Hello all! It's been many years since I have written, returning to create. I have actually previously written Hunger Games novels but alas got locked out my account haha so this is a new franchise I am writing, Twilight which I am excited for! Hunger Games and Twilight were always my favourite, this is very centered on Jacob and Bella and their relationship. I was ALWAYS TEAM Jacob, so this story will not have Reneesme, this is Bella and Jacob so I am sorry to those who are Team Edward! but will treat all the characters well What I love about stories and for a lot who write here is that this is an expression of your creativity and imagination, it is an expression of your soul and imagination which is beautiful! So please be kind! I know we are very protective of the franchise and protective of the characters we love! If it's not your cup of tea that's ok but please be kind

This takes place after New Moon before Eclipse and centres on the dynamic and relationship between Jacob and Bella, Edward has come back but the emotions are still raw and problems arise. In this there was a longer period of time that Edward was away giving enough time for Jacob and Bella to really establish the connection and bond. What happened more in that time? What is Bella hiding from Edward? What if her heartbeat for another was stronger than before and made her question? How will she choose between her strong and silent Vampire and her wild Wolf? Rated M for Maturity

All characters are aged 20 and over because I prefer

This world and rights belong entirely to Stephanie Myers who brought to life from her imagination this AMAZING world!

The rain poured hard outside pelting against my window as I lay staring at my ceiling, I lay wide awake as I looked at my clock, 2:06am… not even tired as the thoughts within my mind kept me awake. Though I yearned for sleep, sometimes my dreams plagued me and were as cruel as my reality, I saw in my dreams his smile, his eyes, I could vividly smell his scent even in dreams: pine and wood, salt from the ocean spray of the La Push beach, earth. It was a scent when I smelled I instantly felt safe, because I knew deep down my Jacob was near, and now? Cold, only cold. My warmth and sunshine had gone, overcast and dreary were my days, sorrow had carved a home into my heart and rested there as worry and anxiety had taken over everyday. My feelings and thoughts were constantly plagued by what if scenarios and questions of doubt. It had been now 5 weeks since I last spoke to Jacob, I felt terrible at how it disintegrated. When Alice had come and told me that Edward had gone to the Volturi to kill himself I instantly left to save him, of course I would at the time, I didn't want my beloved Edward to die but also I didn't want someone to die for me, even thought it had been 7 months since Edward left me in the woods I still felt I needed to save him just as he had saved me from James. The look of betrayal and devastation etched on Jacob's face seared into my mind as he begged me not to leave that night, his hands gripping onto the door of Alice's car, I was always going to come back to Jacob, but I had to save Edward, I couldn't have him die. It was my first thought at the time.

Since then, my Jacob was gone. My world was filled with silence, no returned calls, no returned letters. My letters came back return to sender, I had inquired to Charlie if he had seen Jacob when he went fishing with Billy but Charlie never mentioned much, preferring to stay out of it. The only information I got from him one day when I pestered him coming back from Billy's house was "Bell's, I don't know what went down between you two and I don't want to get involved but give the boy some time, whatever happened and you don't need to tell me but the boy is hurting bad, there was a time when you felt that as well, I think you just need to leave him to sometime" I couldn't blame Charlie, after what I put him through. Charlie had seen me through my worst and was my rock along with Jacob, I knew I had put him through hell and he had been there for me. Edward returning to Forks had only made him angry, that along with me reuniting with him. But Charlie wanting to stay out and advising to give Jacob time, I couldn't disagree. That had been 5 weeks ago and nothing, nothing but silence which was deafening. I looked up at my dreamcatcher that Jacob made for me, it was the closest I had of him, that and the photos next to my bed of us together. I would take pictures of us when we were together working on the bikes, I look at those pictures and see a smiling, carefree girl, with her best friend, with someone she loved. If I could turn back the time knowing then what I know now. Tears started to come to my eyes as I wiped them away. I turned to my pictures on my nightstand, the last image I saw before I cried myself to sleep.

The morning was freezing as I exited my home, Edward had come to collect me as I was allowed to see him on the weekends only, since graduating from high school I entered community college, Renee had hoped I would leave Forks and attend college somewhere sunny but I couldn't abandon Forks, there was a purpose and reason I had to stay, unfinished business. Though he tried hard, Charlie was still not happy about my relationship with him and limited my activities with him informing me to focus on my studies at community college, and yes while I was 20 and a grown woman who could do what I want I still lived at home and was respectful to dad, he saw me at my worst and was there for me. To tell you the truth I don't know how Renee would have dealt with it, Dad was my rock. I was studying teaching as I had hoped to be a teacher, I entered the car as the rain still came pouring down, removing my hoody and shaking the water from my hair, Edward kissed my cheek smiling and turned the heater up in the car for me. "Keep you warm!" I smiled at the sweet gesture as the warmth filled the car, I rubbed my hands together warming myself up. "So if it's ok with Charlie I was thinking we could go back to my place, Esme is experimenting with her cooking for you" he smiled sweetly at me as he reversed out of the drive way. "Oh wow she's cooking more for me?" I inquired "well we have a kitchen and now we are together I know once Charlie is ok she would like to make you some more recipes" he said as he drove us to the Cullens home, I shrugged my shoulders "yeah sure as long as Charlie is ok, I would love to taste test!" I giggled, Edward faced smiling from ear to ear happy as he kissed me again, a chaste kiss on my lips as I returned, I still couldn't help but feel though as I kissed him back it was cold, though we were in the warm embrace of the heating in the car and yes he was a cold one, the kiss felt colder, with no emotion from me. I questioned myself as my heart fluttered, panic setting in as I stared out the window, "What was wrong with me?" there was a time where I ached for Edward, but now I could kiss him, with my eyes open, something was wrong.