is more fannon. But it was one of those things that could make sense and I thought it would be better to be this way in my story. But Thank you for noticing.

If there were more things that sounded more like fannon than cannon, please point it out or ask if about it. I don't mind saying that if it was on purpose or if I made a mistake, unless I'm trying to make a surprise about something.

Just to remind people in case they get confused. Issei and Sirzechs are women here. I'm putting this because sometimes i have to go check if i remembered to put "her" and "she" when i refer to Sirzechs.

Also I've read DxD up to before the shin DxD years ago but I've decided to re-read everything from the start. And since I've learned to like issei, it's been great. But apparently there are a lot of things that they just ignore afterward or retconned after a few volumes.