Alice: New chapter!

Emily: Sorry it's been a while. School has been crazy busy!

Alice: But I'm free now, so let's get started!

Emily: Enjoy the chapter!

Alice: There's a lot of team bonding in this one!

Emily: Well not the whole team but one on one members of the team.

Alice: Especially with Cyborg, Beast boy, and Robin. Mainly because something happened in each of their lives which is quite parallel to each other in a way.

Emily: Read the chapter to see what I mean!

Crash

Part 1

His ankle was aching, sending stabs of pain throughout his leg. He could barely move his leg let alone stand on it. A strong figure grabbed him and hoisted him up, supporting most of his weight. Even with his ankle howling in pain, Beast boy attempted to steady himself as he stood up. He needed to stand right now.

Because if he didn't fight, she would die.

"Terra!" He screamed, but the blonde girl didn't turn around.

Fire and lava were surrounding the team, and Beast boy could feel the rising heat hit his face. Sweat was forming at the top of his forehead, and his ankle was swelling due to the injury Terra accidentally caused him. "TERRA!" He tried screaming again, but his voice wouldn't come out. He was silent and alone and in pain, and Terra wasn't turning around.

Fire engulfed the blonde girl before he could move, and he froze.

Even with the tremendous heat surrounding him, his body felt cold. He couldn't move… couldn't breathe… Terra… Terra…

"TERRA!"

Beast boy gasped, sitting up in a panic. He quickly glanced around the room before realizing he wasn't underground but in the Titans Tower. He was home. He sighed, rubbing his forehead and dropping his body back on his bed. He shut his eyes tightly, willing the nightmare he just had to go away. Every night this has been happening, and every night it's just become worse. He could barely sleep, and he was pretty sure he lost a significant amount of weight.

He tried keeping these new developments from the team, and so far it was working. Each individual had so many issues to work out that they didn't notice the bags under Beast boy's eyes or his snappy, depressive behavior.

Since he had multiple nightmares, he already knew he would be unable to go back to sleep. Other nights he just lied away and thought of the nightmare, which would only depress him more. Instead he decided to what he usually did when this happened.

He threw the blankets off of him and basically dashed out of the room.

When Robin started making breakfast the next morning, he instantly noticed two things: Raven was sitting as far away from him as possible, and Beast boy was missing. Not wanting to deal with the first scenario, he sighed and stood up, grabbing his breakfast plates as he did so. "Robin?" Starfire questioned. He wasn't even finished half of his food.

"I have something I need to do," he answered her with a reassuring smile.

Cyborg frowned but said nothing as Robin dumped his dirty dishes in the sink and walked out of the room.

It was easy to figure out where Beast boy would be. Robin sighed as he glanced around the dark shadows filling the cave. While her loss hit the team pretty hard, no one was experiencing the amount of grief Beast boy was. Of course, Beast boy has definitely gotten better, but there were little moments that told Robin he clearly was not okay.

He approached the statue of Terra, which hasn't changed since that fateful night. Underneath it, Beast boy was curled up in a fetal position, completely asleep. Robin winced and slowly approached the younger teammate. On his cheeks, there were dried tearstains.

"Come on," he mumbled, softly grasping his shoulder. "Wake up BB."

He stirred slightly but didn't open his eyes. Robin pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed. He couldn't carry the boy, and he couldn't leave him here either. Instead he sat by the statue of Terra and leaned his head back. "I get it, you know," he started whispering. "I get what it's like to lose someone you were in love with. I never really lost her, but I couldn't be with her anymore. Her name was Barbara. When we broke up, I didn't know what to do with myself. I thought that her breaking up with me proved that I was messed up from the incident, and I would never get better. You met her before, you know, when I was… when I was his apprentice. Anyway, I thought I'd never feel that heartbreak again. I figured she was the one, and I wasn't going to love anyone else, so why would I get hurt?

Then I met Raven. I don't know what it was about her, but I just… I don't know. I just ended up falling in love with her, and I thought maybe it'd be different this time. We were really close, and for a while, I thought we had something there and that she saw it too. Then she started avoiding me, and during our stay at Tamaran, she told me there was nothing. Less than nothing actually. I just… I may not have lost her like you lost Terra, but it still hurts. It hurts so much, and I can't take it, but at least she's alive. What you're feeling… I don't think I could imagine it."

Robin sighed, waiting for Beast boy to make some sort of movement, but he was still asleep. Instead of trying to wake up him, Robin just sat there and sighed. "I miss her too you know," he murmured. "I wasn't that close to Terra, but…"

At the name "Terra," Beast boy's body gave a small start. Robin slowly reached out and grasped his shoulder, shaking him awake. Beast boy's eyes sluggishly opened, and he tiredly glanced at Robin. "What're you doing here?" he slurred.

"You fell asleep in a cave. I think I should be the one asking questions," Robin sighed, slipping his hands under Beast boy's body to hoist him up. Even though Beast boy was finally standing, he was heavily leaning on Robin, who was basically carrying him out of the cave. The younger of the two still looked drowsy and was probably half asleep as they were walking. Robin guessed he was going to have to save this particular conversation for later.

By the time Beast boy woke up, Robin had already carried him back to the tower and placed him on the couch. Beast boy slowly sat up and rubbed his eyes, not remembering the past couple hours. He remembered he couldn't sleep, so he went to see Terra, but he ended up breaking down. Eventually he cried himself to sleep, and that was the last thing he remembered.

"You're awake?"

Beast boy gasped and whipped around to see Robin sitting on the table across from him. Beast boy flushed. "Um… yeah."

Robin nodded, immediately asking, "Are you okay?"

Beast boy shrugged. He knew he couldn't lie to Robin especially after what he had seen. "I just have trouble sleeping."

"Do you need anything to help?" he asked bluntly. "I have some stuff if you need."

Beast boy furrowed his eyebrows. "Stuff?"

"Sleeping pills," Robin's upper lip cracked in a small smile. "Nothing illegal. All over the counter."

"You need sleeping pills?!"

"Given everything you've seen with me, are you really that surprised?"

Not at all. Beast boy sighed, his mind flashing back to the incident with Soto. Robin warned him of everything he would experience in terms of the trauma from his torture. The way he said it made it seem like he experienced it as well, and Beast boy even confided in Terra about his theory that Robin had been tortured at one point. Terra…

"I just…" Beast boy struggled to form the words. "I can't stop thinking about what happened. I can't…"

Robin nodded sympathetically. "Have you tried talking about this with anyone?"

They both knew that he hadn't. Not really anyway. "No," he sighed. "I just… I want it to go away, you know."

"I know," Robin nodded understandingly. "You need to talk to someone about these things, BB. Otherwise it'll just eat you up."

"I know," Beast boy mumbled. "I'm just not ready to talk about it yet…"

"I understand," he nodded sympathetically. "I really do, but when you are ready, talk to me."

"I will," Beast boy stated.

Robin smiled and lightly patted Beast boy's shoulder. As the leader walked out of the room, Beast boy stared at the ground feeling absolutely numb. This wasn't the first time Robin has used the "I understand" card on him. When Beast boy confessed about his parents dying, Robin "understood." When Beast boy was tortured by Soto, Robin "understood." When Beast boy lost Terra, Robin "understood." At this point, he was so tired of hearing that line from him. Yes, he understood, but Beast boy wasn't Robin. He couldn't go through a traumatic experience and just train it off! He couldn't shove it all down and distract himself with meaningless training and…

And that was it…

Beast boy quickly stood up with a gasp. That was the answer all along! Thinking about Terra only caused him pain, so he just had to not think about her! And the only way to do that was to distract himself so he wouldn't! Robin trained and fought and obsessed over villains to forget his problems, and Raven meditated to forget about hers. He just had to figure out what would work for him!

Something that had always managed to distract him…

He knew what he had to do.

It took hours.

Hours of figuring out where to download it from and exactly how to download it. He watched so many videos of hacking he was sure he was almost as knowledgeable as Robin and Cyborg at this point! Throughout the entire process, he didn't think of Terra once! And now he had the ultimate distraction…

MEGA MONKEY'S FOUR!

He giggled to himself as he rushed to the Titan's lounge where he could play. Happiness and forgetfulness was so close he could almost taste it! Shoving the DVD into the player, he patiently waited for it to load on the screen.

Only for it to be spit out almost immediately afterwards.

His jaw dropped, and he stared at the DVD on the floor in shock. After all that work, he couldn't play it? What was he supposed to do now? An image of blonde hair and tearful blue eyes came to his mind, and he shook his head. No, he couldn't give up now!

Grabbing the DVD, he rushed around Titans Tower, trying to find another computer that could play the game. Unfortunately, none of them worked. Not even the Titans mainframe could handle the game! Each time he failed, he could feel the ghost pain on his ankle, the heat touching his face, and Terra's sorrowful eyes. He continually shook his head and tried to find another computer.

As he was rushing down the tower, he paused when he passed Cyborg's room.

Cyborg definitely had the most current tech in his room, and Beast boy was sure that his computer would be able to play the game. He was definitely sure that Cyborg wouldn't mind if Beast boy logged on to play a video game. Normally Cyborg was really cool with that kind of stuff! Although Cyborg had been a little off lately…

But it was worth a try!

Bursting through the doors, Beast boy tried to find Cyborg's main computer. When he did, he smiled brightly and rushed to the computer, shoving the DVD in. Almost immediately the doors opened and Beast boy gasped.

"BB?" Cyborg questioned, and Beast boy once again flinched at the name. Terra created the nickname, and ever since the Titans have been using it for him. It still reminded him of her, and he didn't like hearing it. "What are you doing here?"

"Just trying to play a game on your computer," Beast boy honestly replied, shrugging innocently. "I figured you wouldn't mind."

"I don't but just let me know next time," Cyborg sighed, rubbing the back of his head as he walked towards Beast boy.

"You okay?" Beast boy asked innocently.

Cyborg nodded. "Yeah, I just need a little recharging."

"Oh, let met get out of your way," Beast boy backed up a few steps.

"It's fine," Cyborg yawned. "I'll get the computer for you while I recharge."

Beast boy frowned at the comment but said nothing as Cyborg pressed a few buttons. Suddenly a computer came out from the wall, and Beast boy's jaw dropped. "Wait that's your computer?" Beast boy stared at it, unaware of what Cyborg was doing behind him. "If that's your computer then what's…"

He turned around to face Cyborg and nearly screamed at what he saw. Cyborg was putting a plug in his chest. It wasn't the fact that Cyborg was literally putting a plug into his body (he had seen that plenty of times over the years). It was that the origin of the plug was from the place where he just put in the DVD. The DVD with the illegally downloaded game. Beast boy knew that the game was bound to have viruses, but the videos told him the viruses wouldn't effect computers; however, they might affect Cyborg!

"Wait Cyborg, that might have a—" Beast boy started but it was too late.

The plug was in, and Cyborg let out a scream. "VIRUS!"

Robin awkwardly sat in the kitchen, glancing at Raven, who was by the stove. Starfire was sitting across from him, and he could tell she could feel the tension in the room. Robin wanted to say something, but he knew how Raven would react. After what happened with Beast boy that morning, he didn't want any drama to start, so he kept his mouth shut. He sighed, rubbing his forehead when all of a sudden Cyborg burst into the room. He jumped slightly and cursed himself for being off guard.

Robin frowned. "Cyborg?"

Cyborg turned to him and teared up. Robin gaped as Cyborg rushed to him and grabbed his shoulders. "Robin!" He exclaimed tearfully. "You're so perfect!"

"Excuse me?"

"How are you so perfect all the time? You're a genius, you're an amazing fighter, and you're great with girls!" Cyborg basically shouted. "Robin, I'm so jealous of you, and sometimes I think that gets in the way of our friendship. I'm sorry, but it's just so frustrating to see you so perfect. I mean, you're even better at technological stuff than me! And that's my thing!"

"I'm… sorry?" Robin raised an eyebrow, confused by Cyborg's behavior.

Raven slowly approached the emotional man. "Cyborg, are you okay?"

"No!" Cyborg exclaimed, turning to her and releasing Robin. "I'm not okay, thanks for asking! I lost Terra. I know I wasn't as close to her as BB and Star were, but I still considered her a really good friend. The fact that someone sent us Slade's mask is really freaking me out, and I know Robin has been pulling all nighters just so he could find whoever sent it, and I'm worried about whether or not he'll have another breakdown because of it!"

At that, both girls turned to Robin, who avoided their eye contact immediately.

Cyborg continued, "Not to mention the whole Robin and Raven drama. Honestly, when are you guys going to get together? We all know you two are going to eventually!"

At that, Robin and Raven instantly flushed, and Starfire blinked. "Cyborg!" Raven hissed.

Cyborg gasped, "You're right! I shouldn't have said that!"

"Yeah, you shouldn't have—"

"In front of Starfire!" Cyborg interrupted, turning to Starfire, who blushed. "Starfire, I'm so sorry Robin rejected you. I'm sorry I encouraged you to like him in the beginning. I honestly thought you two would be together until I realized how obvious it was that Robin and Raven were supposed to be together. I'm really sorry you're in love with someone who doesn't love you back."

"It's fine," Starfire rushed out. "I am over him anyway."

Robin perked up, turning to her with a large grin. "You are?"

Starfire smiled softly and nodded. "I am."

"That's great, Star," Robin grinned, and it was the happiest she'd seen him look in a long time. She would be lying if she said that didn't sting a bit.

"That's amazing! See, it's working out well for you!"

Just as he said that, Beast boy rushed into the room and paled when he saw all of the Titans together. "Um guys?" he stuttered. "There's a problem."

"You're damn right!" Cyborg turned to Beast boy. "Beast boy, I'm so sorry you lost Terra."

Beast boy outright flinched. "Um… Cy, I don't think we should talk about that."

"No we need to!" Cyborg crossed his arms over his chest. "Beast boy, I get that you've been hurting because of her. You were in love with her, and she was in love with you, but you couldn't be together. That must have hurt so much even when she was alive. To want to be with someone but know you can't because they're on the wrong side… Well you know what, screw it! You're in love, aren't you? Why does being on the opposite side have to matter?"

All of a sudden, Cyborg gasped and turned to the titans. "There's something I have to do."

Without any warning, Cyborg dashed out of the room, leaving a very confused team behind.

Beast boy blinked and was about to leave the room to chase after him, but Robin's stern voice made him freeze.

"Beast boy, explain."

He sheepishly turned around and tried to smile cutely at his leader. When it was apparent Robin wasn't in the mood to be lenient, Beast boy sighed and began telling the story from the beginning, knowing how angry Robin would be at him.

Well… at least he got his distraction.

Alice: Next chapter will deal with a lot more emotional stuff.

Emily: Can you guys guess where Cyborg went and why?

Alice: Anyway, thanks for reading! I'll try to post the next chapter ASAP.

Emily: What did you guys think of it? Good? Bad? Let me know!

Alice: Have an amazing day! Happy October!